LUCIA
When I told Joshua that I did want to marry him , I never imagined that it would mean having to organize such a chaotic event , even when we tried to make it small and just invite our family and close friends , it still seems like this all turned into a mess , a huge snowball that keeps getting bigger and bigger every time , and more difficult to handle, I feel nervous and now because of what happened with my father this morning , I feel restless too , and every little noise makes me jump and put me on alert immediately.
I know Joshua is not having a better time and I hate to think that he is , this was supposed to be the best day of our lives , but things are turning out worse than we thought , and this is when I wish I had taken the suggestion that Joshua did to me a few we
