Her Grimy Past

Chapter 1 - When Past and Present Collides

“Please don’t stop.” I moaned as he was kissing my neck down to my shoulder then down to my breast.

“I love you so much Amalise. If only I knew you before Athena, it wouldn’t be so hard for both of us.” He said between his kisses.

“I don’t care; we can f**k each other whenever we want to. I love playing hiding games. It makes me feel so thrilled.” I said as I pull him hard and grab his face so I could kiss him on the lips.

I can feel the ecstasy. I love it when he tastes like an Indian Summer. I love it when he’s touching my whole body.

“I love you so much, Amalise.”

“I love you to the moon and back, Josh.”

Everything was fine, until I saw her standing at the door. Her eyes full of angst and it shows death. She was crying.

“Athena”, the only words came out from my mouth as I looked at her. Then suddenly everything went black.

I opened my eyes.

My heart was beating faster as soon as I opened my eyes. I was lying in my bed alone sweating like crazy.

My dream felt so real. It was a scenario I couldn’t get out of my head. It was the exact incident that happened in the past. A past I’ve been trying to bury and forget.

It’s been a week already that I had the same dream. Same people, same scenario, and the same feeling.

As much as I wanted to go to a psychiatrist to seek help from what was happening to me, the thought of it already kills me. I don’t want to let anybody know my past life. I’ve been working hard to hide everything, to live a new life. I don’t want to destroy the life I’ve been living right now because of this f*****g dream that I had. I know I can handle this troublesome dream of mine.

I’ve been asking myself why? Why am I dreaming of those things? I’ve already moved on.

It was 3 A.M. and I was having a hard time going back to sleep.

I took my phone and checked my messages for updates when suddenly someone texted me.

It was from someone familiar.

“Do you think you can run away from me Amalise? I will find you wherever you are in this world, even if you’re in hell! I will find you and burn your soul! You b***h!”

There was only one person who knows me so much, and who wants me to die in an instant. My sister, Athena.

I know I was being a b***h by having s*x with her fiancé back then. I know it was wrong, but I had my reasons.

Joshua Carven, my sister’s fiancé and the man whom I gave my virginity with, was nowhere to be found. Athena thought that we were together, but actually we’re not. After that incident happened, I didn’t hear from him since then.

I am living alone right now. I was able to pick up myself again after my family disowned me, after they found out that I had s*x with my sister’s fiancé. It happened the night before their wedding day.

I know you will tell me I’m such a w***e and a f*****g b***h for doing that thing, worst to my sister. There’s no excuse, it was a sinful night. I deserved all the curse in the world. But, I did that thing because of her, because of Athena. She did something so ruinous and awful that she almost took my life. I know, she did it on purpose because of her jealousy.

Athena is 28 years old. I am 25 years old. We were not the best of sisters, but I love her. She had this huge jealousy of me thinking that mom and dad love me more than her, which was so wrong of her.

She thought that our parents were in favor of me more than her because whenever I had requests they always approved and agreed to it. Unlike her, our parents always said no to her requests, which is for me a normal thing for parents to say no if they think that it won’t do good for their daughter.

Athena grew up to be such an outgoing, trendy looking girl. She loves to hang out with her friends a lot and go to the bar oftentimes to get drunk, and hooked up with some other guys.

Well, I can say that I’m an extroverted kind of girl. Yes, I go to the bar sometimes with my friends not to get drunk, but just to chill out. I didn’t even try to hook up with some other random guys. I hated it.

That was one of the reasons why my sister hated me. She had been thinking that I was trying to win my parent’s hearts by being a goody-goody daughter. No matter how I explained to her, she always insists that she was right. She never listened to me even once.

My love for my sister was never a bogus thing. I’ve loved her with all my heart until she took someone from me. Someone who became my life. She knew he was my everything, and she knew it was the ending of my silence.

I didn’t realize in the middle of my reverie I was able to fall back asleep.

I woke up around 10 AM in the morning.

I took a bath and ate my breakfast, then prepared my things for the trip. Yes, I’ll be heading to Denver, Colorado.

After playing gigs every night in a certain restaurant here in San Jose, California, I saved all my money so I could travel and live peacefully.

I want to leave this place and have a new life. A new life wherein no one will know my past. All they should know is that I am Delancey Fauxfield, no more than that.

My family knew that I’m still here in San Jose even though I blocked all their numbers. However, Athena was just too good when it comes to hacking information, that’s why she was able to get hold of my number.

I could still remember that night. The look of my parents, their eyes showed disappointment and shock. I could also still remember Athena’s eyes that showed angst and to my surprise, showed a winning gazed.

I felt like she knew it was going to happen. She knew that time will come that I’ll break my silence and took that man from her. I felt like she sabotaged me. She knew I couldn’t just stand there and watched them getting married the next day. She knew everything, she knew from the very start.

I was at the airport waiting for my flight to Denver, Colorado. Finally, I could bid goodbye to this city. I swear to myself that I’ll leave all my past, my heartaches, and my old self to this place.

When I was about to aboard, someone stopped me.

“Excuse me, I think this is yours?”

When I looked at him, a handsome-tall guy was holding a picture. When I looked at the picture, it was our family picture.

I grabbed it immediately from him.

I don’t know why I had a feeling this guy was very familiar to me. It feels like I’ve met him before, I just couldn’t remember where and when.

When I was about to walk away, he talked again that made me stopped.

“You think I deserved at least a thank you, don’t you?” he said.

I turned at him looking nonchalantly.

“Thank you. Are we all good now?” I said coldly.

“Alright! That will do. Let’s go before the plane will leave us.” He said smiling.

The way this guy smiled can make all the good girls go bad. He had this kind of charisma that no one can’t resist. His smile could sway a lot of hearts.

As we were inside the airplane, when he was about to take his seat parallel to mine, he said something again that made my heart stopped.

“I think the universe already answered my prayers now. Nice to finally meet you again, Dolly Delancey.” After he said those words, he went to his seat.

I was left dumbfounded. Who is this guy? I know someone from before called me that name “Dolly” but I couldn’t figure out who. How on earth did he know my name?

I was feeling dizzy, and I felt like my heart was going to burst.

There’s only one thing on my mind right now, the shadow of my past are starting to crawl in me.

This guy, he knows me and he knows my past. It can't be ...