Her Absolution

Chapter 16

    After that explicit and hot conversation we finish eating. I show Ashton where he was going to sleep, told him to take some clothes from Parker’s drawers and got him a towel and a toothbrush. I let him in Parker’s room to do his business, said good night, and make way to my room, the one in front of his.

    I go to my room and close it. I’m against the door trying to calm my breathing down. I don't know how I was composed in front of him. Going to my night stand I open the drawer and take out what I want, my vibrator. I can still feel my arousal from the make out in the locker room. I can also feel my panty getting more wet; I have to find release. And I can’t do it with Ashton, I am not going to get involve with him like that. I’ll have to take care of it. He turn me on so much I think I’m going to explode from the horniness. I haven’t feelt this way in a long time, no. I have never felt this way, not even with Ryan.

    Ryan is nothing compared to Ashton. Oh God it was only a make out in the locker room, but what he said to me in the kitchen, those words of his just turn me more horny. Imagine if we had s*x, it would be explosive, like the fourth of july.  

    I don’t think I can masturbate with him in the room in front of mine. I go to the bathroom and head for my corner soaking tub. It’s the farthest thing from the door and I can be comfortable there. I hope he doesn’t hear me; I strip myself from my clothes as fast as I can. I stand in front of my bathroom mirror and tie my hair into a high ponytail.

    Laying down in the tub I put my lovense vibrator on my p***y. I turn it on my phone going slow at first for a minute. Then I move my index finger on my phone for the vibrations to go higher, while my left hand is playing with my left breast, imagining it's not my hands touching them but Ashton's. It feels good to masturbate, to release all this tension I been having for the last week and months. I pinch my n****e. I move to the other breast and do the same thing I did to the other.

    I’m holding my moans by biting my lips. I remember what Ashton told me: “Don’t bite your lips. Only I can.” That made me more wet. I leave the setting of the vibrator to the highest, looping it. Taking my hands to my breasts, massaging them and squeezing them for a few minutes. With my index and middle fingers on both n*****s I twist and pinch them for a few seconds. That feels so good. 

    One of my hands go to rub on my c**t. I rub it hard and fast then slow and again fast. I'm changing the rhythm. My vibrator is getting me more wet. I can already feel my juices on my ass. I keep rubbing my c**t letting out a few moans of pleasure not holding the moans anymore. But I’m still trying to keep quiet, but my mouth has other plans and moans get out. I feel myself on the edge of my o****m. I stop the vibrator from it’s work. 

    I take the vibrator out of my p***y and move it in and out, letting more of my juices flow out. I put it in and start the looping again this time it goes high and low and then middle. I loop it again. I stay like that for a while with out touching myself, letting the vibrator do it's work.

    Feeling my o****m again I take out the vibrator and insert two of my fingers. They go in and out, in and out. I use my other hand and rub my c**t. The pleasure is so good I feel like I'm going to explode. My toes are curling and I'm throwing my head back. I rolled my eyes to the back of my head, feeling the o****m. Letting it flow out and rip me of the pleasure. I shake for 20 seconds from cumming.

    I know I moan out really loud but I don't know if I scream Ashton's name or if that was my imagination from thinking that he was the one bringing me to the edge. That it was his fingers and tongue that made me find my release. I'm breathing really hard. I decided to stay in the tub for a few minutes trying to calm down from my high. Thank the universe I was alone at home, well that my family wasn't here. It would have been really embarassing, and poor Ruby will be scar for life. 

    I step out of the tub and look at the mess I made. I'll clean it after I shower. I take out my hair fron the ponytail and step in the shower. The warm water is refreshing and calming. Now that I let this s****l tension get release a little let's see if I still feel strongly attracted to him.

    I get out of the shower and dry myself. Since Ashton is here I put the towel around my body and go to my closet. I take out a black sweatshirt from the hangers and put it on. Going to my drawers I look for some panties and put it on. I open my fourth drawer and take the white short and put it on too. As I close the drawer my hands go to the fifth drawer, the one that only has one thing in it. I let my fingers touch it, but I don't dare open it.

    I stand up and put it on the back of my mind. Don't break down. Don't break down. I keep repeating the same sentence, like a mantra. I go and sit on my window sofa, looking out at the sky. It was beautiful, you can only see a few stars but it's better than in a city were you can't see them. 

    Standing up from the sofa I go to the bathroom and take care of the mess I made. I guess it was inevitable it's been months, almost a year since I have been pleasure for that matter. After cleaning the tub I went to my bed. 

    I try to sleep but this damn insomnia is not helping. I stay on my phone for an hour and try to go to sleep again and nothing. I feel to energetic. Maybe if I drink some water that will calm me. I exit my room and see that the door to Parker's room is close. 

    Good his asleep. I go downstairs and enter the kitchen. Even if by this time everyone's sleeping I can hear the house complete. Now I hear nothing just silence and not the echoes of dad's snoring or Ruby kicking her sheets from her body. There is complete silence in the house.

    I opened the fridge and take out a water bottle. I don't want to stay here, so I go outside. I drink from the water bottle and put it on the ground next to me. I lay on the grass looking up at the little stars in the sky. I can hear the animals making noises. This is better.

“Why are you out here?”

    Still laying on the grass I move my head to see Ashton reclining against the door. His face is serious. Doesn't he smile from time to time? And will it kill him to do it now? It's just the two of us.

“Come lay down.”

    I pat the space next to me, telling him to rest on the grass. I want him to enjoy this. This night is the most beautiful one I seen. Reluctantly he walks where I am and sits down.

“No. Lay down. It's not every day that you get to do this. Lay on the grass and enjoy the nights view. Come on. Nobody is around. Let the bad boy facade disappear.”

    I put my hand on his shoulder making him lay on the ground and look at the night sky. I move my hand from his shoulder and to my side. I move my head to look at him and look back at the sky. We are inches away from each other but I don't mind this time. Just this once let's not do anything, no fighting or protesting.

“I couldn't sleep. I have insomnia. It's hard to go to sleep, at least for me. Sometimes I do stuff to get tired and it works but this time it didn't.”

“Yeah I understand the difficulty of getting to sleep but I don't have insomnia.”

“Then you're lucky. Why is it difficult for you to get to sleep?”

    He doesn't say anything and looks at the stars and the sky. We stay like that for a while. I want to know why sleep does not come easily for him but if he isn't comfortable saying then I understand. I know it's hard to open up to someone even if they know all of your dark secrets. 

“A lot of things on my mind. I fight a lot with my dad. So when I go to sleep I think about our fights. It tires me but it still doesn't let sleep come easily.”

“Oh.”

    I can see from the corner of my eye that Ashton is looking at me. I turn my head and look at him. I thought if I do this he would have look away from me and look at the sky but it doesn't happen. He stays there looking at me. And I'm looking at him not wanting to look at anything else. 

“Your eyes are the most beautiful ones I have ever seen.”

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Good night.