Almost Perfect

17 - Memories

I do not understand what they are saying. It enters my ear and comes out immediately on the other side. I don't know how to say this to Chadd. I also did not expect to be given a role and Kevin would be my partner.

I just do what they say. We rock the lines. This is our practice today as long as the lines you throw should have feelings. We finished to the last page. They applauded so I joined as well.

I did not feel anything awkward between us. I even enjoy what we do, so I feel like I want to push this but Kevin is the problem here, I can sense that he and Chadd is not in a good terms, I can feel that Chadd wont let me do this.

As far as I know, he is the same age as Chadd, but he stopped studying, and then he just returned this year, so he is just my grade. I heard that a while ago, before our rehearsal I decide to help the backstage crew and then my classmate was talking about him, they were behind me so I can hear them.

It's just amazing how they know that. Its Kevin private life, it is impossible for Kevin to tell his biography since he was born or even how he was made.

"Rey" I slowly backed away when I saw Kevin's face near me. "Are you alright?"

"Y-yeah" I don't know the reason why I stuttered.

"Are you sure?" I could feel his concern for me, so I smiled and nodded at him.

I'm spacing out. He approached me and I don't even notice it. I looked around, and they were all staring at us. They teasing us again that we were good together. I saw Kevin just smile and sit next to me. We are is in a circle, half of the circle is my section and half is Kevin section.

The men kept shouting because he sit beside me. The women are having a romantic excitement. I just stared at the air and turned my attention back to the script. I did not understand what they were saying before, maybe they changed something I did not know.

"Audrey" I looked at our leader when he called me I smiled at her "Do you want to change anything? Or what? Just tell me. I asked you earlier, but it looks like we were not with you before" my classmates laughed, so I smiled in shame "You just stared at Kevin" I looked at Kevin and our leader in shock.

Seriously? Am I looking at him? What am I really doing with my life? Everytime I really thinking about something, and I am serious about what I'm thinking can't help but stare at where or with whom.

I just gasped. That's why he approached me because I was looking at him "Everything is okay with me, I don't want to change anything"

"Wooooooh" I looked at them as they reacted at the same time. We've only been together for almost two hours, and its look like they using one brain cells.

"Even in a kissing scene, is it ok with you?" My soul came out of what she said. This is what I'm saying earlier, they talked about something I did not know. Because my mind was floating earlier so no one came in, and I didn't understand anything.

"Y-yes" I answered so we closed again.

"Don't worry that scene will be a kiss but not as if we are just cheating. For example one of you will turn away from the audience so as not to see if you really kissed or we close the curtain immediately before kissing, depending on the idea we want while practicing this for real because sonething can be change in script if is impossible in real life" we all nodded. The others seemed disappointed with the other leader's long explanation.

Both leaders have a little reminder for us. I already listened because it was difficult for me to be embarrassed because I was not listening. Its so hard to get along in the situation when you do not know what is happening and what will happened.

After the meeting I decided to help again backstage. I only helped for a few minutes when I said goodbye and rested first because I felt bad. They allowed me because I finished what I was doing.

I just walked even though I was dizzy, because of my stupidity I almost stumbled its a good thing that someone hold me or else I will hurt myself when I fall down in the stage. When I looked up I saw Kevin. I immediately removed his hold on me. "Thank you" I turned around immediately after I said to him and sat on the edge of the stage. I just swayed my foot while searching inside my bag.

I let a deep sigh. I forgot to take my medicine with me. Chadd would scold me when he found out. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. Because I was so busy with what I was doing, I ignored and I don't bother to found out who was sit next to me.

I open my eyes slowly. My dizziness has gradually disappeared but my head hurts. I looked to the side and saw Kevin looking at me. Maybe he was wondering what I was doing.

"I saw the clinic open, you want to go with me" I shook my head, and I would have stood up when he held my hand to stop me.

"Are you avoiding me? Did I do something wrong?" I would have answered him when I stared at his face for an inexplicable reason.

I saw something suddenly. I saw Kevin's face in a different uniform that also told me that. Is it Déjà vu? What is it? Am I the one he was talking to? when did tgat happened?

"Kev--" I could not continue what I was about to say when someone pulled me down. I almost screamed because I fell. It was good that he caught me.

When I looked up its Chadd. I'm shock, so I had difficulty breathing. Kevin got off the stage and approached me "Are you ok?" I nodded and caught my breath.

He looked at Chadd. I can see the expression on their faces because I am in the middle. Kevin glared at Chadd "Why did you do that? You didn't even think she would be surprised? You know everything that can't happen to her"

"Yeah that's why I'm trying to keep her away from you" Chadd smiled teasingly then Kevin just smirked and couldn't believe while looking at him.

"Look. I don't have bad intentions to her. I just want her back. I just want her" my eyes alternated with the two of them. Gradually I regained my breath.

"Because of you we lost one of our family. Because of you we lost him. I won't let that happen again" Chadd's voice was strong and serious while saying those things. I can not understand anything. Who are they referring to? What is happening here?

It's a good thing they don't shout or anything, so the other students here don't notice that they are arguing about something. I approached Chadd and hugged his arm. They looked at me at the same time. I just smiled at Chadd. He closed his eyes and sighed, because he knew I was calming him down.

He removed my grip on his arm to hold my palm. I was carried away when he approached the stage where I was lowering my bag. He took it and looked for something on stage.

"Alyse" he called there. Our leader turned around.

"Oh. You're here Chadd" our leader said with a smile. They know each other? I do not know. "Oh. So my suspicion that Audrey is your sister is correct. Do you know she will play as--" my chest throbbed, but it was a good thing she didn't continue because Chadd cut off what she was going to say.

"Do you have anything else to do?" Chadd asked.

Alyse looked at her watch and shook her head "There's nothing left--" She did not continue what she was going to say when Chadd suddenly walked away while dragging me.