daddy or daddies

awkward much

I am in my bed. it is 3am and I still can't stop thinking about the lunch. the man. Aiden.

we did not talk much. we didn't talk at all. but we kept looking at each other. I tried to focus on meeting Jesse's friends tho.

I was constantly aware of Aiden looking at me. the crazy thing is no one else noticed Jess would have chewed my brains out if she had suspected anything!

at lunch I kept spilling food and drinks on myself. I was so embarrassed and Jess kept giving me whats-wrong-with-you-today

kinda look. I am fine! nothing is wrong with me!! it is the man! and Aiden didn't show any emotions so I don't know if he was crept out or not we said our good byes and I kept stumbling

over my heals while we were walking out. wtf had happened today? he caught me by my arm a couple of time's trying not to smirk

I swear I know how to walk in heals! I own f*****g fifty pairs of them! I am into fashion! I make a living out of it for crying out loud. my skin still kinda burns from where he had caught me.

Jess kept asking me what was wrong with me and I kept sulking and pouting because I did not know!! witch is another thing I don't do.

I have lived alone since I was thirteen. there was no one there to pamper me. I am not the kind of person who pouts or throws tantrums! I am a bad ass at work. I got things donen. I am independent.

after I got home I changed and made myself some coffee and sat in bed to read. I love reading. but I couldn't focus. so after a while I gave up.

since then I am on my bed with chocolates and ice cream. it's 3 am and I have work tomorrow.

I groan‚twisting in my bed. Aiden probably wasn't thinking about me. and here I am loosing sleep over some stranger.

I put a pillow over my face. and just tried to sleep for the hundredth time now!