Shadow Guy

Chapter Eleven

His face showed not only pain but shame somewhere hidden in his eyes. He closed the door, pulled out a chair in front of me and sat down fiddling with his hands and keeping his eyes to the floor.

He sighed and started again, "I was nineteen, my father was rich and I had a little brother and sister. I was the one who would go out and get drunk and stuff like that, so one day when my father kicked me out I walked into the town at dark and..." he cut off. I wanted to just tell him I didn't need to know but something inside me wouldn't let me. "This man he offered me eternity, no pain, no nothing so I took the offer and he changed me. When I finally came around he told me to stay with him, he said I wouldn't be able to resist human blood at such an early point, he said that if I stayed with him a while then he would teach me how to drink without killing the human. I left either way, but when I got home my father wouldn't let me back.....it was for life. I so angry and......and I killed them all..............in one go. When he said I couldn't......feel anything, any sort of emotion he was lying I could feel every emotion a human can.

Then John came along and taught me how to be a proper vampire, how to keep things in control, and I changed my name to my brother's name, John, but then as the others started to join I just changed it to J.T."

He forced a laugh but nothing could leave my lips. He got up and left but before he turned to leave he said, "You scared now?" J.T didn't let me answer, instead, he just walked out to the living room and drank a beer that I hadn't even seen him get.

I stayed sitting on the kitchen counter for a while longer taking in every piece of information about him. Wow...killed his own family! But you know the wired thing.....is......I'm not scared a single bit.

I jumped off the counter and walked back into the living room and took the seat next to him. As he was taking the can to his lips for another sip I snatched it off him and took a whole gulp. He just looked at me and then laughed as I handed back the can.

Ok, a beer I don't think I can ever like! Ugh! Worse than I'm guessing here.....blood! The thing is they act like humans! You wouldn't be able to tell the difference if it wasn't for the whole changing eyes business and the pale skin too.

Well at least I can ensure myself when J.T is acting like a total d**k that he has feelings.....just locked away deep inside him. "So what's with the whole teleporting thing and showing up right in front of me?"

At that my smile disappeared, I couldn't tell the truth, that I was thinking of him! He would take it the wrong way! Wrong, wrong, wrong way!

But it was just because I wanted to know about his past......right? I shrugged not wanting to get into a whole horny fight if you get what I mean. He turned to look back at the TV. "You don't have to answer this but please don't scream at me...what's your real name?"

To my surprise he didn't scream at me, actually, he told me, "Shane," wow! I really didn't think that as his name...........but now looking at it, it did suit him, but I am not going to say he's sexy, Matt is just as cute as him.

"Nice," I said flatly, he didn't make any movement but I knew he wanted to ask something.

"Hey, Brie you wanna go out?" James walked in and a smile crept back on to my face.

"Yeah, sure," I said getting up from the couch.

"How was training?" he asked walking and putting an arm around my waist.

"Oh she enjoyed it alright," J.T said walking out the room laughing, OH s**t! Did he know the effect that his touch did to me? Maybe he thought me resting my head back on his chest was a sign........but it wasn't......right?

Ahhhh! Why does he have to be horny? Feelings, he has feelings Brie, I told myself over and over. Well, what can he expect? He did touch me. That touch has that effect on every girl if someone touched them around that area and just touching their pants line even though they had clothes on.

Plus I would rather kill myself for good then kiss that....that....thing! I don't think I could ever imagine kissing someone else. James ignored J.T's comment and we walked out the front door.

"Where we going?" I asked turning to face him.

"Somewhere," was all he said taking my hand in his. I felt all warm inside and melted. But something else was missing now, sure he makes me think about STUFF, but he doesn't make my skin tingle.....not the same way . . .

"So, what do you wanna do?" he asked still holding onto my hand,

"Well.......I'm not......ice cream!" ok that wasn't meant to come out like that. The one thing I love in the whole wide world was ice cream! He looked at me and in a flash, he was at the ice cream van. I sat down on the bench and closed my eyes letting the hot sun hit against my face. I'm actually so glad vampires can go out in sunlight; I don't think I could go a day without it!

I felt someone touching my cheek and I opened my eyes to see James just staring at me. He had the ice cream in his hand but I lost interest in it. I leaned in and kissed him, he felt soft and....somehow different than the last time I kissed him.

He pulled away and looked at me again. I hate it when he does that, I just melt all the time inside. We stayed in the park a while later until we turned home. Something inside of me died deep down when a thought popped into my mind.

Bodyguard, James was meant to only protect me......what if he didn't really want me, what if it's just all part of his job package? I pushed the thought aside and just went on. Got home and John had to go with James.

I sat down back on the sofa and fell asleep; I guess I didn't know how tired I really was. I woke about two hours later; I sat up straight and almost screamed out. Someone was in the shadow right at the corner of the room.

They stepped out into the light and I sighed, it was J.T.........he looked kinda tense, maybe something happened. "You are so busted! I had to stay up here the whole time whilst you slept cause something's come up and John thinks you need a guard while you sleep,"

Yep, he was pissed. "You just stood there the whole time?"

I asked with a grin on my face, is it me or is he the one who always stays at home? "I had no choice, plus you don't move a lot in your bed....which kinda means you're like a zero in bed," he chuckled and I stuck up my middle finger. How does that s**t even make any logical sense?

But then again, how does any of this make sense?

He can't just be a nice vamp, can he? He has to be a f*****g horny cunt! I really wished he'd just die....at that very minute J.T feel to the floor letting out a small yell of pain.

"Shane!" Without even knowing it I was out the bed and by his side on my knees, I hadn't even realized I was screaming out his real name.

He was clutching his stomach like I was when I was turned. He opened his eyes and they were hazel, his normal color. "Wh.....what.......?" was all I could muster to say, he....he was bleeding from his eyes! Without even knowing what I was doing I jumped to my feet and ran down to the kitchen. I grabbed a knife and ran back upstairs. He was in the same position looking up at the ceiling. His eyes locked on mine and instinct took over, I had no idea what I was doing but the pain in his eyes told me to just go with whatever I thought even if I didn't think anything.

With my heart beating hard against my chest I kneeled back down next to him and slowly cut my wrist, it didn't hurt but I saw the surprise in his eyes. As my skin parted and the thick blood oozed out slowly I placed my wrist to his mouth.

I didn't feel anything until he managed to move his hand up to mine and pressed it harder against his mouth. After a few minutes, his hand dropped and his eyes closed still with the blood on his face. Tears started at the corner of my eyes.

I didn't mean it! Oh god! My head fell to his chest and I cried harder into it. What am I going to tell the others? He just....... I don't even know what happened! And I wasn't crying from fear.....i think I was crying for a totally different reason.

Even though I hated him like hell I never meant that he really die, not for real!