Finding joy

Jeremy

MOM"

"MOM" I called out, but she didn't answer.

"MOM " I called out again, and then she walked in from the back with a bottle of alcohol in her hands .

"What's up sweetie" she said while chugging down the alcohol.

" What's up? What's up? Mom, did you take my money? "

" Chill I just borrowed it , I needed it "

" Needed it , you took my money without asking , I've been working my ass off to save it, you know what just give it back " I was furious , and I was really trying to control myself .

" I don't have it anymore , I need to pay some debts and get more alcohol. I'll pay you back soon”

" Pay me back , pay me back, how ? You have no real job , all you do is gamble , drink and sit around. Do you know how hard I worked for it " I said with tears ." Look at you, you've become so useless. I don't even recognize you anymore , I hate you so much". She just laughed , she was so wasted there was no use talking to her. I went upstairs, grabbed my phone and jacket and left the house before i ended up in prison, but truthfully, I didn't even know where I was going , I was just walking without any actual destination. I hated my mom , I hated living with her , I hated having to work in an ice cream shop and get insulted by stupid customers , I hated my dad for abandoning us , for abandoning his daughter , I hated walking dogs for mean old ladies , in all. In hated my stupid life . I didn't know how I reached the park, but I was standing there. I sat on the swing and just looked up at the sky. “ Dear God, if you can hear me please help me , I've gone through enough and I'm not even a bad person , I'm a good girl a excellent girl who just wants a good life. Please, I need a sign Jesus please help me , please ,please ,please. “

“ Excuse me?”

I took my head down and saw a strange looking kid staring at me .

“ Who are you talking to “ he asked.

“ I was praying, kid “ I answered, and looked up again

“ To whom ?” He asked again

“ To God , Jesus, whoever is listening “

“ No one's listening , no one “ I looked at him, and he looked really unhappy. I took in his appearance and he looked unkept in a way , his hair wasn't right , his shoes were old, and his clothes were ripped in some places .

“ I've given up praying because God never listens. If he did I wouldn't be in that foster home.” I immediately felt pity for him. Children shouldn't think like this. I know sometimes l lose faith to but he's a child .

“ Hey , what's your name?“

“ Jeremy “

“ Jeremy , there's a God up there, and he sees everything , what ur praying for might not come now, but it will happen in a better way. You shouldn't lose faith, and you shouldn't stop hoping “ felt like I was convincing myself here.

“ Why does he let bad things happen?” I didn't know what to say because I'm also curious. Why does God allow bad things to happen to sweet people ?

“ I don't know Jeremy , but whatever happens for a reason , remember that ok “

“ Okay “

“ Are you hungry Jeremy ?”

“ Yes , I had a piece of bread in the morning and that was it “ I checked my pocket , I didn't have much , but it could get him something to eat .

“ Come on Jeremy, let's get you something. “

We went to a shop , and bought what he wanted. Thank God I could pay for it. When we were done, we walked back to the park. Deep down i didn't want him to leave. Yes, yes i was lonely , and surprisingly, he was a good conversationalist.

“ And he just ran and left her there.“

“ Oh my God he did? “

“ Yes”, we both started laughing. He was telling me a story of how a guy ran away and left his girlfriend during a prank they pulled on the street .

“ Thank u Maddie “

“ You're welcome Jeremy , sorry I couldn't do more for you , I'm also in a bit of a life crisis right now “

“ You've done enough. I'll keep praying ,and I'll pray for you to i hope this time God listens to me”

“ He always listens to Jeremy. You'll get what you desire soon enough. Just trust him “

“Where are your parents, Madison?”

“ Well my dad abandoned us when I was little , he didn't want to be stuck with a kid and a woman he didn't love anymore , so he ran away , and my mom, well let's just say she's lost her mind completely “ didn't know how else to say my mom was a crazy drunkard who steals from her own child .

“ What kind of father abandons his family? “

“ A coward “

“ Do you think he'll come back one day ?“

“ I don't know Jeremy , I don't care either.I pray I never get to see his face again “

“ I'll ask God to give you a new father too “ I looked at him and smiled .

“ I don't need a new father, Jeremy , I just need a new job , a good one , with good pay. I need a good life .”

“ So you don't need a new father , I need a new father and mother. I always come to this park alone and I see kids with their parents , and it makes me so sad “ he bends down his head with watery eyes .

“ Hey don't cry, you'll get a new dad and mom soon. You just have to be a little bit patient “

“ I don't want to stay in that foster home anymore. I hate it there. I want to go to school , I want to make new friends , I want waffles and pancakes for breakfast, I want to eat ice cream whenever I want. “ oh God, I could feel the tears coming, I wish I could make this kid feel better , but what can I do I was also struggling on my own .

“ You'll be fine Jeremy. Things will get better soon trust me “ my phone started buzzing. I checked to see who was calling, but it was an unknown number. I was skeptical, but I picked it anyway.

“ Hello “

“ Madison honey“ I recognized the voice. It was Michelle .

“ Good day ma “

“ How are you? I'm sorry I can't talk for long, but I have a proposal for you , I'll send you an address and you come here as soon as you can alright. “

“OK ma’am Michelle “. With that, she hung up and after a few minutes my phone beeped again , I checked and it was a house address .

“ Hey Jeremy, I need to get going soon. Will you be alright?"

“ Yes will I see you again Maddie “ he asked, with a little frown on his face and I felt bad.

“ Yes , we’ll see each other again ok , I'll come look for you whenever I get the chance to .

“ You promise Madison? “

“ Yes, yes I promise“, he hugged me and I hugged him back. He asked me to walk him to his foster home and I did. We arrived there and he went in , not before waving at me. I was starting to miss the little guy. I started my own walk back home. When I arrived, my mom was nowhere to be seen, and I was thankful. I rushed up to my room and took out my phone. I looked at the message again with many questions running through my head. What could Michelle possibly want from me? What was this proposal about? I just couldn't stop thinking. What did Michael say something to his mom again?Was i in trouble? , I just layed down with my thoughts, whatever it was. I was going to find out tomorrow.