ACCEPTANCE
941 Words
I look at Noah and realize that I do still love him but I am not ready for him to be in my life in that capacity. So, I decide to tell him how I felt.
Noah, I understand you thought you were doing what is right for me by breaking up with me. You thought you were being considerate of my feelings and our relationship when in reality you took away my right to a decision. If you had bothered to ask I could have told you that Duncan and I had made arrangments to go as friends to the big events if you couldn't come home for them or if he didn't have someone. You broke my heart leaving me in the airport the way that you did. You made me feel like nothing than to call me the next day and expect me to be fine. The only reason Tuppen answered my phone was that he was upset I was still crying so when he saw your face on the phone he just picked it up and told you off. As for Adam I never intended for anything to come of our friendship. It just seemed like everytime you either called, texted, or posted something or I thought it was you and I would break down Adam was there. He helped me heal. Like I said we haven't been really dating that long. We have had three dates he has tried to kiss me once and you are right I am not ready for that step in our relationship but Noah, I need to see where this goes. Adam doesn't make decisions that affect me and our relationship without talking to me. That is what you did wrong and then to have that b***h go out of her way to make me feel like I was the one at fault. I never want to hurt you. I meant what I said. Let's get our family back together first and I will continue where I am and if it doesn't work out with Adam I might be ready to give us a try again.
Noah looks at me and says "that seems fair. and I promise you, Shelly, I will make sure she never contacts you again." "thank you Noah" I get up to leave and when I go to walk past him he grabs me and pulls me into his arms "Shelly I love you" I look up at him and say "I love you too Noah" All of a sudden the door opens and Sally walks in and slaps me yelling "don't lie to him you don't love him your nothing but a manipulative bitch." at that point Noah storms across the room and slams his fist into the wall He turns and says "Sally get out of my house and don't ever speak to me again. I told you this is between Elle and me I f****d up not her. If I lose her completely that is on me." I walk to him and all of a sudden Adam has me in his arms and says "don't little lady" I look at him and smile "don't worry Adam Noah, won't hurt me he would rather die that physically hurt me" I walk up to him and place my hand on his arm and say "Noah look at me, Noah look at me" he shakes his head I lose my temper and say "damn it Noah look at me please" He does and I say "ok now breath for me nice and slow that's it" He looks down hugs me and says "thanks Shelly" I look up at him and say "Noah, you are still a part of my family and I love you" "same here Shelly at least I will have that. I thought I had even thrown that away" I smile and say "never we promised each other that and Lee that when we started seeing each other we would not let us affect the family." He walks away and goes to his room.
Adam asks Lee if he could talk to me alone and Lee get's up and leaves. Adam looks at me and asks "Little Lady do you want to start seeing him again." I walk up to him and wrap my arms around his shoulders and say "no, Adam I am finally whole again. I want to give us a shot." I give him a quick peck on the lips he pulls me close and I can tell what he wants and I gently push away and say "Not here Adam. I won't disrespect him or the family like that. Plus the idea of our first kiss being in my ex-boyfriend's house is a little disturbing." He smiles and says "I understand little lady plus I think I would rather it be because of a sweet moment and not because I am worried I am going to lose you." We went outside and hung out with our friends but Sally had to have one last say and she didn't know that Noah was right behind her. "you may have won this round b***h but chew on this I convinced him that you needed to live your senior year to the fullest so I can have my shot. Now with this prick even though he is mad at me I will have my shot and I am not some nieve little girl that can't keep a man I am experienced." all of a sudden Noah said "well not experienced enough to understand I don't want you and now with this information you lose."
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