Christopher I stare at myself in the mirror of the downstairs bathroom. I can see the paleness on my face, my eyes bloodshot and hollow, like I haven’t slept in days. Sweat clings to my forehead even though the room feels cold. My hands tremble as I pull on the yellow gloves, the snap echoing in the tiled silence. On the counter beside me are everything Martin told me to get—bleach, water, and a sponge. I grip the edge of the sink, trying to steady myself. This was supposed to be simple, I remind myself. Just clean up the mess. Get rid of the evidence. But as I pick up the bucket and step out of the bathroom, my legs feel heavy, like I’m wading through thick hot tar. The smell hits me before I even see the stain. It’s faint but metallic, sharp enough to turn my stomach. And when I

