I wrapped my arms around Thomas’ neck, pulling him closer and feeling even more of him, I knew he was dead but he just felt so real.
I don’t know why but just for a second Eddie popped into my thoughts, my arms around his neck as he kissed me with so much passion and intent.
I slowly pulled away from Thomas hating myself, looking down I said, “I think you should go, I need to think about everything.”
After a pause, “ok, bye Jj.” And I knew I had hurt his feeling, but when I looked up he had already vanished.
Laying on my bed and curling into a ball, I cried, I was in pain and I was hurting everyone around me, I needed to stop.
I just needed everything to stop for a bit, I needed to think and feel everything so I could sort everything out and not be so broken anymore. I just didn’t th
