Call to the Wild

A New Purpose

I was given the room right next to the Alpha Dylan’s. He still had strong feelings for me, but I just wasn’t sure what or how I felt now. I kept trying to convince myself this was for the better, after all an Alpha needed a strong and self reliant Luna. Not someone like me, I felt like someone was always taking care of me. No matter how hard I tried to be independent, I found myself relying on the good intentions of a friend.

“Good morning, Luna.” Called an unfamiliar young man, who was cooking breakfast.

“You don’t need to call me that. I’m not even sure if I am — your Luna..” My voice trailed off into a whisper..

I hated feeing so dumb, so weak, why couldn’t I shake this dark cloud?

“If Alpha says your our Luna, then you ARE our Luna.” He stated dryly.

Was he angry or.. I wasn’t sure if he was showing me kindness or annoyance.. His face was nearly expressionless. He was tall, built like an alpha, and had a youthful look to him; but he seemed older somehow too.

“What’s your name?” I asked shyly. I knew I was blushing a little, feeling odd for needing to ask. I felt like a child, so much was different, not that I’d really known anyone before either.

“I am Gamma Reed. I train our warriors.” He replied without turning around to face me, he was busy flipping several eggs in a large iron skillet.

“And you cook.” I pointed out, trying to make conversation. He was the first person I’d truly sat down and talked to other than Dylan.

“Times have changed, normally the omegas would have taken care of the cooking and cleaning but now they train with our warriors.” He explained as he dumped a few juicy eggs onto a platter.

He saw him grin as my eyes washed over the meal he’d just made. He’d cooked a large plate of eggs, a fresh batch of biscuits, and several large venison steaks.

“I would be honored to make you whatever you would like?” His blue eyes were soft and his offer seemed sincere.

So maybe everyone didn’t hate me, I thought to everyone would hate my guts.

“These are for the Alpha and Beta or I’d let you take it all.” He said after I didn’t reply.

“Oh no, I’m fine. I just was relieved that well — not everyone wishes I didn’t just show back up. I’m getting lost in my thoughts.” I whispered the last bit to myself..

“They will come around, the last few years have been hard on a lot of people.” He picked up the large silver platters and carried them out of the room without even the hint of effort.

I decided to make myself some french toast. The eggs Gamma Reed had prepared were fresh in my mind, yet pancakes were calling me, so this was the compromise between my head and my tummy.

After I was done cooking I carried it all on a tray back to my room. I thought about eating in the dinning room but no one else seemed to be here. It was too strange to sit at that huge dining table alone. Of course they might not want to be around me and that I understood.

“Luna let me help you with that!” Called Reed as he watched me making my way up the staircase.

“I’ve got it!” I called back.

He was just walking out of the Alphas office as I wobbly made my way up the stairs. He rushed to my side and relieved me of the heavy tray.

“Thanks.” I said embarrassed. “How come there’s no one else in the pack house?”

Reed carried the tray easily as if there was no weight to it at all. He swooped into the bedroom and sat the tray on a desk near a window.

“Everyone wakes up extra early to train, they come in to eat afterwards.”

He was pointing out the window as I stepped next to him. There was about a dozen werewolves training in the yard, they were all different ages and genders. Not at all like they had trained before. Usually the men trained with the men and the woman like so..

“Ohh.” That’s all I could think to respond, this place truly was so different. There were so few of them now. That was my fault of course.

“The Alpha would like to see you as soon as you are done eating. He said to just walk in when you’re done.” The Gamma bowed just slightly then walked out of the room.

I almost couldn’t eat thinking about talking to the Alpha- Dylan again. Each time was more and more awkward. There used to be this pull that made me trust his every word no matter how unsure I had felt, but now that tie was severed.

I began to eat my food slowly, I chewed each bite twice as long as I needed to. It was delicious, but my head was buzzing with guilt over this whole situation. It felt like everywhere I went, I left damage of some kind.

Knock! Knock!

The bedroom door opened just as I chewed my last bite of toast. I’d smothered my plate with syrup and powdered sugar just the way I’d seen in a magazine once. I was satisfied and had forgotten all my worries for just a second.

“There you are.” Said Dylan as if surprised I was still in my room. “It had been so long since Reed told me you were having breakfast, I thought maybe you’d taken off.” He chuckled, but he still seemed a little sad.

“Sorry, I just got distracted by my meal.” I replied standing up from the desk.

“I was worried you’d try to avoid me.” He said looking somber again.

He sat down on the edge of her bed. His scars made my eyes tear up, a reminder of what I’d done to him would always be there, even now, thirteen years later.

“Yeah, I thought about it.” I laughed nervously. It wasn’t a lie either.

“I know you want to help and we have a way you could help out the pack, I don’t know how you will react so please just hear me- hear us out.” He seemed torn about what he was gonna say. Was he going to send me away? Did the pack challenge him and ask him to kick me out?