Vivian’s POV:
Though I’m having my brains worming in discontent and craziness for the little fucker’s actions and I would kill him on the spot, I’m too tired and too drained of energy to fight some more against him. What I had left in me, I’ve used previously. And I can feel the little fucker is serious on the options. So, I let go, and once I close my eyes, the sleeping leprechaun takes me to dreamland.
I have never been in one’s arms like this and it disgusts me at such indescribable lengths. Anyhow, even though I’m in complete discontent, I feel good sleeping and his warmth on me is giving me a weird peace. I think the degrees of my craziness have reached some f****d-up levels.
Yes…. Way to go, Vivian…. And you don’t even want this…. Maybe because of what he said about Stevie and all. That he was responsible for him and s**t? Or maybe because he seemed worried for real for me? He was true to his words for my departure and all…. But he doesn’t know my a*s. He only knows me for a few hours. He must be playing his little war on me and he doesn’t want to involve Stevie as he’s a fair player. Stevie has nothing to do with us. He’s not the one married to the little fucker. I don’t know…. I don’t like him anyway and what he asks of me will never happen. That’s impossible. I’ll never fall in that trap.
The real him is from that morning. He didn’t have time to fake himself. The one from today is the faking one. He just wants to use what’s at his hand. Well, why not, right? What’s in it for him? He just wants to see how this one is, too. It’s in his house after all. Well, I’ll f**k your little a*s when I’ll wake up so good that you’ll never come back home. You’ll see, little monster….
Sleep, Viv…. Sleep…. You so need sleep right now and you are in a pleasant dream…. Little fucker is useful in some ways…. You don’t have nightmares to send you into insomnia again…. Enjoy this at least…. What a beautiful fall and landscape…. It’s kind of hot in here…. But it’s superb and the sky so clear…. Haven’t been in such a dream in so long…. Cute butterflies…. And those flowers…. Aww…. I feel happy in here…. I wish I would never wake up and stay here…. I miss mom and dad…. Marianne, too…. I need to go in the office and continue the research for their killers…. I have that duty for my parents and for Marianne…. I’m depressed again…. Hey, little Bambi! Aww…. You’re so tiny and adorable! And so silky…. Aww! He’s l*****g my hand…. What are you doing here, little one? Where’s your mommy? Here alone? So innocent eyes…. You want to play? Okay….
I continue to dream and feel at peace. All my bad mood and pain are lifted away, and I enjoy the little Bambi and the surrounding green forest with wild-flowers, the crystal clear fall which sends a relaxing music to my ears and it’s therapeutic for me…. The only disturbing thing all the time is that I feel hot.
I don’t know for how long I’ve slept, but I c***k an eye which gives me a blurred vision – not uncommon for me, it’s usually like this – and see it’s sunny outside, yet the bright light f***s my eye making me cringe and put my hand over my eyes, though they’re closed now.
“f*****g light…. I need some coffee…. Stevie…. Coffee…. Stop sleeping in my bed and go and make some coffee…. You’re the little one…. Move your a*s and make me some coffee….”
This little fucker considers he’s little again and can sleep in my bed and on me…. You’re so f*****g heavy, kid!
Of course, Davy kid is out of my mind and when I wake up, I perceive him as Stevie…. I’ve got a f****d mind when I wake up at mornings or whenever I wake up. When I have intense and b****y missions, all this gets worse and I sometimes wake up to not knowing where the f**k I am or who the f**k I am or what the f**k I have to do until I go back to my senses.
“STEVIE! YOU’RE f*****g 18! YOU’RE NOT TEN ANYMORE! WHAT THE f**k ARE YOU DOING IN MY BED AND HOLDING ME LIKE A f*****g TEDDY BEAR?! DO YOU HAVE A DEATH WISH OR SOMETHING?!”
I’m with my back at him and don’t want to turn around as for sure I would f*****g kill little bro. I don’t want that. I still love him all the way, but I’ll never allow him to act like this when he’s already a f*****g man. Not appropriate! He seems like a mammoth on me.
You grew this big only in three weeks?! They usually grow faster than girls…. I’m so f*****g hot and he doesn’t move off me! What time is it? It must be over noon from the sun….
“KID! GO! COFFEE! NOW! I need to go to the office and see if I find some new leads on mom and dad’s killer…. Just go and stop driving me crazy…. Don’t make me shoot you, Stevie…. You know I’ll do it….” I’m still with my eyes shut and a growl in my stomach and a suited pain there make me flinch….
Great…. Haven’t eaten yesterday…. The serums are out and I’m f*****g hungry now…. Way to go, Viv…. You should be a f*****g skinny b***h from how little you eat. Well, the serums do keep you alive and nourish your body…. Whatever…. Coffee. Shower. Food. Office. Yeah….
“It’s not Stevie, honey….” He’s kissing my neck and my eyes google awake hearing Davy’s husky voice.
My body has a disruption and when I turn around I do it with a hard slap, by instinct.
WHAT THE f**k?!
I now get in touch with reality and get that I’m in the little fucker’s room, in his house, and from a sweet, serene dream, I woke up in the living nightmare.
“What the f**k?! GET OUT! NOW! I’LL SHOOT YOUR LITTLE FUCKER a*s!” He’s laughing in his little fucker’s manner and I push him with my feet to get out of MY BED! “GET THE f**k OUT! MAN! I’LL KILL YOU!” His eyes are two sparkling stars to my f*****g annoyance and he’s on the bed with his right hand holding his side of the head, looking at me, and with his left hand he catches my right one as I storm a punch at his devilish face. When I want to use my legs again, he traps me with his left leg and he’s so f*****g heavy! I CAN’T STAND YOU! THIS IS WAR! I’LL FLAME YOU! YOU’LL GO TO HELL! SOON!
“You honey baby…. Come here….” He drags me to him while I’m screaming and tornado my escape from him to no avail. He’s got me strong on him and wants to kiss me!
WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! NO! LET GO!
“STOP! STOP WITH THIS NONSENSE! ENOUGH!” My right hand is on his face, pushing him and protecting myself from his filthy actions.
He’s amused and rolls over me while hell is unleashing through my veins.
Oh! You’re dead, kid!
His hands are now on my wrists and he’s having a mountain grip on me, with his complete body weight on top of me, smirk on his lips and burning stars in his eyes, studying my face.
“Even when you wake up you are crazy, honey…. Never without adrenaline and being feisty…. Hmm….” I want to scream at him, but I get it leaves him unfazed. I send my lunatic stare on my right wrist where he has his hand and go for a bite.
I’ll show you crazy! There! GET OFF ME!
“So, you do bite…. Little vampire…. Bite…. I like that….”
WHAT?!
I cut him with my stare now as I’m beyond crazy at this point.
“GET OFF ME! NOW!” I storm under him with all my might but he’s too f*****g heavy and I can’t move him even an inch off me.
OOOOHHHHH! YOU DRIVE ME SO CRAZY!
“Nope…. I want a kiss first…. Little vampire…. You can bite some more if you want…. I don’t mind….” He’s coming to kiss me with a turned-on stare while I freeze as I’m not wanting of that or of anything he does!
STEVIE!
“STEVIE! I’M HOME! GET THIS CRAZY LITTLE FUCKER OFF ME! DON’T BE AT SCHOOL! COME HERE! NOW! TAKE HIS a*s OFF ME! STEEEEEVIIIEEEE!” The motherfucker laughs to my face with his eyes closed. That much he’s enjoying my pain and disgust over him.
Why didn’t I take my g*n?! One bullet and he was so f****d per eternity! Best s*x session of his f****d life!
“Stevie is at school, baby. It’s 4:29 pm…. He comes home much later…. We’re the only people in the house. Well, and the staff…. But those don’t count…. Now. How about that kiss?” I bite his hand again and don’t let go.
YOU MONSTER! I’M A GREATER MONSTER! SEE FOR YOURSELF HOW CRAZY I AM!
While I bite him hard and storm under him, he’s laughing. He then goes to my left side of the neck, which is exposed, and he’s trailing kisses, going to my ear!
WHAT THE f**k ARE YOU DOING?!
“Do…your…thing…little vampire…. I’ll…do…mine….” You guys don’t want to know what kind of rage I possess inside of me right now. No f*****g one has ever touched me like this and I’m one to kill for less than this when it comes to my f*****g person.
“DAVY! WHAT THE f**k IS WRONG WITH YOU?! YOU AND ME?! NOT HAPPENING, KID! STOP DISGUSTING ME! I DON’T WANT THIS! ANY OF IT! NEVER! YOU JUST MAKE ME SICK! Get off. Right now. If you don’t, I’ll use the g*n on you all the way first thing you’re off me. Think very well your next moves as they’ll be your last, kid. I’m so f*****g crazy that I don’t care. Stop acting like a fucker. This person is off limits for you. Forever. Now. Get down and let me be on my own.”
All this time he’s looking at me and hoovering over my mouth.
If he kisses me, I’ll rip off his mouth and lips and whatever! He doesn’t get to do this to me! I’m f*****g RAVEN!
Do it and don’t be sorry after. I’m a nutcase. They’ve even put it on my file…. I get treatment for that and not even that helps me to stay sane all the way…. Not since Marianne died and now my parents. I’m a lost case on that… f**k! HE’S BURNING MY f*****g SKIN! WHAT THE f**k DID YOU HAVE TO BE SO f*****g HOT?! I’m suffocating and going crazy…. I can’t control….
“I’m crazy but sane. It’s already happening as we’re married, little vampire. You can use whatever…. I don’t care either…. Let’s see who’s crazier, baby….” He goes for my lips, but I scream again.
YOU’RE AN ANIMAL!
“I’LL USE MY TEETH TO DISFIGURE YOU! KISS ME AND SEE IF YOU’LL HAVE A TONGUE AND ALL! DO IT! DON’T SAY I HAVEN’T WARNED YOU! I’LL DO IT! TRY IT AND DON’T BE SORRY AFTER! I’M RABID RIGHT NOW! BECAUSE OF YOU!” He smirks and winks at me. He’s crazy, he’s going to do it.
WHY DIDN’T I SAVE 20 f*****g MILLION?! BECAUSE I’M CRAZY! AND ONE DEPRESSED b***h! THAT’S WHY!
“Bite, little vampire….” He kisses my chest on my heart area making me cringe. “I’m never sorry….” He’s on my neck again. I’m so losing it. This is not exciting me at all. I just want him dead. “I’m rabid, too….”
I’m cringing every time he stamps his lips on me and having in my mind scenes on how I would kill him. A lot of blood and t*****e are involved in those scenarios. Raven way. My grimace is also cringy and I’m storming to avoid but that’s not possible as I’m trapped under him.
“You’re mine and I have full right over my little vampire....”
I want to scream and retaliate but he finds the perfect moment for him to glue his lips on mine and thrusts his tongue in my mouth! You don’t want to know what kind of waves and shocks are penetrating my body! I’m dying in disgust and I would slit his throat! My heart is almost out of my chest and my breathing is having cuts as I’m fighting to get out of this, moving my head and my entire body. I don’t care he’s my husband! I won’t let him dirty me! I don’t want him! I’m not lying! I want no one!
WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?! OUT OF REVENGE?! WHY?! YOU DON’T WANT ME! I DON’T WANT YOU! REMEMBER?!
He deepens the kiss and grabs my left thigh moving between my legs while I continue storming and now slapping him with my left hand, trying to push him, pull his hair out and all. He doesn’t break the kiss and is so f*****g enjoying all this while I’m desperate!
I’ve bitten his lip and he doesn’t stop at all!
Are you a f*****g masochist?! STOP ALREADY! I’LL REALLY RIP OFF YOUR TONGUE! DON’T MAKE A REAL MONSTER OUT OF ME! I’M NOT ALL THERE!