I stood there froze, as I could not avoid the scrutinizing eyes of Lance, or even dare to turn around and face Ryan in Lance's presence. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, then turned around to see the charming smile of Ryan with a hint of sadness. His gaze made me feel guilty again. I don't deserve his love now. I know that. Before I could think or say anything, I was taken into a warm hug. I could feel him taking deep breaths as if to control his emotions.
"Muffins... I missed you so much..." he whispered into my ear in such a soothing tone that I wanted to put all my guilt away and become his again.
But all I managed to do was mutter his name.
"Ryan..."
He break the hug and looked at me affectionately.
"Baby I know something is disturbing happened...something you are not wil
