The Limitless Alpha

Letting Go

Shanna POV

After the Alpha meeting concerning the upcoming moonlight mating ceremony Alpha Scott invited me to his pack for their weekend BBQ. He also mentioned maybe I could look at the new security program now that they fully have it up and running. I won’t say I am not attracted to Scott he is definitely on another level of hot but something keeps me from moving past friendship. Maybe it’s because I have never been in a serious relationship or the fact that he may not be my mate. I don’t want to build on something to only be heart broken in the end. After my mother passed away I have kept my walls up. Scott is slowing pulling the walls down which is scary knowing he has a past with women but then again my mind wanders to a dark haired and clear gray eyed hottie.

Yes I can’t even believe I am thinking of Alpha David. That cocky asshole who thinks so highly of himself. Man he gets my blood boiling. Yet I wonder what he lips would taste like; but I refuse to be one of his many women. I know my worth and he doesn’t deserve my attention. I know I will have to see him for the warrior tournament. I still owe him that date which I am sure he is going to be calling for it soon.

“OOO he is yummy to think about tho” Lila chirps

“Don’t even think about it Lila. David is totally off limits and so is his wolf. Besides goddess only knows how many women they have been with.” I reply.

“Hey on the bright side they probably know where to scratch that itch we have.” Lila purrs.

“You really are a horndog Lila. You know that?” I shot back.

“Hey I have needs ya know. If it was up to you we would die virgins. So I say we kiss a few beasts to find out prefect prince.” Lila yelps out.

Lila does have a point. I have never really had a deep connection with a man before. Not enough to give away my virginity. Plus I had better things to think about like being the best Alpha to my pack. I will be taking my place soon and my father plans to step down. I have no time to be thinking about rolling around in the sheets with men. Specially hot ones that mostly likely want to sleep with me to brag to their friends.

“Lila we both know how Scott and David are. They both have reputations with women; and let’s just say they aren’t known for being one women men. I won’t be another conquest to them. Plus I can’t stand David’s father. Scott has a better chance of winning me over then David. I won’t let them do the using and abusing with us Lila” I huff out.

“I say we do the using and abusing then. O come on Shanna you know you have been dreaming of Scott and David. I say we have a little taste of both. Then decide which one we like better. What to do say?” Lila barks out.

“Ya we are not doing that Lila. Who knows the drama that would bring. Sleeping with two Alpha males may not end well. Plus I want to find what my mother and father had. That deep bond and never ending love.” I whisper out.

Thinking of how much my mother and father loved each other brings fresh tears to my eyes. Knowing there is a chance I will never have what they did. Not everyone finds there true mates. I am not looking for mine yet; but maybe I am just scared that if I do I would lose them. Just like my how my father lost my mother.

“You need to stop with the what if’s Shanna.” Lila finally getting serious. “I know you are scared of what the future holds but we are special. We were not meant to be ruled by men. We are stronger and are meant to lead. Soon you will see Shanna.” Lila says.

“What do you mean Lila? What are you not telling me?” I reply.

“What I am saying Shanna is that you need to enjoy your life now. Things are coming I can feel it. We will be tested and the sooner you start trusting me we can grow to our full potential.” Lila replies.

“You are right Lila. I will start by saying yes to Scott’s invitation to the BBQ this weekend.” I sigh

It will be nice to have a break. All we have been doing is training for the warrior tournament and planning the moonlight ceremony. I can at least try to have a bit of fun. Plus I really do enjoy Scott’s company. He is funny, handsome and a gentleman. So I took out my phone shooting him a text that I would be there Friday morning to stay the weekend at his pack. I also let him know I would be taking my childhood friends Gemma, Luke and beta Vince. So here is to new Shanna one that will go with the flow and finally let her wild side out. Lila couldn’t stop jumping in my head.

“This is going to be fun!” Lila Chirps.

“Let’s just hope I don’t live to regret my decision.” I reply.

Scott POV

***Two days later***

I couldn’t be happier. Shanna texted me agreeing to come visit my pack. I was over the moon with excitement. I want this weekend to be perfect. Peter won’t spot yapping all morning knowing she will be here soon. I made sure to have a pack meeting yesterday letting everyone know we had a special guest staying with us for the weekend. Everyone seems super curious as to who the special guest was.

I made sure to have a suite made up next to my room on the Alpha floor. I know it is a bold jester but I am hoping this weekend I can finally express my feelings for her. Shanna let me know her friends Gemma, Luke and beta Vince we be accompanying her. So I had their rooms on the other side of the Alpha floor. Far away for us to have privacy but still close enough that they can visit her room easily.

I am expecting Shanna’s arrival in about another hour. I was trying to finish some pack business so I can give all my attention to our guests when I hear a knock on my door. Not looking up from my paperwork I called whoever was at my door to come in.

“Alpha… This is where you have been hiding?” Amy’s voice pulls my head up from my work.

“Amy, How can I help you?” I reply.

Knowing this has to be a personal visit. I have known Amy since I was a pup. Chance and Amy are my close friends. We all grew up together and a couple of years ago Amy and I had a brief relationship. Nothing serious. I had needs and my reputation as a ladies man had started to way heavy on me. Knowing one day I wanted Shanna as my mate I knew I needed to clean up my act. So I made an agreement with Amy and it was great for awhile until she wanted more and I had to cut her off.

I never wanted to hurt her. She was a close friend. Yet I did break her heart in the end. I did tell Amy about Shanna before we even started our relationship. I thought if she knew about her she would understand our relationship was only about s*x and friendship. I never planned on having a serious relationship with her and she knew that. After I broke things off with Amy she left for a year doing her healers training and came back about six months ago. I hoped she would find someone while she was gone; but she came back thinking I might have changed my mind about us. Little did she know that my thoughts were only ever about Shanna. Nothing would change that.

“Scott you have been avoiding me? I just don’t understand why. I have missed you Scott; but I guess the feeling is not mutual.” She replied.

What was I supposed to say. Amy knew I loved her but not like Shanna. She will always mean a lot to me. I just don’t know how to tell her without breaking her heart all over again. Chance had warned me that it was a bad idea to hook up with Amy. He was the one that told me Amy had always had a crush on me since we were pups. I secretly knew as well. Chance considered her like a sister. So when Amy’s and my relationship blew up in my face he made sure to stay neutral.

“Amy you know that’s not true. You are like family to me. I will always miss you. You know I have been busy. I am not avoiding you.” I say in a low tone.

“So is that what you call me now Scott…..Family? I don’t think family members become lovers.” Amy’s words were like a slap in the face. I knew she was right. I should have never crossed that line with her. Now she is hurt and I caused that. I knew I f****d up and wanted us to fix our friendship.

“I know you are hurt Amy. I want us to be friends again like the old times. I never wanted to hurt you. You knew I loved another. Please can we move past this. I know you will find someone better then me. I don’t deserve you.” I try hard to smooth out this conversation hoping she will understand.

“Is this still about that women Scott? How do you know she will be with you. Specially after all the women you have been with. You know what Scott she can have you! She can have my sloppy seconds!!”Amy’s angry words took me by surprise. Before I could reply she storms out of my office slamming the door behind her leaving me speechless.

Great I will need to fix things with Amy. She still meant a lot to me and I don’t want to throw away our friendship. I was about to go after her when I get a mind link from the warriors at the gate that Shanna was on her way to the pack house. Amy would have to wait for now. I grab my phone and start heading down the stairs. This weekend has to be prefect. Soon Shanna will be mine and I will be the happiest person alive.

David POV

I have been hearing through spies that Shanna and Alpha Scott have been spending a lot of time together. Knowing this has been making me restless. Leo is not helping with this situation he won’t spot pacing in my mind. He keeps telling me not to sleep with so many women. Yet I can’t help myself I need to relieve myself. The only thing that seems to help is imagining Shanna’s naked body underneath me. My c**k deep inside her well I bring her to pure ecstasy. She is all I can think about. I have never had a women consume me like this. I haven’t even slept with her and yet she consumes all my thoughts. I need to have her. It is not even a question I will have her. I will have her screaming my name out of those beautiful lips of hers. Once I do she will be our of my system and I can move on. She could never be mine fully but just to taste her would be enough.

“She is more then that dip s**t!” Leo barks out.

“You know what Leo I am sick of your s**t. Ever since Shanna you have been a pain in my ass!” I snap back.

“She is something special David and you are going to f**k this up for us! You need to keep your d**k in your pants. What if she our mate? She won’t forgive us for what you have done.” Leo growls back.

“Look like I said even if she is our mate it will never work. I would reject her! You know this Leo. Stop pushing me. I won’t lose my pack for her! Do you understand!!” I snarl back.

My mother has given up to much for me. I will not allow Shanna to ruin my plans. If she is my mate I would reject her and take a chosen mate. I won’t lose the pack. I know I will make a better Alpha then my father. I will bring real honor to my pack. It is time to look forward to the future and I know it is bright with my leadership. I will keep my promise to Shanna and allow the women to train. I also keep my promises. Shanna would be a weakness and I know once I f**k her and get her out of my system things will go back to normal. I will be able to move on.

“If she is our true mate and you reject her David you will regret it. We can find another way. Just think about it before you f**k it up for both of us. Because if you make me lose out on my true mate I promise you I will make your life a living s**t show.” Leo voice truth.

I know if Shanna is our mate and we reject her Leo would never forgive me. Once again I am in charge and in the end it my choice. The warrior tournament is in less then two weeks and the moonlight ceremony right after. Things are moving quickly and I will be around her soon. Our warriors have been training non stop with Lance, Nathan and myself. I will make my father proud and win the tournament. I just want Nathan to stay out of my way. Nathan the prefect golden boy never doing wrong. I will show my father who is the better son when I win and bring home glory. Less then two weeks and it will all be mine.

****Hey everyone. So I have been having publishing issues with the Dreame app. For over a week it would not allow me to post chapters. It kept saying problem with network connection. It even deleted several chapters. ****

****After talking with other authors who experience the same issues I have adjusted and hopefully the issue does not continue. With that being said the next coming chapters will be sparking some drama. Let’s see how well Shanna does with this new found freedom she is giving herself. Will she live to regret it? ****