Chasing Somnia

episode 7

Chapter 14

I’m thankful for my pack. They give me the motivation to keep pushing on . I may not be able to meet everyone in my pack everyday, but my beta and his mate do an excellent job of reminding me what the majority of the pack is feeling most of the time, purely because of the fact that they have more access to the Pack.

And who are we kidding? They are far more approachable than I have been of late.

But I feel like it might be time to at least try to change that. I’m not gonna lie and say I don’t look at my beta with his mate and sons, and don’t feel more than a little jealous at times. And lately my beast has been reminding me that when I do get my mate and cubs back, I don’t want them to hate who I’ve become, so I’m working on it.

I feel as though I won’t need to search that much longer before I get them back. I’ve found that the sunlight feels different on my spots lately, and it’s hard to describe. Anyway, that’s how it’s felt as I’ve run my turn on patrol lately.

My beta has been having a fit over that, says it’s too dangerous for me. And I quote’ what’s the point of having troops if I’m going to put myself in the line of fire?’

But what type of alpha would I be if I didn’t use my power to protect the ones who aren’t as strong as me? Don’t get me wrong every person in the pack has something that brings a measure of strength to us all. As alpha I bring the overall strength to the pack. But I’ll tell you something , I will be forever great full to the omega gardener who helped me to choose the bouquet of flowers that helped win my mates heart. Cause I can’t grow a flower to save my own life. Or the nurse tech that showed us our cubs first heartbeats. Or the beta who’s willing to risk his own life to force a cup of coffee down his Alpha’s throat every morning with a Smile!

I protect them, but they protect me as well. They remind me that we are not just a pack, we’re a family.

I can’t believe I almost forgot that. “That will be something to keep in mind for the near future.”

“What aren’t you telling me, Magnus?”

“Better to be pleasantly surprised than bitterly disappointed, isn’t it?”

“Can’t argue with that. But I’ll try to keep your advice in mind, cause something does feel different, and not in a bad way.”

“How are you holding up, Alpha?”

“Good, Beta. Real good. And you?”

“ Um? Great! You seem a bit different lately… a good different, I wonder what’s changed?” he said as his bear came running alongside his Alpha’s leopard. “ I don’t know . But stay alert it feels important.”

Chapter 15

We are officially back to walking on foot. And I will be the first one to tell you that my back and feet are not happy bout that! It feels like my size has doubled since I hit the five month mark. I’ve been allowing Jacob to carry Amber full time which he isn’t complaining at all about, but it sure is getting on my nerves! I know he would theoretically never hurt her, cause he’s pack and my pack is different. If at anytime I feel like he is going to be like all the other men I’ve ever known, I’ll just kill him, simple yes!

“ next time we get into a scuffle, you take a rest and let me and fenius take care of it. Yer fever is getting worse, and you’ve fainted twice this week alone.”

“ I don’t think…”

“besides,’ he just keeps his external monologue going .

* you done went and beefed me up, you need to let me get in the combat practice so I can be a worthy protector for Amber and yer cubs right. Right!?”

I just threw my hands up in exasperation. “okay fine!” not saying anything about the battle after next. Besides according to the little compass Granny gave me we were almost all the way to Papa’s anyway. Not gonna lie Mom said find Papa and so did Granny, and that’s what I’m doing , but I have no idea what to do, or how I’ll react once I get there.

Will he help us ? Momma, and Granny seems to think so. Will he throw us away? I don’t know.

How will he treat Jacob? I’ll tell you one thing, Jacob is my pack, my babies are a package deal and if he rejects one of us, we all leave.

I’ll find another way to free Mom, and raise my pack on my own. They’ve been good to me. Kinder than I deserve.

Well except for the twins. I know I have at least one or two bruised or broken ribs cause of their kicking, but I forgive them. They don’t know better.

“ how long has it been since you’ve talked to your beasts Nia?”

“ I don’t know? Uhm, they whispered to me about a week ago that they needed to keep their strength up for our next big battle, and mostly to heal the Babies. He tossed me a concerned look. “Then it’s settled. As your official beta, I am taking over.” battle duty! No if, ands or… He took a glance at my back side while slightly dancing out of arms reach of me“ or big old juicy butts”

“ hey! get back here so I can smack you! “Oh look, Amber! Butterflies in the forest! Let’s go catch one!” he ran off with Amber’s infectious giggles trailing after Is this what friendship feels like? If so, I won’t mind letting Amber have a mate if he makes her happy. It’s all I want for my Babies.

I won’t think too hard on it. They deserve all the happiness in the world. I was built to protect. I’ll keep squish heart happy for now. I’ll figure the rest out when I get to Papa’s. Then… we’ll see.