My External Love

chapter four:

Lillian: “ dad, can you tell me the story of how you met mom again?” I said resting my head on dad's shoulder, “ please” I added making a puppy face at him.

Lord Lucas: “ hahaha” I laughed and gave her a smile, she never gets tired of hearing this old story even at this age, she so much loved it when she was still a child, she would ask for the same story whenever it was bedtime, it's amazing how time flies, I held her by her shoulder with my left hand and with the right hand raised towards the sky, I began the story “ it was a day as beautiful as this.........

( twenty years ago)

I was on a journey to my grandma's place for a visit, my mom had just died and we were given a week to mourn her but I knew that mourning won't take place especially with my father, he had no emotion or what so ever during her funeral, instead he choose that day to make love to another woman, my mind was cloudy with the thought so it was difficult for me to concentrate on the road while riding my brown horse, I just couldn't stop thinking about the devil like father I had and how it all happened that day, am glad I look nothing like him, instead I took my mother's features, dark Short hair, fair skin, brown eyes, pointed nose and a square shaped face, though I also had manly features like a well built body, broad shoulders and a mustache but I love having it shaved so I looked like an England noble and I am my mother's reflection, “ neigh!” the horse came to stop after I almost ran into a huge stone on the road, I was so lost in thought that I forgot to watch the road, I climbed down from the horse, dusted my pants then unhooked some buttons on my white sleeve and sat on the rock, the memory of what I saw that day kept tormenting me................

( flash back to the day of my mother's funeral)

I had left the main hall to look for my father, to inform him about the visitors request to see him, on getting close to his room, I started hearing sounds but on arriving on the room's door, I could hear clearly that is was moans, I felt disgusted about him having s*x at a day like this but he had allot of s*x slaves and has never been faithful to mom due to her illness and health, am not even shocked this was happening because he never treated mom with respect or showed any love or affection towards her but at least even if it's just once, let him show her a little respect, after all it's her funeral for crying out loud, the door was half closed so I attempted to knock but stopped when I heard the woman's voice, it sounds familiar to me, out of curiosity, I took a peek through the half closed door and boom, I saw it, my father's best friend's wife and him were making love, “ haa..yes..ha” she was moaning and bitting her lips in pleasure, “ haaa..go faster woman ” my dad moans along with her, full of lust and pleasure, they both enjoyed themselves in the own fantasy as she was on top riding him like a horse with her head backwards totally in cloud nine while he lay down with his elbows on the bed helping him support his waist to thrusts into her, he moved his head back and forth enjoying it all while using the duvet cover their waists down, I stood shocked at the scene before me, I never imagined he could do this to someone he does all his business with and someone that even shares all his secret with him, the man had told dad of his inability to last long in a woman and I got to know so because dad had joked with it to us sometime during dinner, am sure he used it as an advantage to get his wife, tears fell from my eyes as I walked away, I walked out of the hall and head to the back of the mansion then into the garden, its the only place that makes me calm.

I recalled It all and sighed helplessly, I had confronted dad about it later and promised to leave the family but not only did he not regret it but he also threatened to burn all of moms things and even kill grandma if I leave, so I had no choice but to stay just to protect the ones I loved. ( end of flash back)

I sighed helplessly and stood up to continue my journey.

( presently)

Lord Lucas: I finished this part and stare into space, remembering it all.

Lillian: “ dad are you okay, you loved grandma didn't you? ” I asked noticing his mood changed.

Lord Lucas: “ ha! ” I sighed, I couldn't tell her much about my mom because all are bad memories am still trying to forget for life, I took her hands in mine and said “ she's the reason we are rich dear, she was simply lovely even in her health condition” .

Lillian: “ you can't blame yourself for her death dad, you did your best to make her well again and am sure she was proud of you ” I said warmly trying to change his mood.

Lord Lucas: “ you are right dear, your mother will always say fate has a way no matter how you try to change it” I replied her, I didcd went to medical school just to find a cure for mom but nothing worked or changed, she died on that same bed she laid on for years, “ so where were we dear” I then continued.........

( back to his tale)

I got to the village entrance and then head towards the woods,my grandma's house is at the front of the village stream, I got to the white mansion and claimed down from the horse, I entered and saw grandma seated on her rocking chair resting at the front yard of the house, I approached her and take her hands in mine “grandma it's me ” I announced and she opened her eyes.

Madam gold: (looks up to see her grandson Locus, she smiles at him, got up and gave him a hug) “ how was your journey dear, how is everyone at home, hope all is well?” she asked him.

Lucas:“well, me and big brother are the only ones mourning mom, the rest refused to, even dad, mom was the only thing holding us together ” I replied her and took off my hat, we chatted for some time before I went inside to change and cut the wood for dinner, grandma's slaves comes only in the morning and evening, all because of dad's rule against her not being alone, after some time, I had took off my shirt and had only pants on while getting ready to chop up the woods but before I could, something happened.