Shade

chapter 4

I walk toward Christian, his leg is cross, a black suit sipping what I think is coffee, black I imagine, I and Christian history goes way back, I met him when I was 18, my life has been a disaster back then, my mom died when I was 13, my father left us when I was 10 after mom died I have been moving from one foster home to the other, all the dad in the foster home I want to can't seem to keep their d**k in their pant with me around before I got to the age of 18, I have been a victim of r**e 5 times I manage to escape only twice.

Christian saw me and he want me on the spot he say I'm too beautiful to be in that place, he told me he will help me and turn my life around if only i will be his, he looks very wealth so I agree what was there lose, if he wants to kill me he should,I was tired of life at that point, a very beautiful girl living on the street is not very advicable i barely finish high school, college was not an option, christian was help, ought for his selfish interest, he saves my life, he gives me everything the only prize I paid was the be his submissive, he train me in college, i never experience a normal colleges life, because i have to follow his rules, no male friend, no smoking, no drinking, no partying no failing of course, i wanted to be have my independent so bad without him asking i make sure to pass all my course, i study very hard, i just wanted to finish college and get a job but Christian have another plan for me he have invest millions in crypto currencies under my name, to open my own company, reason been he wanted me to be wealth, for that act , i forgive him for ever flog, ever slap, every anal s*x, i am not really a fan for anal, well every great woman has a great story

"hi Christian" I smile as he stands up to peck me, he extends his hand for me to kiss as I always did back then as his submissive, and I almost did, but I held myself back and stared at his hand, then glaring at him

"oh I'm sorry, old habit, sit down" he put his hand in his pocket, I smile and sat Christian always ordering even when he doesn't mean too

"my favorite, how are you, you look very beautiful, have anyone told you that today" he calls the waitress and orders black coffee for me

"yea, Matt told me," I said softly, even if I and Christian our history, his my friend now, the only person I can trust for business advice, and I still tell him about my Submissive not because I want to but because he kept asking and before Christian ask a Question he already knows the answer

"still with him" he lifts his brow, Christian has this crazy sexy English accent I bet it drives girls crazy, not me though, I shrugged

"He's a good Submissive" I defend

"what did I tell you about keeping a Sub for too long," he says keeping a sub for too long will make them too attach, which is bad for their mental health.

the waitress brought my coffee, I look at it and ask her to return it, saying I want anyone one with a lot of milk, I return not because I don't like it but because he ordered it, I look at him with challenge and he smirk since I came in I have not taken a good look at him, he eyes are grey as usual, he cut his hair cut in a military cut, I wonder why, Christian Grey is the kind of man that looks good in anything, he still looks very handsome even more handsome as he age

"then why do you keep me 6 years" I challenge, it feels good to talk back to him.

to my surprise, he starts laughing

," you are enjoying this ain't you," he says between laughter, I join him because is funny to talk back with him, 5 years I won't dare,

" And I didn't let you go because I had a big plan for you, I needed you to finish college so you will have some confidence in yourself, and Harrah it worked."

it is true back then I have no sense of self-esteem and who can blame me I had been through a lot at a young act because I had a lack of self-confidence I built a wall around myself, and I was down ass rude to any college boys or girls who try talk to me, they nickname me the ice Queen, hell I was rude to everyone but him, how can I, Christian was not soft on punishment sometime you might think his a sadist well I'm a Dom now, I understand.

"Why are you here Christian" his name sounds strange in my mouth, it has always been Mr. Grey or master, I haven't seen him for five years now since I left London

"How is the company, Good?" he ask straight to the point, I don't think that the reason he came I figure he already knows the condition of the company his one of my top shareholders my lose it he's lost so he keeps a tap on the company progress

"yea, working on a project with Isaac" I sip my coffee, I know he already knows that

"Bad for you he is an ass, want my help" he smirks, uncrossing his leg

"No, I will deal with him," Isaac thinks women are made to be under him, he makes my skin crawl, I will deal with him

"Back to why you are here, we can talk business anywhere in the world, so what is it," I ask, folding my arms

" oh Anastasia my dearest" I hold myself from yelling I'm not his anything, we are friends now but my emotions toward him are complicated, I still scared of him even if I try to deny it, I hate him at times but I still like him, he helps me a lot.

"I'm getting married" he hurriedly said my jaw fall open, and I hurry close it, but still nothing could mask my level of shock.

"Why" for the first time I see Christian looking nervous and unsure of himself, ok this is just crazy.

"I don't know Ana, I think it's time, I don't want to dwell in the past forever, I want to move on have kids, go to the park, and stuff," wow from the way he talks you will know he's serious and very passionate about this decision

"Why are you telling me this," I ask

" I feel you just have to know," but why

"I'm not in love with you Christian" I remind him

" I know, I want to invite you to the wedding, it is next month in London, be there..." To be honest I won't miss that wedding for anything I just have to be there.

"Why the rush," I ask

"she is pregnant" wow okay

"congratulations Christian" I'm happy for him, he's been through a lot too as a child, I stand up to leave but his next word stops me on my track

"I'm scared, I'm so scared " the sorrow I feel in his voice made me walk to him and hug him,

" I know and you will do great" I whisper

"Do you think so" I don't but I didn't tell him that

"yes, yes I do"

***

Mike drives me to the company, he opens the door for me, I immediately see someone smoking in a corner of the building, what the hell, I walk towards him

"Do you want to get arrested" shiny blue eyes gaze at me, wait, Andrew

"No," he says nonchalantly

"what the hell are you doing here" I drag the cigarette from my finger, throw it on the floor and stomp it with my heel

"hey, you are not cool as I thought, and what is it with everyone dragging my smoke" he murmur

"How do you know this place, are you, stalking me," I ask

" wow no! although I love the idea, my mom give me the address I didn't know you work here, anyway your beautiful face just brightens my f**k ass day" he smile putting his hand in his pocket, did his eyes just changed to light green, wow

focus I tell myself, biting my lower lip I asked

"why will she give you the address of my company"

"wow it's yours, beauty and brain" he blushes, what is it with all this innocent blush, he doesn't look innocent at all I see a tattoo on his neck, he has a piercing at the corner of his lower lip and brows at well, sexy as hell

"don't flirt with me" I warn

"yea, you are the one eye f*****g me" what! now is my turn to blush, what I'm I a 16-year-old, my hand twitched, I want to hit him so bad

"Why are you here," I ask ignoring his comments

"I want a job"