LOVE ME IF YOU DARE

12-That night

                                                                                   Lechu's pov

My eyes were fixated on Dev all the time. I was fuming inside, his behaviour towards my appa and that's in front of public, I am not a saint to sit back closing my mouth.

" Laks , look at there Lavanya is going somewhere " Jasmine was observing Lavanya by that time and she informed me soon after she saw Lavanya leaving from party hall. But I stayed there because Dev was still talking with some people.

To my surprise I saw Rima, who is Lavanya's friend approaching Dev and they talked . Jas as well as me, we both were confused.  Dev was staring a Rima when she left from his side and within seconds Dev followed her.

" What the hell is happening ? Is it Lavanya or this girl ? " Jas looked at me with a shocked face but I was not at all shocked. I just confirmed one thing, he is a bloody fucker. He don't care who is standing in front of him, whoever it is, it has to be a girl.

" Jas..... give me your phone " I took her phone and went to follow Dev. This was the right time because I couldn't find Zahir, Mohit or Gaurav beside him. I saw Dev and Rima standing and talking near to a corner. Nothing was suspicious until I went nearer and tried to hear their conversation.

"I won't say that to Lavanya. " Rima laughed at Dev and then continued

" Who you are ? What you prefer ? About your fantasies. I won't say that to anyone. I agreed on this and you got that agreement. " Agreement ? He asks every girl to sign on agreements ?

" You know what ? Actually you are so cruel DD. You capture every girls mind. You give everything a girl needs in her life. You know our mind.  What we want and what makes us crazy for you. But at end you will loose your interest on them. Then they are invisible for you..... " What she wanted to say actually ? Tell that first and stop this narration. I rolled my eyes getting bored of her talks. Why they are not doing anything ?

" Straight to the point. What you want ? " Dev doesn't look happy or excited but irritated and annoyed. Rima came little more close to Dev and put her hands around his neck.

" What I want ? " She asked in a surprising tone and pointed her finger on his chest.

" You....  What I want is you. Can I get it ? " Such a b***h. Lavanya doens't know about this ? I think so otherwise she would have killed this girl despite of their friendship. Dev face was still straight without any reaction.

" Same hotel, same room...... Same like before. I just liked the way you hurt me. These hands all over my body...... Each spank with that flogger and crop whip......... Then caressing with your hands.....I need them all DD. I am your slave .......  " Yuck... I got goosebumps all over my body hearing her conversation. What the hell is she saying. What is he into ? Like what he did to her that she is head over heels for him. He is clearly ignoring her. Any girl who has some pride won't go behind such guys if he is like this.

But, what about you Lechu? My situation is different.

I opened the phone to record it because I know next thing both will on eachother but that right moment phone fell from my hands when it started to ring. I wanted to smack my head for this stupidity. I quickly hide behind the wall trying to silence the phone. I forgot that it's Jasmine's phone. Mine will be always in silent mode.

I think I should run, but when this common sense lighted inside my brain it was too late. I saw a huge figure standing in front of me which was not Dev but his bodyguard Zahir. He kept his hand on my phone and I gripped it tightly. I won't give but he snatched it.

" See.. that's not mine... "

" Zahir........ " Here comes hitler. My heart started pounding hearing that deep voice. Dev stared at me and forward his hand towards Zahir. He silently handed over Jasmine's phone to Dev.

" There isn't any recordings " Zahir said before Dev do something. He won't check but will break it without any reason. I held on my clutch purse tightly and looked at Dev apologetically.

" Zahir ..... Leave. " 

No ..... Don't go Zahir. Even though he is not helpful for me but when he stood beside me I felt strong. If he leaves that means Dev isn't going to spare me.

" Party is still going..... " Zahir reminded Dev before leaving .

" I said Leave..... " Dev again said as a last warning to Zahir and he walked from there sighing at me heavily.

" I came here accidentally..... " Dev dragged me from there not even want to hear what I was going to say.

He opened the door of a room and took me inside. I fell on floor when he threw me like some scrap.

" So, what's your explanation for this stupid act ? Wanted to trap me ? " Dev raised the phone and asked to me.

" Don't you feel little bit of shame for being with those girls ? Even after your marriage ? I am not asking you to love me or accept me as your wife but please don't do it in front of me. You married me Dev. "

Why I cried ? I don't know. Why I said all these ? I don't know. I wanted to stay silent but couldn't. Neither I wasn't shouting at him nor annoyed but I was pathetic. I looked vulnerable in front of him with that begging tone. Each and every day I was failing to keep myself strong. I am not that much strong and I don't know how to be strong. It's not happening.

" Why ? Do you have any issues with it ? Are you feeling jealous over those girls whom I slept with ? " he laughed cynically looking straight into my eyes. Those eyes sends shivers down my spine.

" No ... Why should I feel jealous ? I feel pity for you. Actually whatever madness you are doing in name of your dead lover and that unborn child is just stupid. What you have for them isn't love but guilt. You only know how to put blame on others to make you believe that you are the only right one. But inside,  you are dying with that guilt and trying to forget them by sleeping around with those sluts. I am telling you Mr Rathore you will never find peace by doing this...... Your guilt will always haunt you. Even if you kill my whole family you won't be able to save yourself from this pit. For that you need a heart to accept others, love others and at very first to love yourself...... " I was surprised for a second watching Dev because he was silent.

He silently heard whatever I said. I blurted out what came from my mind. I saw him getting weak which remained only for few seconds. He might understood that and felt what I said is right. He got caught by me and may be that made him mad.

" You...... " Dev raged towards me and pulled me up from  floor holding on my hair.

" I told you several times..... be in your limits. Then what's this new drama ? "

He raised his eyebrows and gave me a look. Before I could say something his right hand fell on my face. I expected a slap so I shut my eyes tightly and endure it.

" You don't have any rights to talk about them. Nisha, my child.... Don't dare to. Who the hell you are to talk about them? " He screamed at me in and pushed me toward the bed coat. I fell down hitting my hand on coat.

" You are sold to me girl, you know what does that mean..... right ? " I squealed with pain and on top of that he knelt down and squeezed my cheeks pressing my head towards the bed behind me.

" Don't try to act smart if you don't want your family to end up on road. People who cheats me.... Neither I won't let them live even by begging on streets " he came more close to my face and continued

" Nor..... I won't let them die. " I looked at him with my bloodshot eyes. I couldn't find a bit of humanity in him. Sometimes I wished he could see my pain.

" You can just watch them  by becoming a helpless daughter who can only cry. But always remember don't even dare to make a sound " he patted on my cheeks with a dirty scoff and pushed me like a trash.

" Dev........ " I heard his lover calling him by banging on the door. He stood in front of me like a huge pillar and corrected his suit perfectly not leaving a fold.

" Follow me like an obedient wife " before opening the door he ordered not even bothered to look back. I quickly stood from floor and corrected my face to become his perfect wife.

Again I am going to be on stage to perform my character as

Mrs Devadatta Pratap Singh Rathore but I was sure about one thing.

Behind the success of every man there will be a woman, in same way behind his failure also there will be a woman's hands. I am going to be that woman in Dev's life. My intention was never to hurt him but my situation is asking to do it. You will fall Lechu, you might hit rock bottom, he will break you but still sometimes though slow and steady wins the race. I looked at the phone which was on floor Broken into three parts. Is this plan really going to work ? Zahir is always Dev's backup. So first I should do somthing about him.

Before going out I corrected my makeup and hide the imprint of his fingers on my cheek. I am thankful to God for one thing. This didn't happened when my appa was here. He might find this even if I hide it under makeup.

I met Jas who was waiting for me impatiently at party hall. In front of her I kept her broken phone. She gasped for a second but didn't say anything. What to say ? It's obvious from my face that Dev did that.

" What's your next plan ? " She asked to me in a very calm tone.

" Plan ? I don't know " I replied

" Then ..... Can I say one ? " She asked and I shrugged my shoulders like go ahead. Jasmine looked around and leaned forward.

" Make Dev fall for you. " I opened my eyes widely and looked at Jas like " is she serious ? "

" Listen, before lashing out at me let me explain." She held on my hand to stop me from shouting at her.

"Jas, do you know why he married me ? He hates me girl.....he hates me like... "

" Girl.. . What is the other side of hate ? It's Love...... What he needs in his life is also love. You can give it.... Not Lavanya or any other bitches but you. Why ? Because you are his wife and you have all rights on him. "  I didn't understand anything she said actually. She isn't even letting me to say anything.

" For what he is running behind these girls you give that to him. ..."

" s*x ? " I interrupted and asked sarcastically.

" That you won't give....I know. But you can give it if he loves you right ? Also don't give that now. You should make him crave for you. He should get desperate to get you on his bed and that's your opportunity. He will do what you say because he needs you. Come here..... " Jasmine called me little more close to her.

" From what I heard from others.... Dev is not interested in those girls with whom he spent a night. He is not into long term relationships. Lavanya is exceptional because she is his best friend. So you should keep this in mind.... never fall his tricks. Become a mystery girl who has some depth so that Dev gets some interest to know about you. " Jasmine says.

" What if he force me ? " I asked

" Resist...... Resist as much you can and that will make him more desperate. He will get close to you. Then you should use him, emotionally blackmail him and get whatever you want. Also find that prenup and mutual divorce agreement from him. Until he has that it's like a time bomb on your head  " Her plan is not that much bad,  rather than nothing it's better to implement something.

" But there is another problem and I need your help for that " I said to Jasmine and she stood there ready to hear it.

" Problem is those three. Zahir, Mohit and Gaurav. " I showed Jas where these three stood.

" If their attention is not on Dev then I can proceed with this plan. What I wanted to say that......... you take care of them. Divert their attention from Dev. " Jasmine frowned her eyebrows and gave me an unbelievable look.

" But Laks ...... "

" Please Jas don't say no. Mohit is his personal manager and if you distract him then it' will be much appreciated." I pleaded holding on her hands. Jasmine looked at them and then at me again and again.

" Mohit is a tough nut to crack. Just by looking at his face I feel like he is replica of Undertaker. But if you want then I will take care of other two idiots. " I looked at where Jas was looking. Gaurav was already flirting with a girl and Zahir was smelling the artificial flowers kept there. I also felt Jasmine can definitely take care of these two idiots. Still Mohit is a problem.

When party is over I went back to Rathore villa  It wasn't Zahir who drove the car but Dev itself and I was literally dragged to parking lot by him. I understood this night wasn't over but I didn't understand what's the new issue.

I pressed my both hands of seat when he pulled accelerator like he is going for some car race. My body was shivering and mouth ditched me. I was scared to let out my breathe because may be that can trigger Dev. Whatever I does it irritates him. My face and presence can make him mad.

I thought we were going back to Rathore villa but he was taking me to somewhere else. Where? I looked around through the glass to check the directions but due to the fear even my brain stopped working. Only blurred images around me. If Dev pushed me out from this running car I might feel thankful to him but definitely not his physical torture.

Car stopped in front of a huge house, more looked like a farmhouse. Without showing any mercy he pulled me out from the car and entered into the house. Many times I tripped on my feet in that heavy dress and heels along with his dragging. Ankles were paining like someone hitting nails there. Other than my squealed voice  nothing was there and it happened more when I hit somewhere or my legs started paining.

I don't know from where I got that courage to hold my hand on a pole to get a support and hold me back as I don't wanted to get dragged by Dev.

He looked back and scoffed at me watching my courage.

" What I did ? Atleast say that much " I mumbled inbetween my crying. Only it took fraction of seconds to feel that tight grip of hand on my neck and he choked me.

" Dev m...... " I was suffocating, I wanted to breathe, eyes bulged and I felt my bones around neck breaking.

" This is for pushing my brother to  verge of death because of your filthy acts " he muttered in my ears. 

What ? But when ?

" This is how he felt when you cheated behind his back you shameless b***h " saying this he released me and I fell on floor to get some air. I coughed with my dry throat and begged for some water. Head was getting heavy and eyes got baggy not even able to open it properly. What is happening ?

When I was trying to recollect myself he threw few photos on my face.

" You did this filthy act and played the pity card. Fought with my brother and left him. If and only if Yuvi would have told me once about you then that would be the last day in your life you b***h. " He yelled and I looked at the photos on the floor. Which I never ever wanted to see in my life. Accusation on me for sleeping with a guy when I was in love with Yuvi. Photos are real, I was in a hotel room bed naked under comforter and that's with a random guy. This incident is real but no one will believe me if I say I don't have anything to do with it.

This guy either took revenge on me or it was just a fun for him. I don't remember what happened that night. I was in a party club just before a night I decided to go back to home for my semester break. Not even for partying but I was invited there urgently by this guy. His name is Samay.

Who was Samay to me ? No one, we met few times briefly in the name of my Appa. A guy who hailed from my hometown Thanjavur. Only that much was there between us. I didn't drink the liquor he offered because I am aware of my tolerance level then what happened ? He would have spiked my juice. After that I don't remember anything. What he did ? Where he took me ? What was his real intention ? Nothing. When I opened my eyes I was in some random hotel room. He didn't raped me but I felt weired. All over my body I felt so uncomfortable and I wasn't in my real self. Nail marks were there, bite marks were there,  and hickies.......  If I try to remember that morning then even now I feel like to throw up.

I ran back to Mumbai and the first person I went to meet was Yuvi. I wanted to talk to him about this, that much I trusted him. I thought I can find solace in him but nothing happened like I wanted. He also did what Dev did to me now. These same photos threw on my face and I was hell shocked. That's when even I got to see what actually happened with me. I didn't have any reply for the questions Yuvi asked to me and looking from his side it does seemed like my mistake. I went out with a stranger at night. I never said anything about Samay to Yuvi because Samay was an unimportant topic. Why I went with him ? Why I let him stay in my house even if it's for a night ? All these questions pointed at me making me the only culprit. I never met Samay after that. Yuvi didn't even wanted to hear my side. Later it turned out to be a dirty fight between us. I started to hate myself for this. I don't wanted to be in any relationship and with a guy who questions my infidelity, about my body, even on my virginity..... At end I asked for a breakup from Yuvi. I never promised to anyone with my life, then how can Yuvi asked me to prove myself to go with him to some doctors. Not only me but any girl in that state will loose her sane mind to hear that from her love. I don't even wanted to cry or beg in front of him to believe me or to be with me . In that anger I admit all accusations on me. I admit that I  went around other men to make me feel good and find pleasure. I didn't say that for real but my mental state was something like that. Without even saying anything Yuvi raised his hand on me. If Jhanvi di wouldn't have seen that then I might have killed myself in front of him to prove myself. May be then only he will belive me. That was Yuvi.

I was feeling insane , appa doesn't know what happened. He has so much trust on his daughter and never restricted me with anything. I know he will definitely stand with me but I don't wanted him to get worried about it. He might go and find Samay from anywhere in this world and kill him. Inside my room it was suffocating, don't wanted to go out. I just wanted to sleep atleast for few hours so that nothing will make me crazy. From where I got that much courage to kill myself I don't know. But it was all an act of stupidity which happened in a second. I didn't feel pain, I didn't even cry, just watched the pool of blood and water inside my bathtub until I loose my consciousness with that I was erasing all my memories with Yuvi. Only if he would have said me two words "it's okay Lakshmi " I wouldn't have done that stupidity.

Now again that horrible night is in front of me. Yuvi..... He said that an anonymous person gave these photos to him. But that day itself,  in front of me he destroyed all the photos and promised me he didn't showed it to anyone. Only Yuvi and I saw it. Then how ? And from where it came and Dev has it now ? Other than Yuvi who can give it to him ? He still holds that much grudge on me ? He wants to see me living in a hell ?

I crumbled the photo I was holding and left with no words. What should I say to Dev ? Whatever I say he won't believe ? That's not his fault...... Dev will belive only his brother not this characterless girl.

" Dev...... These are..... I didn't.... " Sitting on the floor I looked at Dev helplessly. I don't expect any mercy from him but I wanted him to leave me alone for sometime.

" You called me a man w***e before then what should I call you ? I mean I was atleast loyal to my love but you are........ ... Were you that much desperate ? " Silence was my reply for his questions. Sometimes silence is the best reply. But here my silence was making it admit that I did wrong.

Dev scoffed at me and walked around the living room. I could only see his well polished black shoes and it's heels because I didn't raised my eyes from floor.

" Among us, I adores Yuvi a lot. May be more than my own brother. I never saw my brother feeling down but for past few months he was not that same Yuvi. He went to our plantations instead of being here with me. Leaving his favourite city he went to a village and stayed there alone. If Yuvi became like that then I could imagine how much pain you gave him. He still has some feelings for you inside his heart. I know that.... but what about you ? " Dev removed his coat and tossed it towards the couch. While undoing the cufflinks he knelt down in front of me and asked with an evil smile.

" Whatever was there it's over....... " I said in a trembling voice. He laughed at me hearing that reply

" How can I belive it ? You can't be trusted because for you, if it's me today then tomorrow it can be Viren right ?  " He asked

" Huh ? " I was baffled and shocked with that comment.

'' No...... Don't say that. What happened isn't my fault. I can actually explain but you won't believe then...."

" Yes.....why should I believe a liar ? Did you father taught you this ? Since you don't have a brain to use then use what you have ? f**k and trap men ..... " A tight slap.... Other than a slap nothing deserve for this man, saying this filthy thing to me.

He again laughed which made me feel scared. My eyes were on his hands which can raise anytime on me.

" Was that for telling the truth or for the insecure feeling of hearing the truth ? " he asked to me while laughing cynically and rolled up his shirt while standing up from floor. I let my breathe out because he didn't do anything.

" Come with me.. " but that wasn't the reality, he didn't even gave me a second to escape or crawl. Twisted that same hand with which I slapped him and carried me towards somewhere climbing the stairs. I felt a sudden slip on my right shoulder and hectic pain. Did  he break my hand? Or it dislocated ? I wriggled from his hands when I couldn't endure the pain. Dev dropped me in front of a room and pushed me inside.

" Leave me ... I want to go." I don't felt like this is going to end up like other nights. Dev who is standing in front of me now is completely lost his mind. Without moving my right hand which was giving me immense pain I ran to go out somehow but I stopped when Dev closed the door behind him. I looked around for my clutch purse which was inside the car. Moving back I spread my hands to grab anything that can defend myself. But before getting one Dev pulled me holding on that same right hand and smacked right across my face making me end up on floor slipping with a small wooden table.

Silence....... Only an irritating sound echoed in my ears. Yellow light from ceiling pierced into my eyes then everything went black. I felt cramps on my legs , all over it was paining but inside my head I felt so heavy. I was feeling dizzy, nauseous. Suddenly felt so weightless because Dev pulled me from floor but I fell back to the floor unconscious.