HIDING BEHIND THE SHADOWS

Chapter 15 - The Letter

After Dinner, I finally decided to open the letter.  I sat on the couch with Dewey sleeping beside me. 

Hey Aaron,

I was waiting for you to come back here at the cottage. Or maybe you came back while I was at the hospital.  Yes I had an accident that night Emma was trying to sell me to that bastards.  But please don’t be angry with her. She promised me she will change her life and stop ruining other peoples’ lives.

I have found a new family, they were good and they promised to take care of me.  They will bring me to the states and start a new life with them and their son.  I love you Aaron and my heart never did stop loving you.  But after what happened, I am not sure yet if there is still a future in us. Let’s try to find happiness somewhere else but If fate would give is a chance to see each other again, I would still live to choose what my heart desires.

I love you so much,

Jessie

A tear fall down my cheeks after reading the letter, Jessie was right.  I promised her I will be back on her 18th birthday, she was here to waiting for me.  If only I was able to come back that day, maybe I would not lose her.  Mom had a nervous breakdown and was rushed to the hospital I had no choice but to be with her.  Dad was on a business trip.

I sat on the couch silently thinking to myself what could possibly happen now.  Jessie was no longer here and will never be coming back.  She’s too far away now and the chance for her to come back is very slim.  My heart was broken into pieces. I could not help blaming myself for what I did to her.  I did make her wait, the end hurts more than I expect things to turn out.  All my hopes were gone now.  Jessie is not coming back… now I can’t hold back the tears.  I can’t blame her, I wasn’t there with her when she needed me most. I heard my phone buzzing but I have intention of answering the call. It just hurt too much to lose the one person you love not knowing where to find her.  I reached for the wine cabinet beside the couch Dad had stock up and found a few bottles of red wine. Just what I needed to drain my sorrow.  I opened  it and starts to gulp the bottle and read the Jessie’s letter in my hand again and again till I can’t take it anymore. 

The next morning my head is pounding so hard I felt my body to weak to move.  I asked myself what would happen to my life now, after all these years. Mom told me I have to be ready for the future and when everything is secured I can go back to Sta. Barbara to find Jessie. Why did I listen to Mom? She did all this, did she know already that Jessie is gone? I have so many questions my mind could not handle. I did open another bottle and another and another…

“Aaron?... Mr Wesley…” I was awaken by the knock on the front door calling my name again and again.

My head still hurts and I tried to stand up but I fall back again to the couch. With a loud thudding sound, I heard Dewey is whining and scratching the foot of the door.  He come to me and lick my face but I have not strength to stand up.

“Mr. Aaron Wesley?” I heard the woman’s voice again “I’m sorry, if you heard me I have to break this door to check on you. Please make a sound to inform me that you are fine in there… I heard your dog sir please…” I tried to make a sound but I can’t hear my voice. I heard her counting numbers then she stay silent for a while and then I heard a loud bang and I everything went black again.