More Than One Way To Die

Chapter 4 Confessions

Violet's POV

Kameron grabs me tight into his strong protective grip and even with that little bit of contact, he makes my heart beat a million times a minute. He smells so good and I feel so safe and petite in his arms that I honestly don't ever want to get out of them.

But I need to.. He obviously doesn't know what he wants, especially with how he was talking to me earlier, making it sound like he could actually want me, but obviously doesn't since he wanted those other girls.. and I'm not just some peice of ass to anyone, not even him.. I want a relationship but I knew this earlier.. So I should have just said no to the party and sticking with my gut feeling.

We are getting to our place pretty quickly after he has walked us back home with a haste in his every step. He opens the door for us as we sneak in with him kicking our door shut while he takes me to our couch and gently setting me down on it.

Kameron's eyes lock with mine for a minute but I break the enchanting gaze, looking away.. I don't want to get lost in his eyes again like I normally do. That's what got me into this situation in the first place.. because it's hard for me to get out of the enchantment of his gorgeous breathtaking eyes and I always give in to him because it really is hard for me to say no to him.. Especially when I get caught up in the moment.

But with everything that's happened tonight I don't need to hurt my heart more than it already has been hurt.

He gets up quickly, I think to get something to help me, because he has a look of determination on his face. Once he leaves the room, I stand up as quickly as I can, which isn't quick at all actually. I hop across the room on one foot and to the stairs.. I use the railing on the stairs to help me hop up each step, faster than I ever expected.

I limp to my room, hearing him coming back out to the living room area. "Vi?" I hear from downstairs as I get to my room and shut my door behind me. I hop to my bed as I hear my door swing open behind me.

"Vi, what are you doing? You could have really hurt yourself.. Why didn't you wait for me?" He says in a panic as I sit on the edge of my bed. "I just didn't want to be down there anymore." I say to him as I look away because I don't want to come off sounding stupid or petty for what I obviously misunderstood before between us.

I look up and he is staring at me, so I quickly look away as I hear him kneel in front of me and I feel him take my hurt ankle into his hand gently. But it still hurts even in his soft grip so I cringe at the shooting pains, biting my lip. I feel his hands caress over my foot as he carefully wraps up my ankle. His gentle touch is somehow turning me on, with how determined his eyes look as he touches my foot as if it's made of glass. I love him taking care of me like this. This reminds me of a dream I once had about him.. but I wasn't hurt and he didn't just stop at my foot when touching me.

"I'm sorry I hurt you." He says to me softly as he hesitantly glances up at me from my foot taking me out of me thoughts. My eyebrows scrunch together as I respond, "It's not your fault that assh*le pushed me, I thought I was helping you, so that's not your fault.. But thank you for helping me with it now."

I watch him shake his head as he says, "No I mean sorry about hurting your feelings.. I know I did." He says locking his gaze with mine as I swallow hard but I don't know what to say.

"Thanks for the apology, but none needed, I obviously misunderstood somethings that were said earlier and that's my fault.. I should have known that.. you.." I stop mid sentence because I almost spilt my feelings, with the help of the alcohol in my system just letting my mouth run rampently unsupervised.

"Known that I what?" He asks me as I just shake my head at him. "Nothing don't worry about it." I say trying to cut this situation off right there. He sets my foot down on the floor gently before sitting up on his knees in front of me and scooting closer to me. "Known that what Vi? Just say it." He says in almost a whisper to me as I swallow nervously. "Known.. that.. you.. could never.. want me." I whisper under my breathe hoping he can't hear me but I think by his close proximity he can.

"It wasn't a misunderstanding.. I do want you." He says to me as his hands trails to my hips rubbing them with his thumbs, but I have been here in this same position.. just like earlier tonight.. I shake my head at him as I push his hands off of my hips saying, "I'm not a peice of ass Kam."

"I never said you were.. and what does that have to do with anything Vi?" He asks me looking so confused at my statement.. but I just shake my head and look away.

"Is that they only way you would think I would want you?" He asks with shock on his face and in his voice.. but he hit it right on the nose so I won't lie to him. So I just nod in response. He shakes his head at me as his hand goes to my cheek instantly.

"I have wanted you for a very long time and it's not just because of your good looks I swear.. I love your personality all around Vi." My heart races, skipping beats along the way.

"What?" I ask with confusion in my voice and probably apparent across my face. "You heard me.. I want you to be with me. I like you a lot Violet.. I have liked you for so long.. and you were right, I didn't stop those girls when I should have and it was wrong of me and it won't happen again.. I swear.. but you didn't misunderstand anything.. I'm just new to relationships, you know I am never in them, but I would do my best with you. I just didn't have the guts to ask you to go with me and be with me.. You didn't misunderstand anything though.. I was just scared." He says to me making me heart stop and drop in complete utter shock, obviously not expecting that at all and before I even know what I'm doing I lean in crashing my lips to his because I think this is some sort of dream that I might wake up from any moment so I want to enjoy it while I can.

His hands trail over my hips pulling me into him as he deepens the kiss. His soft lips are so much better than I ever imagined that they would feel.. He is such a great kisser and tastes so good, I just want to kiss him forever.. this is more than I ever expected and better than any of my dreams.

His lips trail from my lips to my neck as I stutter out, "What about my brothers? They have told me to stay away from you for so long.." He stops kissing my neck as he looks at me in shock, saying back to me.

"They have told me that same thing.. But I don't care, I can't help my feelings for you and I just want you.. Fine.. they can be mad at me all they want but that doesn't change anything.. for me at least." He says to me making me heart finally beat again.

"It doesn't change anything for me either. But I'm not just a random girl, I want a relationship I hope you know." I whisper out to him as he nods vigorously then kisses me again with a desperation.. for me.

"I have been wanting this for so long." he says into my lips. I stop him and push back so I can look him in the eyes not just getting carried away with our drunken feelings.

"If you have wanted this for so long then why haven't you tried anything with me?" I ask as he responds. "Your brothers told me you were off limits.. So I was trying to be respectful to them.. but my feelings have gotten so much stronger over the years and especially with us living together.. it's hard to resist no matter how much I don't want to bother my friends. I just don't want to ignore my feelings anymore."

"Really? You swear your not messing with me or just wanting s*x from me or anything like that? You really like me?" I ask with suprise in my voice realizing all this is hitting me like a brick wall because this is not a dream.

"Are you serious? Why would I ever mess with your feelings like that? I'm not your brothers.. but of course I want you.. for you. If I get s*x in the process then I won't object one bit, but I just want to be with you Vi.. So what do you say? Will you be my lady?" He says to me in such close proximity that I can feel his breath fanning off my lips as I nervously bite my bottom lip. "I swear if you break my heart I'll kick your ass myself.." I say to him as he smiles big pressing his lips to mine again.

I peel my lips away from his as I whisper, "Let's not tell my brothers about this right now until we find a better way to tell them.. So they won't harass the both of us forever.. Because I know they are going to be so pissed at me." I say to him as he responds pretty quickly. "I know they will be mad at me too, but I can't help how much I like you. I thought eventually I would just get past you, but my feelings never went away, they just got stronger over the years." he says staring at me as I nervously ask. "Years?"

He shyly nods and sets his forehead to mine. "Like I said I have liked you for a long time." This comment alone makes my heart just swoon. "Me too." I whisper out as I he looks up at me with shock in his eyes. "Really?"

"Yea for years.." I respond as he leans in again but this time presses on my hurt ankle. I groan in pain as he jumps up. "Oh I'm so sorry baby I didn't mean to hurt you! Wait let me get you some ice or something." He says to me as he bolts out of room before I can even say anything. But that just makes my heart so happy, I can't believe this.. I never would have expected this is how my night would end.

He gets back into my room in no time at all sitting on the bed besides me taking my foot on his lap and putting the ice on it. I stop him by putting my hand on his as I say, "Kam your hurt we need to get you cleaned up baby."

"Mmm baby? I love the sound of that coming out of your mouth for me." He says to me winking causing my face to heat up as I playfully hit his chest.

"I'm serious, your head is still bleeding let me help you get that cleaned up Romeo." I say to him as he gets between my legs, grips me by hips and wrapping his arms around my thighs and ass, picking me up, then holding me against him to carry me.

"Kam what are you doing?" I ask holding his neck tight with our faces only inches apart. "What Vi? You're hurt and having a hard time walking, but we need to get to the bathroom to clean my wound up, so I just figured I would carry you there." He states as if it's just obvious, then he turns us around walking across the room.

"So you chose to carry me like this?" I ask playfully as he turns pressing me against my closed closet door and gripping my ass tighter but I don't mind one bit.

"Fine you caught me, I just really wanted a good reason to hold you like this and who knows you might be helping me heal in more ways than one just by this embrace. I swear your ass and lips have healing powers because I haven't felt pain since touching them." He says to me causing me to giggle and shake my head as he leans in pressing his lips to mine.

I run my hand through his locks making the kiss deeper than before. Without even realizing I moan into his lips as he purrs into mine. I feel his tongue push in between my lips and into my mouth exploring all around.. I willingly let this happen because it feels too good to stop.

This is honestly what my dreams are made of I don't think I could be any happier in this moment. Until he breaks our intense kiss to my dismay. Did I do something wrong?

He stares at me for a moment as he lets out a deep breath saying softly, "This is better than I ever imagined with you Vi.. but I better stop before I push my limits with you.. I don't want you to regret anything with me ever." He whispers into my lips as I nod.

He is probably right I would jump right into something with him but I don't want to regret anything with him either.

So he takes us into my bathroom and sets me on the bathroom counter then pulling out my first aid kit. I grab a rag from besides me as I dampen it under the water and I watch him sit down on the toilet seat that's covered, right next to me.

I turn so I'm facing Kameron as I gently take his face into my one hand holding it steady and with the other open hand I clean his cut on his forehead gently. I clean all the dried blood off, then glancing at Kameron who is leaning into my gentle touch. "Thanks for helping me tonight.. with Blake." I say softly gaining his attention, as I open the bandaid and put it on his first wound.

"Anytime.. I had a bad feeling about him and I couldn't let him try to take advantage of you like that.. he told me that's what he was going to do earlier, he said he was just going to get you drunk and try to get more from you.. and I tried to stop him and talk him out of it, but he wouldn't listen and once he left the house with you flipping me off from behind your back, I just knew I had to follow." He says to me as I nod in understanding. "I'm sorry you got messed up.. who knew he was the fighting type huh?" I say to him as he smiles at my attempted joke, "Yes maybe I should try to become the fighting type and that probably would have worked out better in my favor huh?" He says to me as I feel his hand go to my leg rubbing it gently before he adds. "I think I won for tonight, even if he did beat me up more." I smile at him as I bite my bottom lip out of nervousness.

"You better stop that Vi.. You're making me jealous that I'm not the one biting your lip." He says to me as I feel my face heating up at that comment. I clean up one more cut on his head as I keep glancing down at him see him just smirking at me the whole time.

"Ok Kam I think your good." I say to him as he responds softly. "Thanks for your help Vi.. this.. with us.. is really nice.. thanks for giving me a chance.. I hope you don't regret this tomorrow when you're sober." He says a little sadly to me as I scoff his comment responding. "I have wanted this for a long time too.. I promise I won't regret it.. Just don't mess this up and help me try to figure out a way to tell my brothers, to where they won't hate me more than they already do." I say to him as he smiles and nods.

He stands up picking me up the same way in his strong arms and strangely enough I really don't mind at all. We get closer to my bed as he leans down so I move my book from earlier out of the way as he sits me down on my bed. I stretch my legs out straight as he just sits besides me in the bed. He has turned slightly so he is sitting by me with both of his arms on either side of my legs. As he looks down at me now that I'm slightly underneath him.

"So.. this late afternoon.. I have to admit.. I was jealous of the Drake you were reading about.. but also turned on knowing that's what you were thinking about and reading." Kameron says to me as he lifts the book, glancing at the cover of it, then sitting it back down next to me.

"Well don't be too jealous Kam, if we are being honest, I was thinking of you the whole time." I say probably way too honestly for my own good but he is confessing so I'll confess as well.

He smirks and wiggles his eyebrows at me. "Really? That's an amazing thought in itself. Tell me a little more about these thoughts." He says leaning in as we hear from behind us.

"What happened to you guys at the party?" Vincent almost yells in the room with Vance storming in behind him.

I can feel Kameron's hand wrap around mine that's behind his body and my legs, so they can't see and I take what I can get in this nerve-racking moment.

Kameron is the one to answer. "Blake told me he was trying to get Vi drunk so he could take advantage of her and I tried to stop him but he didn't stop.. He tried to force himself on her, so I stopped it before he could. We got into a fist fight and he beat the hell out of me and pushed Vi over when she tried to help. But since she had the heels on she sprang her ankle so I carried her back here, wrapped up her swollen foot for her and she cleaned up the cuts on my head from him, for me and I just layed her down on her bed." He says to me rubbing his thumb on my hand and I love that he is still showing me how he cares while still respecting my feelings and not telling my brothers yet about us.

"Yea I might need a ride to the hospital tomorrow to make sure I didn't break it." I say to them as they both look at me suspiciously. "I'll give you a ride.. but I do think you might have broke it because I did see a good amount of bruising on it when I was wrapping it up." Kameron says to me as I nod.. he knows what he is talking about because he is actually going to school to be a nurse currently.

"Thanks Kam we can go in the morning if you don't have any plans.. It's my day off tomorrow.. So I can go whenever." I say to him as he nods and says. "I just have to finish one paper but that's not due until midnight online, so I have all day to look over what I already wrote and send it in.. So the morning sounds fine to me.. but get some sleep and we will go when you're up and ready.. If you need anything just yell for me, because I know it's hard for you to walk right now." He says to me as I say a soft. "Thanks Kam.. for everything tonight."

"Anytime Vi.. Sweet dreams.. See you in the morning." He says to me as he squeezes my hand tight then let's it go, standing up from my bed and leaving me in there accompanied by my brother's glares.

"What?" I ask them as they both keep glaring then they look at each other and leave with a huff, slamming the door behind them.