Lost

Chapter 1

Good memories always act like a sweet escape when our present plays cruel games with us and bad memories always disturb our present even if we're trying to be happy but what will happen when our memories are suddenly erased and we don't even know whether they are good or bad?

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SKYLAR'S POV

Confuse, that's what I am at this moment. The doctor recommended me to reduce stress and over-thinking in order to avoid any sort of health issues but how can I stay calm when a part of my life is missing, what happened in the past two years? Right now, I'm sitting in the balcony of my room lost within myself, trying to find out if there are any sort of traces left within my brain that can reconnect me with my past. It's been a few hours since I am discharged from the hospital, my family tried to cheer me up but I'm feeling helpless right now and want to spend some time with myself. I know they all are concerned about me but how can I enjoy their company when my inner self is shattered terribly.

The conversation that took place in the hospital is still revolving around my head. When the doctor came back, I was drowned within my thoughts he tried to ask if I remember anything else that happened the night I went to Ashley's party. My answer was the same because the only thing I remember is leaving her house and I was slightly drunk. Though I was drunk yet I was sober enough to recognize my surroundings and the events taking place around me. Even the doctor was confused for some time but then he asked me if I remember my family and friends or events that occurred in my life before the last two years. Believe me, I remember everything from my school memories to my college ones, my friends, family, parties I attended, relative's names, family functions, my graduation ceremony, everything. I remember everything except what happened with me when I left Ashley's house on that unfortunate night. The doctor called my family and as soon as my mom saw me she ran towards me and engulfed me within her protective hug, she was crying badly. I didn't understand why she was having a major breakdown not only her my entire family was having tears in their eyes and a hint of sadness was plastered on their face. When my mom broke the hug, I asked her, what happened with me these past two years? Everyone was flabbergasted but dad told me that I was missing for the last two years, they were trying to find me but they didn't even get a clue regarding my whereabouts. Yesterday they found me unconscious in the garden of our house. 

The doctor arranged a psychiatrist for me and I tried to interact with her but I couldn't remember anything, it seems as if someone has erased my memories but is that even possible, well in today's world everything is possible. The question is where was I and with whom? I guess I need a break from my endless thinking process as my head is paining badly. I went inside the washroom and stripped out of my clothes stepping into the shower cabin, letting the warm water trail down my body soothing my tensed muscles and drifting my mind into the world of peace. After washing my hair, I stepped out of the cabin wrapped my wet hairs into a towel and draped my favorite fluffy robe around my body. A simple yet logical question arose within my mind if I was away from my home then how I manage to live without clothes and money. I think this part of life will remain a mystery for me and I won't be able to decode my mysterious past.

 I was about to leave the washroom but a slight burning sensation near my neck stopped me in my tracks. I glanced at my reflection in the mirror, trailing my finger over the curve between her neck and shoulder, a series of shivers ran down my spine making me feel divine. It seems as if something's hidden within my flesh that is responsible for driving these soothing sensations within me. The comforting sensations soon converted into burning ones and my skin reflected the severe amount of pain making me scream in agony, my knees instantly became jelly and I dropped down crying in this unusual pain. It felt as if someone close to me is in severe pain as if some invisible yet known connection is telling me that my soul is connected with someone and I can feel their distress. As I was drifting into the unfortunate darkness, a halo of blue light surrounding a giant moon appeared in front of eyes, I could hear my laughing accompanied by a male’s laughter, blurry silhouettes of two people appeared in front of the dark moon, they were kissing each other. Who were they and why were they flashing in front of me. Did I know them? The moon was trying to symbolize something, it seems as if a major part of my life is stored within its mysterious self. I was trying to decode the meaning behind the sudden appearance of the moon and the blurry image but it immediately hid within my mind, my eyes were wandering everywhere trying to find the peace that generated within my throbbing body with the mere glimpse of the giant moon. Was I hallucinating or the moon is linked to me in some form, my screams became louder while my lips were quivering in pain, my eyes gave up the hope of finding our source of tranquility and started shutting themselves.

 I could hear knockings on the washroom's door and my mother's pleadings to open it but the pain wasn't allowing me to stand up and slowly everything started revolving around me, before zooming out into the world of darkness I heard or you can say felt a small whimper arising from the deepest regions of my mind as if someone was crying with me or for me.

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I have submerged within the world of darkness once again, it seemed as if my sleep loves me so much that it can't bare my conscious form. I slowly opened my eyes and found my mother sitting beside me, she heaved a sigh of relief when I woke up and cupped my cheeks tenderly. I got up while she helped me and kissed my forehead before taking my hand in hers. 

"What's wrong with you baby? Why were you screaming?" Her voice was full of concern. 

"I don't know mom, I felt a burning sensation near my neck and when I checked for any bruise, I didn't find one, suddenly the impact of the pain intensified and I fainted due to exertion." I buried my face into my palms wondering what's wrong with me, ever since I gained consciousness my mind is playing terrific games with me. I didn’t want to bother her more so I purposely hid the truth of that blurry image and giant moon that flashed within my mind when I drifted into darkness.

"Skylar, I think you are over-thinking the recent incidents. Please don't stress yourself, baby we don't want to lose you again. You don't know how much terrified we were when you suddenly disappeared." Her voice choked and I know very well, she's hiding millions of emotions within herself, her heart is as soft as a wax if anyone is in pain she will feel their pain. My mom is very sensitive and it clenches my heart after knowing how broken she was when I went missing not only her but my entire family. 

I couldn't hold myself back, I throw myself into her arms, her embrace always saves me from the cruel world that messes up with my brain. 

"I don't want to think regarding anything mom but how can I ignore the fact that I was missing for two freaking years. Where was I? What I was doing? Who was with me? I can't remember anything, my brain is totally blank. How will I forget about this weird event? It's not easy." I finally revealed my feelings and somehow I felt good. 

"Everything will be fine, you just need to calm yourself first. If you want we can arrange a psychiatrist, maybe he will help you in remembering your lost memories."

"Mom, my situation is very weird." I took a long breath before continuing. "I remember everything except those two years when I went missing. I haven't lost my memories completely, I have lost a small chunk of them. How a psychiatrist will help me in this situation?" I hate when her hopeful expressions were converted into sad ones. "Until you want them to transform your daughter into a lab rat and perform experiments on her." She chuckled and my lips automatically curved up. "You are impossible Skylar." She shook her head and kissed my forehead. 

"Now, don't think about all this mess and come join us into the garden. You know how much your dad is worried about you and your brother is rambling as usual about how we shouldn't have left you alone." She sighs. 

"Wait, how you guys manage to take me out?" I arched my brow at her. "Well, your brother Daniel broke the door." She smiles a little. "He was about to cry when he saw you unconscious. You know how broken he was when you were missing. Now, we all got our peace back." She cups my face and I smiled at her. I know everything is very difficult for me but I will try to forget these weird events that occurred with me for them. I will act like my old self for them. I won't torture myself due to a freaking past, the erased past because I don't want my dear ones to feel bad about me. I only want to give them happiness and I will do everything that will make them smile. 

"Now, let's go Skylar or else Daniel and your dad will become more worried." I nodded and followed her towards the garden. The scenario of the garden was just the way I predicted earlier. My dad was sitting on the chair with his face buried within his palms while Daniel was pacing back and forth trying to ease his worry. Ever since I returned back, I didn't converse much with them as my own mind was filled with endless thoughts and I didn't want to bother them more but now, I only need the comfort of all my family members. 

"Dad, Danny." I tried to sound as cheerful as I can because I can't see both handsome men in tension. It kills me. Daniel immediately ran towards me and pulled me into his protective hug, wrapping his arms tightly around me. "You don't know how much I missed you Sky." His voice cracked and I felt something wet on my shoulder, my brother was crying. I can't believe it, for the first time I saw him cry and unfortunately, the reason behind his tears is me. I couldn't control the numerous tears that I was hiding between my orbs when I saw the vulnerable condition of my brother. I cried with him, I don't remember anything yet I can feel the longing for my family. 

After some time we broke the hug and Danny wiped my tears while a small smile appeared on his face. "I'm sorry Sky, we weren't able to help you when you needed us but now I won't let to face this wrath again." He kissed my cheek tenderly as if I'm a flower petal.

 "Dad" I saw him standing beside Danny his eyes were filled with tears. I hate seeing him like this so I hugged him tightly for releasing his worries. I can't see them like this anymore and I will try to act happy around them so that they can release themselves from the baggage of guilt and anxieties they are carrying.

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UNKNOWN POV

"I can feel it all, her emotions, helplessness, vulnerability, everything associated with her. I know she felt my pain, she will hate me when she will get to know that I'm the one who separated a major part of her life from her consciousness but soon she will be back with me safe and sound. We will live together happily with no restrictions or conflicts. Right now her life is more important for me and I will give my life for protecting my only source of happiness, my mate." 

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Love demands sacrifice, the foundation stones of this beautiful relation are laid when you are ready to sacrifice your own needs, desires, happiness for protecting the one you love, for filling their life with endless cheerfulness.