Afraid
1546 Words
Mia
I sit back down in the bed and Daisy has her eyes on me.
“Why don't you eat first? You haven't eaten since we found you," one of the twins says while he walks towards me and I find myself cowering into the headboard.
He stops when he sees that movement and then I see him flinch.
It's so hard to tell them apart and I can't really look since they would catch me ogling but I have noticed a subtle difference in them.
One, the one who was walking towards me but stopped, is the serious one. His eyes rarely left mine and he hasn't smiled ever since I saw him. The other one has this subtle smile around his lips and he keeps playing with his nails, specifically his thumb nail keeps pinching his index finger nail.
He looks at me as if he's scrutinizing me or as if he's studying me and that unnerves me.
“We won't hurt you, promise. So, you don't have to be wary about us," the one who was walking towards me says and I feel like a fool.
Even if I cowered and felt frightened, if they had meant to hurt me I would have been dead and there is nothing I would have done about it.
But the fact that I am still here breathing and well taken care of means that they have no ill will towards me. But it's hard to believe that someone, anyone, would care.
“Sorry. It's just that… I am sorry,” I say simply not wanting to explain myself.
How do I start telling them that I was hurt by an alpha like them?
How do I start telling them that they shouldn't have saved me because I just want to die?
How do I tell them that I am not worth the effort?
I just stare at the sheets and don't say anything else.
“By the way, this is Frynn and I am Brynn.
The twin alphas of The Fiato Kingdom and we can tell that you are a wolf.
What we don't know is where you came from but we can talk about that when you are ready.
For now, you have to eat. You are a wolf and you are weak and you need food. So, eat, Mia,” the one who says he's Brynn says and he used a tone that isn't alpha-ish at all with me.
If anything, I feel like he's coaxing me like a baby.
I look at him and our eyes meet.
I meet those amber eyes. They are almost dark yellow and I feel mesmerized by them. It's like they are drawing me in and the more I look into them, the more they darken and the amber turned golden almost like the color of honey.
He doesn't blink and I can't read anything in those eyes except… was that concern?
I am not a mind reader and I haven't had my wolf for long and I can't read emotions but I was sure that that was concern I saw.
But why?
I banish that thought as I blink and look away.
Why would such a gorgeous man be concerned for a reject like me.
I touch my chest involuntarily at the thought of the pain I felt when Josiah hurt me and I flinch from the feel of it.
I am still hurting and…
“Someone beat you? You are in pain and you had a lot of bruises when we found you? Who was it?" The one who is still seated on the couch asks and his brother is now sitting beside me on the bed.
I look at Frynn startled at what he has asked.
I try to hide the reaction but I can tell that he already saw it.
Frynn already saw the surprise and the hurt in my eyes even though I tried to mask it.
It doesn't matter anyway because I just want to die and I won't be here for long for anyone to hurt me again.
“I… it's… it's nothing,” I try and Frynn is on his feet now.
"Who hurt you? Give me a name and a location. Who hurt you Mia?” He asks and the smile in his eyes has disappeared.
The amber of his eyes has shifted and his eyes are now fiery yellow and I flinch and let out a whimper and I see him reach out and I cower to myself and hide my head on my knees.
I am waiting for the blow to land but it doesn't.
Instead, a warm hand touches my hair and I feel long warm fingers massage my scalp and I almost lean in but then I stiffen as I wait for the blow.
I am ready for the blow to my head because it won't be the first one and I would never expect anyone to treat me well.
“Mia, we won't hurt you. Stop crying please," Brynn says and I can't help but shed more tears.
Why aren't they beating me?
Why is he nice to me?
Are they buttering me up so that they could beat me again?
That and many other questions run through my mind and I can't even look up.
“Mia, just tell me who the damn hurt you. Say it! I will kill them for you!"
“Frynn, stop it! Can't you see that you are scaring her? Stop it," Daisy says and I feel the hand in my hair stiffen.
Then, something unexpected happens.
I didn't expect it and I don't think that even Brynn knew what happened because I could feel the shock run through his body.
As I was crying all foded up to myself, he scooped me up like I weighed nothing and put me on his lap. He then put a hand around my stomach and the other one came around my chest and he hugged me.
I was shocked stiff as I felt him stiffen as he hugged me but he didn't let me go.
He then buried his head in my hair and then kissed my brow.
“It's okay. We are here and no one will ever hurt you again.
Please stop crying for us and eat something," Brynn said and I couldn't move.
Even my tear glands couldn't produce more tears because they were as shocked as was my whole body was.
He hugged me like that as he patted and soothed my back and I, for the first time since my mom died, felt as if someone cared.
I wanted to lower my guard but I couldn't. I couldn't trust anyone else.
Why would these people treat me well when even my own family couldn't?
Why would they?
My own sister watched as the man I was mated to hurt me while making love to her. So, if she could do that, someone who once told me that she loved me, why would I expect love from a stranger.
I burst out crying then.
It wasn't a silent cry or even subtle.
It was a full blown adult cry.
Brynn was startled as he lifted his head to look at me but I hid my face with my palms and climbed off of him.
I fell on my butt as I hadn't thought that the distance to the ground from where my legs were hanging was big and I felt big hands reach out for me and I shrugged them off.
“Please don't hurt me. I can't take it anymore. Just let me die.
Why did you save me for you to torture me again? Isn't it enough? Just let me die," I said with snort and tears falling and dashed towards the door.
Frynn, who was still standing held me with no effort at all and I flailed and kicked and I wondered why he wasn't hitting me.
Why didn't the pain I always knew come.
I flailed as I screamed to him to let me go and he held me to him and through my foggy brain, I heard him tell someone to call the doctor.
“She needs to be sedated to calm down," he said and I knew that they were going to kill me.
Will it be painful? I don't know but it was better than staying alive.
“Why me? Why keep hurting me? It wasn't my fault but no one would believe me. Let me just go to mom. I want to rest. I cannot take it anymore.
I am tired. Please let me die. Please kill me," I cried hoarsely as I felt my legs give and I felt like goo as I slid down but he scooped me up and carried me back to the bed and held me down because I still wanted to run away.
As the doctor came rushing in, as I felt the needle prick my arm, as I felt the cool liquid slid through my vein, I knew my end had come.
“I will kill that fucker," was the last thing I heard as my eyes closed.
This was peaceful.
I hoped that I was dead for real this time.
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