Goodbye to love once again.

Fears

Yes, again I was scared.

I feared you had me just where you wanted me.

Just right there.

In between the cave of your controlling claws.

It was very clear,

Very clear that you told the greatest lies but oh no! that fear.

That fear of having to say goodbye to another friend.

That fear of loosing another star in the sky,

Gripped me from following those little leads to the end.

Instead I chose to remain blind and dumb,

Following you foolishly like it was all I could do to prevent a fall.

When you said you'll be there to the end, I felt my heart beating separately.

It was just a thing placed right there to warn me of the disaster ahead.

I thought I could play nature and keep you till the end.

But life happens and life happened once again.

I everly prayed it was a dream,

But s**t! it was real.

Too late for me to even give a piece of my mind.

But what wrong did I ever commit?

After all the sacrifices, is this what I have to reap?

Why did you come in if you had nothing but sorrow to give?

I can't wish I knew it would come to this,

Because I saw the signs clearly and chose not to act on it,

But here it is.

My fears happening right before me.

You left even before my world could interprete peace.

You left when I needed your comfort the most.

I thought I wouldn't survive the storms of life without you but I had it all wrong.

All I just needed was to move away,

Because I have passed this phase.

I passed with a lesson.

A lesson that says, nobody deserves it all yet.

Not until they have gone through the crooks and cruks of this life with you.

It takes grace to know those people meant for you.

But until my death calls, I will keep searching.

For giving up is nothing but a sign of fear.