Gangs

Chapter eleven

He helps me up and then swings me onto his back, I wince and lay my head on his shoulder slowly letting my eyes close.

Lina, come open your eyes please

            I slowly open my eyes; Shelby grabs my arm healing me. Then Atom pulls me back up into his arms

Did you hurt her? ima kill you

No Shelby, its fine

Oh, good I thought I was gonna must try and punch him even though I’ve never hit anyone in my life

you would have done so amazing

Thanks, L’z

Anytime

Hey, I’ll go and stay with Macy you two can uh have the room 

Thanks, Shelb, I love you

I know I love ya too

What did he do to you?

Nothing

     Atoms arms wrap around me again and our mouths meet. He lifts me up and my backs against the wall, then we move to my twin size bed. He slides my shirt off and kisses down my chest to my shorts, I slide his shirt off and tangle my hands in his hair pulling him closer. I hand are so soft against my skin and his skin pressed to mine feels perfect.  Our bodies are perfect, we fit together so right. I trace his abbs with my fingers. He slides my shorts off, and I unbuckle his belt letting his pants slide to the floor.  He laughs against me stomach which tickles me, I push him up laughing. He laughs harder and kisses me again. his hand slides down my body to right below my ass. He rolls us over so i'm on top straddling him, his hand moves up holding my ass now. I smile against him mouth and he laughs again.

Does this make you happy?

No better feeling

Even though we have not had s*x

Why are you bent on s*x Lina?

I do not know, because you have done it, do not you want it

of course, I want it, I cannot even imagine what it’s going to feel like.  But I don't want it until you do

I do not understand

I know it will be special for me, but I want it to be special for you. Not something that will make you feel uncomfortable about or after we do it.

Why do you care about me so much?

I love you, and I do not want you to do anything you are not ready for

I killed four people today

What?

Do you hate me?

No of course not, how is your mind coping

I have not let sink in

Who made you?

Jt pulled my finger on the trigger the first time

He pushed your finger

Yes

It was not free will

The first time

            Atom, takes a deep breath and rubs his head

He should not have done that, he pushed you into it

He had to or I would not have done it

Did you have to do it or could he have

He could’ve at the beginning but not at the end

Did you shoot all four?

No, just the first two

Last too

I threw a knife into their necks

I am sorry, he should not have done that it was not fair

He said it gets easier, does it?

It gets easier physically, you just start to do it from habit but not mentally, easier to deal with but will still hurt

I knew him

What?

I knew him, he was my dad’s best friend, he uses to babysit me and Brandon all the time

JT pulled your finger on that one

YA

My God Lina i'm so sorry

Its life right

should not have to be, but here yes. Logically he did you a favor

I know

It still pisses me off though

what was it like?

What?

Having s*x

            We are laying down together now, his arms wrapped around me and his hand rubbing my arm. He sighs

I was in a daze through most of that time, it does not compare to kissing you though

Whatever

No, it does not, this feels so much better.

What if you do not feel anything when we do it

Do not worry about that, trust me I know it will be good

But you are so cautious about doing it, are you scared?

No, Lina I swear to you I want to do it. I want to do it dang bad actually and every time you kiss me i'm worried about going past your limit.

I would let you do anything

I know and thats why I worry about it,

What if Mason beats you?

I am top rank he is number 3

But you have not been focused

It’s because when we fight i'm focused on you

Sorry

Stand back tomorrow alright

No

Lina, please, ill focus more with you out of the fight

Okay

Ima asks someone to stay back with you alright. I want you to listen to him

Okay

Thank you, if Mason beats me, he is going to take you out of the base, and you're are to stay with him until I come get you

No, I will not leave you

He will drag you out Lina or he will knock you out and carry you out

Thats not fair, what if Mason hurts you more

What if Mason f***s you?

you're scared you are going to lose

No, i'm just being cautious

            I shake my head and take a deep breath

What if he does?

Fucks you?

YA

I don't even want to think about its Lina

But you are scared

“Lina if he touches you, I want you to stall, an then I want you to fight him with all you got” I feel myself start to shake, I don't want him too. I want it to be Atom, not him, i'm not even ready for that yet. I do not want Atom to get hurt. “You’re scared, stop shaking, i'm right here”

Sorry

What scares you the most about tomorrow?

Leaving you

I’ll tell him not to leave okay Lina? what else?

okay, I do not want him to r**e me

Well, we could just get it over with, so you are not a virgin

            I slap him, I guess but again idk if I wanna do it yet, but I kind of wanna do it with him but I do not know.

You would not if I asked you too

Not till I know you are ready

I’d rather it be you though

I am not going to let him Lina, do not worry about it

Is your dad going to be mad?

About me not beating you up yes, I’ll pay for it in the morning. But about this no

Atom

No, it’s okay, I’d rather me then you

Thats why you are worried about winning

Ya lil bit

Get some sleep

No, kiss me

Try and make me nervous

Alright, but ima not be so nice this time

Whatever

i'm kidding

I knew it

Come one we have like ten min.

He pulls me back on top of him, I lean in and kiss him. His hand slides down my body, it feels so good. His hand fiddles with my bra strap, I slide my hand up and unbuckle it. he hesitates then slides it off. At first, I feel nervous but just lay back down against him and feel fine. he rolls us back over and kisses down my chest to thighs, I pull him closer to me as he does it, He comes back up kissing my chest again before reaching my mouth. A knock on the door makes me tense, Atom ignores it and slides his hand for my neck down to my panties and stops there. I know he will not go any farther even if I instigate it. I slide my hand over his and he laces his fingers in mine. I smile, he is so perfect, and it feels so right. He slowly pulls up, sliding the blanket over me and moving to see who keeps knocking.

Shit, it’s my dad

He just comes back and lays back down. He slides my bra back on and my shirt before he kisses me. I look at him question but do not wanna ask

He will just come in and I’d rather you be mostly dressed when he does

Atom, go

no, I wanna be happy a few more min.

His mouth meets mine again, I pull him into me holding him close. I do not want him to get hurt. The door opens and Atoms ripped up. I gasp as his dad punches him. Damon does not even seem to notice me as he starts beating him up

Stop, please

Lina, go please

No, she can stay and enjoy

Damon let her go please

No