The Cold of the Mansion

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Sierra Another morning comes quietly, but the estate breathes around me. Everything continues as if nothing out of the ordinary has happened: as if I didn’t run, as if I didn’t shift, as if Kaelen Draven didn’t see me as I truly am…. My pulse ticks faster at the thought. I dress quickly and plainly, pulling on the servant’s uniform that still feels like a costume I haven’t earned. When I arrive in the kitchens, I immediately notice Lena is already there. She stands near one of the long tables, her sleeves rolled to her elbows. She looks… relaxed, as if this place doesn’t weigh on her the way it does me. When she sees me, her mouth curves into an easy smile. “Rule of survival,” she says, handing me a tray. “Never miss a meal, even if it sucks.” She c***s an eyebrow at me and gestures toward the breakfast tray now in my hands. I stand with her, and we eat in record time before beginning our day’s duties. Maela hands out lists and baskets as usual, and we get our assignments. I’m assigned to the upper halls. The upper halls are quieter because there’s less traffic. I move carefully, dusting ledges, straightening tapestries, keeping my head down. I don’t hear Kaelen at first. I feel the change in the air, the way the space seems to tighten, like the world is paying attention. I look up just as he turns the corner. He’s dressed for training—a dark shirt clinging to his frame, his sleeves pushed back, his hair still damp as if he’s just washed or come in from outside. For a heartbeat, we just look at each other. Something pulls low in my chest, familiar and unsettling. “Good morning,” he says. It’s polite. “Good morning, sir,” I reply automatically. The word feels wrong the moment it leaves my mouth. His jaw tightens, just slightly. “You don’t need to call me that.” “I—” I stop myself. There are rules here. “Yes. Of course.” Silence stretches. He looks past me as if measuring the hallway, the distance, the possibility of being overheard. When his gaze returns to mine, something shuttered has slid into place. “How are your duties?” he asks. “Fine,” I say. “I’m learning quickly.” “I’m glad.” A pause. “If anyone gives you trouble—” “I can handle it,” I interrupt, but then I immediately regret it. He studies me, something unreadable flickering in his eyes. “I’m sure you can.” That’s it. No warmth. No acknowledgment of what passed between us in the forest. He nods once and moves past me, his shoulder brushing the air near mine but not touching. At midday, I’m sent back toward the kitchens. Lena is there again, elbow-deep in a pile of linens, her braid loosened into something messier. “You look like you swallowed a thorn,” she says cheerfully. I sigh before I can stop myself. “Do I?” “Very much so.” She glances behind me and then lowers her voice. “Let me guess. Tall. Dark. Draven.” Heat rushes to my face. “You shouldn’t joke about that.” “I joke about everything,” she says. “It’s safer that way.” “I just ran into him, that’s all. I assumed my face would be etched with a giant LOSER over it in his memory forever, which is just great, considering the circumstances.” I sigh a despair-filled breath, dramatizing in order to detract from the honest truth…. There’s no way I can tell Lena about our meeting in the forest or what Kaelen had said, and now how he’s being cold and aloof. She laughs softly. “Trust me. If Kaelen Draven dislikes you, you’ll know. He’s terrible at hiding it.” “So, is it pretty common, then, for him to dislike a servant?” I ask, testing what tea Lena is willing to spill. “Oh, no, not at all. Kaelen is chill, for the most part. But when he’s mad, he’s big mad; the guy is passionate, I’ll give him that.” I can hear a tinge of disdain in her voice, but I don’t question it–yet. “He is intense, for sure. I just wasn’t sure if there was a pattern I should be concerned or knowledgeable about, being new and all…. I’m just trying to get the lay of the land and the social life around here, since it’s likely to be my ‘home’ for the foreseeable future.” “I’m sure you’ll find you’ll pick up on things rather quickly..” She shrugs. “I observe. People tell me things they shouldn’t.” “Like what?” “Like how the Alpha hates unpredictability, or how the Luna keeps lists.” She grins. “Or how Kaelen looks like he’s constantly deciding whether to burn the world down or save it.” That lands closer to the truth than I’m comfortable with. “He’s… different from what I expected,” I admit. “Aren’t they all?” Lena says. “This place runs on appearances. You learn fast who’s acting and who’s trapped.” “And you?” I ask before I can stop myself. “Which are you?” Her smile lingers a fraction too long. “Depends on the day.” We are re-assigned to cleaning one of the lesser-used sitting rooms together. It’s easier now, our conversation flowing more freely. Lena tells me about strange customs, about a portrait that supposedly watches people when no one’s looking, about the time she got lost in the west wing and found a door that led nowhere. “The estate likes to keep secrets,” she says, running a cloth over a carved armrest. “So do the people in it.” I think of Kaelen’s careful distance in the forest, then again in the upper halls. “I think it wants to swallow me,” I say quietly. Lena pauses, then meets my gaze. “It does that to everyone eventually. The trick is deciding what you let it take.” When evening comes, I’m exhausted in a way that has nothing to do with physical labor. As we part ways, Lena touches my arm briefly. “You’re doing fine,” she says. “Even if it doesn’t feel like it.” I watch her go, unsure whether to feel comforted or unsettled. I’ve started moving toward the hall when a shadow detaches itself from the corner of the kitchen. My breath catches. Kaelen. My stomach clenches, warm and cold all at once. “I wanted to make sure you’re… okay.” He keeps his distance, but his deep eyes beckon for connection. I blink. “I’m fine.” The words are automatic, defensive. Because how do you say, I feel like I’m walking on knife-edges every moment, every step, and I’m terrified I’ll misstep and ruin everything? “I don’t think you are,” he says, taking a single step closer. Not threatening, but purposeful. My pulse spikes. He notices, I’m sure. “You’re tense. Your hands… your shoulders.” I bite my lip, shift my weight. “I’m… adjusting.” He nods slowly, studying me as if he could read every thought I refuse to speak. And maybe he can. There’s a pull when he looks at me–subtle, magnetic, and I can feel it tugging at something inside that I don’t understand. I look away first, pretending to inspect a nearby counter, but I can’t ignore the way his gaze lingers. “I know this place isn’t easy,” he says finally, his voice low enough that no one else could hear. “You’re not like the others here. You never were.” The words settle on me like stones in my stomach. Not a complaint. Not a judgment. But acknowledgment. Recognition. I swallow. “I’m… trying.” I want to tell him that I’m barely keeping it together, that I feel like a shadow half the time—but I don’t. I can’t. Instead, I just nod, and he seems satisfied. And then, before I can think to ask why he came, he steps back. “Be careful,” he says. Almost casual, almost dismissive, but I know better. Every word is calculated, weighted, every movement deliberate. And then he’s gone, slipping through the hall like a shadow returning to its rightful place. I stand there a long moment after he disappears, my hands gripping the edge of the counter, feeling the echo of him in the air. Lena’s words resurface, but they feel hollow now, replaced by the reality that Kaelen Draven watches. And that he… cares. I don’t know what that means. I don’t know what any of it means. But for the first time since arriving at the estate, I don’t feel entirely alone. And that, somehow, feels just as dangerous as everything else.
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