Untangled

HELL HOUSE

The moment I open the door and I walk into the house that I have been living in for years everything comes back to me. The years of betrayal and abuse he has given me, every place in this house is my nightmare. I used to think that this house was full of love and happiness, boy I was wrong. I ran upstairs to our room and I just wanted to ransack the whole room. I do not want to talk to my beloved husband as he said that he is my husband, he may be my husband on paper but after so many years of not acting like a husband, what did he eat to change his mind. While I am deep in my thoughts my door opens and Daryl is standing over the door frame and staring at me, he's holding a photo album.

I was the one who made that photo album because for me every second of my life with him is important, every memoir that I have made with him are treasures that are worth a lifetime, but boy I was completely wrong. When he handed me the photo album there was something in his eyes that I cannot point out, is it guilt or relief. No matter what it is I just want him to get out of my sight. I am not ready for this; I am not ready to forgive him.

The moment I accepted the photo album, I think Daryl already knew that I was still not ready to talk to him, because after he handed it over to me he left the room.

I am weak, my mind is weak, my love and respect for myself is already gone for a long time. I do not know what to do in this bedroom. I used to think that this room was full of our love, but I was only deceiving myself for a very long time.

I stood in the window and look at the sky, the sky is dark and I laugh at my foolishness when I was a kid

Past

Daryl always act like a man when we were kids the first time he went to our house he doesn’t want to play with me because all my toys are too girly for him, I do not know why he doesn’t want to play with me or why he acts like a grown up when the fact that we are just kids. It was raining cats and dogs during that time, and the thunder outside was loud. I was scared but I can’t let him see through me, because I know he will bully me.

After quite some time Daryl and I played, I am his wife and he’s my husband, at first he doesn’t want to do it but he doesn’t really have a choice because he didn’t carry any of his toys so I made a deal, I will be the one who will decide what are we going to play today and the next time we will play he will be the one who will choose.

To my surprise he agreed with me, the time flew so fast that he had to go home, we said goodbye to each other and he left. The moment he left my mom walk by my side because she saw me in a daze. She told me to go upstairs and clean all the mess that Daryl and I made, I giggled at her expression.

I went upstairs to clean all my toys and I saw the plastic teacup that I served to Daryl. I laughed at him because when I gave him a teacup his cheeks turned red like a tomato, and then I zoned out again, because I do not have a playmate anymore.

After I cleaned my room I went downstairs and saw my mom washing some dishes. I took a chair and put it near our sink. I helped my mom wash the dishes. My mom stared at me for a while and asked me what I want to become when I grow up, I told her that I want to become a doctor and a good housewife. She asked me why I want to become a good housewife and not just hire someone to take care of my house. I said "because mom you are my role model, you are busy taking care of the house, dad and me. You're not just a housewife you are "the housewife", sometimes when I look at you I keep on thinking to myself that my mom is a wonder woman" she laughs at me and kisses me on my cheeks.

After we washed the dishes my father came home and the moment my mom opened the door he kissed my mother on her cheeks and hugged me. This is what I call a simple yet a happy family, this is my blessing from the above, this is what I want to cherish the most, my parents and this scenario.

Time flew by and it is another Saturday, at the very young age it occurred to me that Saturday is aunty Michelle day and I am so happy because she will visit me again to play with me, but that thought was replaced, will Daryl come and play with me, he might be a pain in the ass but I think he's a good person inside he just putting a facade that he is cold and arrogant.

I stood up and fixed my bed. Even in these simple acts I might be able to help my mom, I went downstairs and there's already cookies and milk on the table, I really do have the best mother. The bell rang and of course me being me I ran to the door and opened it. I saw Aunty Michelle and Daryl standing outside, I let them in and this time Daryl brought his toys.

My mom talked with aunty Michelle while Daryl and I went upstairs to play. Just like what we talked about last week, he will decide what we're gonna play today. He decided that he will be the policeman and I will be the hostage and my teddy bears are the kidnappers, well he brought his plastic handcuffs and his water gun, this i***t tied me and put a tape on my mouth, I think he watched too much actions movies at his age, yet a deal is a deal I played my role and he played his, but he really made my teddy bears wet with his water gun, I rolled my eyes after he saved me from my kidnappers which are my teddy bears and said I am here to save you, I just rolled my eyes, of course he is here to save me after all he was the one who tied me.

The Day went well and he had to leave again, he said good bye and I waved my hand. It is a very tiring day but I had fun

Weeks have passed and another Saturday came, he's here to play with me again. This time we had a tea party, because I got to decide, and to my surprise he didn't argue with me. I put three cups in front of him. The first one contains water, the second one is milk and the third one is juice.

Another week has passed and this time he gets to decide what we should play. He wants to play hide and seek, and this i***t wants me to find him, but he hid himself very well. It took me thirty minutes to find him.

Time flew by and he had to go home again. He said his goodbye, I waved my hand.

Time goes by. It is Saturday again, this time I get to decide what we should play today and I decided to play with paper dolls. Well he tried to argue at first by saying it's all girly and stuff but in the end, he played with me.

Time passed by and it was another Saturday but this time they didn't come.