Not part of the Family
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I had everything until my mother die in my 10th birthday because my father bought another women home my mother had a weak heart and started recking things she then slap my father then she collapsed to the ground
After a week I found my mother inside a coffin as my grandparents keep on fighting with my father
As days passed I understand what's going on and why do I have to be in this situation the perfect life of mine was ruin for the little affection of my father toward his ex and also was his first love....
Today I met my step brother....no...soon to be... His father died in a car accident when he was seven... He and I don't care about each other but we both have the same feelings towards our parents wedding.... we can't see our parents getting married.... because deep in our heart we couldn't see my father and his mom being married i couldn't accept a new mom so as how he couldn't accept a new dad....
"Let's say we're dating..."Pol said
"Are you insane?... I couldn't even imagine my self being in a relationship..."I said he gave me a big envelope
"1 million.... there's 1 million cash inside it"
"You can pay such amount just so your mama couldn't get to be my father's wife?"
"I just can't sit still and watch how my mother fall in love with another man than my father...."He said then I feel that's exactly what I want to say infront of my father
"This won't work my father know me too well.... I advise you to stop wasting time on stopping their decision...." I return the envelope
"So your just accepting the fact my mom will be your mom too?..."
"My new mom?.... marrying my father means she got to be my father's wife not my new mom...."I said then he smiled
"Do you hate it?..."He said that made me blank for a moment
"Hate what?...."I asked
"Having a father who doesn't even love you truly...."He said that made me furious and couldn't help but to slap him
"I don't care.... I'm used to it.... No need to tell me face to face.... Pol...no that should be step brother.... I got something else to do....
hoping to see you at the wedding..." I said then left
I didn't know I could reject such perfect plan on ruining my father's wedding....
Why can't I do it?
Do I want to do it?
Should I do it?
Didn't it what I was supposed to do as the broken daughter?
Ugh... overthinking really can made your day awful...
"Joy!!...."Someone shouted behind my back when I looked around it was my half big sister Jane she is my mother's first child with her first husband but because of one reason they devorce and left Jane in my mother's parents....
"What are you doing here?...."I asked then she smiled
"I heard your father will get married next week I came here to pick a wedding present and I didn't thought I would see you here....."She said then I realized for a while of spacing out while waking now I'm in a carnival
"Thank you sister.... But what did you bought as a wedding gift?...."I asked then she smiled at me
"Uncle's favorite game UNO...."She said then tears fall down on my cheeks
"Are you crying?... Why are you crying?... What did I say?...Stop crying...... "She said then I shaked my head
"I'm fine....this gift....pls choose something else..."I said then ran away
Why did I cry?... Looking like an idiot...
UNO board game was the things my parents keep on playing infront of me it's become our family bonding... I hate words that cause me to see flash back to the days when my mother was here....
When I gone home.... It's still the same as before.... but I don't feel the life and happiness every time I entered this house... This isn't a home meant for one but I'm the only one left behind....
A week before my father's wedding....
What should I do?....
*Ding Ding*
The doorbell rang
"Joy....It's papa...."When I heard it behind the door I hesitate to open it but I still did
"Pa....pls come inside..."I said then he shaked his head and smiled at me
"Joy... Can you not attend the wedding?..." He said that made me froze
"You see.... Your Auntie doesn't want to see you.... I hope you will not attend the wedding.... but don't worry.... here's a 3 million cash inside this bag buy what ever you want...."He said then I couldn't help myself to asked him
"Do you love me?..."I said looking to his eyes as I stopped my tears from falling
"I got to go..."He said then left in a hurry but I ran to him and shouted
"That's wasn't what I want to hear!!!"
"I don't love you...."He said then left me without looking back he left.... He really left me...what hurts the most is that he doesn't love me he said it himself he doesn't love his own daughter.... The voice of my father keep on repeating in my head
"I don't love you"
"I don't love you"
"I don't love you"
"I don't love you"
"I don't love you"
"Make it stoppppp!!!!"I shouted and ran to my room and closing the door the voice of my father keep on repeating
"I don't love you"
"I don't love you"
"I don't love you"
"I don't love you"
As I saw the bag my father left I laugh
"Your paying me just to neglect me as your daughter?!!!?!!?"
"I don't love you"
"I don't love you"
"I don't love you"
"Make it stop!!!....pls....I don't want to hear it!..."
"I don't love you"
"I don't love you"
"Pls...." I feel week... everything is blurry and swirly
"I don't love you"
Pls...make it stop...
*Beep*Beep*Beep*Beep*
"The patient is waking up!!"
"Hey... Wake up..."
'Where am I?...' A flashlight was pointing in my eyes
"Miss....Wake up..."
'Who?..Who?...Who is it?...'
"Miss can you see this?..."A man's voice came to me
' I only see while light...'
"I can't see....I can't see!!..."I said repeatedly as I panic
"Miss. Pls calm down..."The man said
"Who are you?!!?!?..."I said
"I'm a doctor your here in the hospital..."He said then I remembered that I collapsed
"I don't love you"
"I don't love you"
"I don't love you"
'Here it goes again'
"Ughhhhh!!!!....Make it stoppppp!!!!!..... I don't want to hear anything!!!!!" I shouted then someone held my hand
"Sister it's me..." Hearing Jane's voice made me calm
"Am I blind?..."I asked
"No it's was cause by a temporary brain snap that made you temporary blind... Your eye sight will be back for a couple of days..."The doctor said that made me feel relieved
"Why did my sister suddenly had a brain snap..."Jane asked
"It's because of too much stress or experiencing an unexpected event that may cause trauma..."The doctor said
"It is serious?..."I asked
"No... We already had run some test while your asleep for four days everything is fine as long as you follow my instructions " He said then I finally can breathe normally
"Nurses will check you time to time.... If nothing else I have to take my leave..." He said then I feel it's kinda better to be blind actually because maybe my father will visit me...
"What are you smiling about?... Your in this situation but you still smile...If I were you I would be making a wish list by now" Jane said
"Did you call papa?...."I asked
"I did but that old man doesn't even care about his own daughter.... he's busy making preparation to his upcoming wedding next three days..."She said
'Why did I expect you would come?'
"Are you crying?..."Jane asked I shaked my head and smiled
"I'm hungry...."I said then she laughed
"I'll get you some food and fruits so wait for me here..."She said
"Like I have another choice..."I said then a little while I heard the door close then my tears roll down my cheeks as the voice of my father keep on repeating....I closed my eyes then ignore the voice that keeps on repeating...
Three days passed I had nightmare of my father stabbing me with a knife....I feel I'm dead every time I open my eyes I only see a white light...
"Had your Karma step sister?..."Hearing the voice I already know who is it
"You can laugh all you can....I don't care..." I said then I heard his sarcastic smirk
"Heh....today is your papa wedding...." He said
"I forgot....Who are you kidding I'm not invited...."I said
"What about.... Being my partner?..."He said
"I told you.... I'm unwanted there...."I said as I took a deep breath and close my eyes
"Why?....why are you such a kind daughter?.... If I were you I would be recking the things in the wedding banquet..."He said
"I can't even.... You know what even I want to I can't because I'm blind..." I said
"I know.... you have nothing to lose when you go there you couldn't see it anyway... Pls.... Go with me...."He said gently that I hesitate
"I don't want to hear my father's voice from now on..... because I'm not part of his family starting from the day he said that he don't love me...."I said
"Your telling me your not part of the family anymore?...."He asked then smirk
I don't want to admit it but even it hurts I need to say yes...
"Yes...."When I said it my chest was like tearing into pieces
"Suit yourself.... I'll get going now...."He said and after I heard nothing after he close the door the silence was so cruel... Now all can I hear was the voice in my mind...that's keep on repeating
"I don't love you"
"I don't love you"
"I don't love you"
"It's fine.... " I said
Even you said you don't love me anymore
Even I'm not part of your family
Even I can't longer call you papa
Even you will never call me your daughter
Even I can't see you anymore
I am still the princess you used to tell bedtime stories with
I am still your daughter your still my father
Even you said you hate me....
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