FOR BETTER FOR WORSE

CHAPTER TWO

I’ve never experienced true love. Ohhh, let me rephrase ……... true romantic love. I mean I’ve dated couple of guys but none gives me the butterfly, the desire the vulnerability that I crave.

I’m currently dating a guy Lucas, he’s charming, good looking and pretty decent. He’s two years older than I am. And he tries his best to satisfy me. We met at a family friend’s dinner party. Got introduced by our parents, I’d say we were matchmade. It’s a rich people thingy to do that anyways …….. shouldn’t be of great surprise to anyone.

He’s not my absolute type. I had things that made a guy more attractive to me and he lacks a lot of them but it is what it is.

On this day, Lucas and I had a date but it was a couple’s date with some of our other ‘Nepo’ couples whose parent most likely forced on each other.

We had Alex and Lucy, Logan and Olivia, Ben and Grace join us for the date.

Alex goes “Amy, I heard you both haven’t consummated your relationship, hmmmmm”

I was speechless for a while staring directly into Lucas’s soul because what the f**k?!

You know what? scratch that, our relationship private matter out there and your so-called friend having the effrontery to ask me some stupid ridiculous question.

No one had to tell him he had a lot of explanation to give. A whole LOT.

I could feel others glare at me in mockery or whatever it is running through their mind which I didn’t find comfortable and funny at the very least.

The awkward silence had to be broken and Olivia took the lead. Guys why don’t we give a toast to good life and lasting friendship group.

I don’t wanna be part of some stupid nonintellectual friendship group I said… it came out; probably was thinking out loud but I do mean every single word I said.

I stood up in anger and left to the car with my so- called boyfriend walking in silence behind me. We got to where the car was parked and he did his gentle man thing and opened the door for me …….... that’s bare minimum though. Doesn’t mean he doesn’t still have to explain the nonsense that happened a while back.

We drove in silence to my parent’s home. He didn’t say a word neither did I.

On getting to my house, he parked, released his seat belt and said “I don’t have any justifiable explanation to give.

What I did was messed up, I mean I find you really attractive and I want you so badly. Your words, stare, touch, smile turn me on so crazy that I can barely control myself when I’m around you.

And it was just inhouse male gist when I told Alex about you and I not having s*x yet. I had no idea he’d be so f*****g dumb to say it to you.

I’m sorry for the embarrassment.

I love you so much Amy and I will wait for you till you are ready. We don’t have to rush things.

Alright was all I could manage to say because trust me I was sooooo furious.

I opened the car door ready to leave the damn car… he held my hand and stretched his second hand to close the door, leaning up a bit and staring at me really up-close.

Whispered quietly in the hottest way he could “Baby, I said I love you” I looked a way and he gently held my chin to his face now bringing his hand down to my neck.

He held my neck softly leaning his mouth towards my ear still whispering sexily, using his second hand to restelax the chair backwards before bringing it to my thigh caressing it while his hand still on my neck….

Then he goes “not a single desire for me? Craving? I want to touch you, feel you, kiss you, do everything you’d ever imagine to you” then he started eating up my neck, hickey it is….

In that moment I was so turned on. I wanted him more than ever……. Not until the neck grip started getting harder almost turning to strangling ……it was now far from pleasure … I got turned off immediately. I tapped his hand in discomfort but he was not stopping.

Then, I raised my voice a little “Lucas you are hurting me” then he snapped out and sat properly on his seat apologizing “I’m so sorry” almost like he was unconscious of his action for a while.

I bid my goodnight and left his car I didn’t for once look back because I couldn’t process what just happened few minutes ago. A lot of questions running through my mind and I couldn’t give answers to any.