I know this thing I am feeling is crazy. Today I watched this YouTube video where this girl was talking about sleeping with her stepdad. Just like what I am doing with Dominic.
And the thing is I like it. At first I was scared but now it feels like some kind of game. When Dominic touches me I feel like I am floating. And while I am busy being what he needs I also try to find my own happiness out there somewhere.
But right now I am pissed. I am pissed because my mom showed up in America and you know what married people do when they have been apart for a while. They f**k.
I can actually hear my mom moaning. Helena. And it is making me so angry. That should be me in there with him.
Am I allowed to be selfish about this? I do not want him going inside her. I want him only going inside me.
