Dreaming, just keep dreaming.

Chapter 4

I’d woke up by the ring weird alarm tone of my phone, today was when I was going to the supermarket trying to meet Angela again, I looked up for my ‘’wallet’’ who’s my phone case.

-I surely have more money on my single drawer of clothes…-I’ve gone rapidly to search some for.-Thanks God…-I found a fifty-dollars bill below a pair of socks.-Am I luck-Ty today?-Damn I was having shame of myself, I woke up too early and I was happy because I’ll sure see Angela that day.

I took a shower, haven’t ate because I was not hungry yet, I brushed my teeth around dos times, when I just woke up, and before go out of home, I took another shower, but this time in scent… not in sausage scent like she said last Friday, I wore the clothes last night I’ve prepared.

I was ready… ok not at all, I was forgetting the fifty-dollars bill I found early in the morning, but I was about to leave the department when I realized it.-Luck-Ty is not going to be alive just a few minutes.-I returned to my room an put that bill on my ‘’in-phone case wallet’’.

Mr Larson shouldn't be there, he was never there, besides he wasn't going to hurt anyone, I was sure I didn't hurt anyone, besides he wasn't going for Mrs Larson, I would be there for Angela.

I arrived at the mall, there were a lot of people, it was normal, it was the biggest mall in the city and the one that had the most stores inside, besides in two days it was Christmas Eve, and in three Christmases, so everybody was shopping, I became worried about the amount of people there.

I was undecided, I did not know if entering the supermarket and get where she, able to get there hindered their work and there if sure there would be a problem, because Mrs. Larson would realize that I am hindering the work of one of its employees and if she knew, her husband would get to know and now if sure there would be problems.

-Hello, excuse me, good morning...-A lady came over, I was worried about my things

I was scared because there was a little boy pulling my pants, he had a gift package in his arms, his mother, who was the lady who just greeted me, had bought him a Christmas present.

-I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you.

-Don't worry, tell me how can I help you?

-I'm sorry, do you happen to know where I can find the food court? It's my first time in this mall, my son wanted to come.

-Of course, you see...

I started to give some indications to the lady, apparently she didn't speak English well either, so I had to speak slower so that she could understand me well, I took a little while to explain to her, but apparently she understood me and left?

When I paid attention to the supermarket again, I realized that it was almost closed, I didn't believe it, the lady threw me off my mission.

-s**t, what if Angela came out just as the lady distracted me...? -I said in my head.

I couldn't waste any time so I decided to go into the supermarket, besides, it was about to close and the security guards wouldn't let any more people in.

I decided to go in, I didn't care about Mr. Larson, I wanted to see Angela and I was going to do it yes or yes.

-Good morning, excuse me, my father said that if I didn't leave the supermarket quickly, I would go in to help him in case he had any difficulties... I went to one of the guards because they wouldn't let me go in to look for one of the employees there without knowing his last name, and I barely knew that his name was Angela.

-Okay, kid, if you don't go out with your dad, we'll get you and take you to the supervisor.

-You don't... you don't have to worry.

I entered the supermarket, I ran past and checked each of the boxes but there were too many people and I couldn't make out anyone, I went from start to finish, from end to start and I couldn't find Angela, there were two empty boxes, number two and number fifteen, the two being the one where Mom worked... that stopped me a little, I stopped running, because now I was starting to think about mom, but it wasn't time to get depressed so I turned around several times in both directions, it couldn't be that the only one missing there was Angela in box fifteen, this time the guards started to look weird, I tried to ignore them a little, again I walked around and... Luck-Ty appeared, I saw Angela.

-I found you," I said, although perhaps she didn't hear me because I was far away and barely whispered. I was getting closer to her until she started signaling me with her eyes, then with her fingers she started telling me not to go there, I was foolish, I went and...

-Tyler.

-Mr Larson... (What the hell is he doing here?!)

-I think I remember telling you to stay away from my supermarket.

Mr Larson was approaching me, apparently he was helping Angela with something on her computer. s**t, s**t, s**t! Mr Larson is a dark, sturdy and quite tall man, he directed his hand towards me... I put my arm back, Mr Larson looked quite angry at what I had just done.

-Damn it Tyler get ready to run and put the pain in his legs aside.

-Tyler, come here right now!

Shit Mr Larson was angry, I started to back away and he started to come towards me, he grabbed me by the sack...

-Damn Mr Larson...

While Mr. Larson grabbed me from the bag, I skillfully took the bag off, I fell, so as not to fall so badly I decided to put my arms, my right arm was not fully recovered, I got up quickly and went back to look behind me, Mr. Larson was chasing me, I ran with what I could and managed to escape from the guards at the entrance, they were following me too, but thank God there were many people walking around the mall.

…

I was able to escape.

This Tuesday is really helping...

I didn't leave the mall, I was still there, I was hungry and wanted to go and eat something, I walked through the long corridors that were in the mall, I didn't feel like eating, but I was hungry, no restaurant attracted me, until I got to one where I heard classical music, someone was playing the violin, mom used to tell me that listening to classical music was good for relieving the soul, so I felt it was a sign that I should eat there.

I went into the restaurant, I wanted to go to a nearby table where they were playing the violin.

-Good afternoon, you are welcome," said the man who was receiving the people who were entering the restaurant.

It was already midday and I didn't notice.

-Here is your menu, one of our waiters will be happy to serve you in a couple of minutes, once you have decided on something to eat.

-Thank you very much...

I was looking for a place to sit, all the time I was looking for a place to sit I stopped playing the violin, I found a good place, there were not many people near my table and besides it was close to where the music was coming from. As soon as I sat down the music started again, I looked up, I couldn't believe who was sitting on the bench playing the violin...

-What are you doing here...?

The waiter came and blocked my view, I had not decided yet, but the gentleman began to recommend dishes, I just wanted something cheap, I did not want to spend all the money, I chose something cheap because everything was expensive, I asked for a pasta and I asked for a milkshake to drink. The waiter left, I saw the violin player again, he was the guy I saw crossing the street and he smiled at me the previous day, it was a coincidence to find him there...

He played for a few minutes his violin, I began to doubt if he was a man or a woman, he had a small hole in his ear and besides he had female features on his face, thin face, small and thin nose, features which made me sure he was a woman, but then I saw his hair, it was short, yes, but not all men wear their hair short, also he had long eyelashes, I could see them just because he had three lights pointing towards him on stage, two on the sides and one on top of him.

-Yes, it must be a woman, I like the way she dresses even though it's cold... -I thought about my head, she had a long shirt and some pants that reached before her ankles, she seemed not to be cold at all because she was wearing short socks and her shoes were made of fabric, and she did shine on stage, literally, her skin was too white and on top of that the lights that illuminated her made her seem to shine. I stopped thinking about it, now I was upset because my food was not coming and now I was really hungry and wanted to eat because the restaurant smelled too good and it whetted my appetite.

I waited and waited... I raised my hand to call one of the employees, he saw me and realized that I didn't have any food, he ran to the kitchen, I waited and waited, my food still didn't arrive and now I got more upset, the violinist stopped playing, a waiter came to apologize because my plate didn't arrive, I told him not to worry.

Later I saw the violinist leave... - Great, now I'm out of music... - I thought. Shortly after the violinist left, I saw him appear again, he was bringing a plate, I thought he would go to eat and then go back upstairs to play the violin, although I hesitated because he was carrying his violin on his back, in a small, well-kept black backpack.

-It seems to me that this food is yours.

He wasn't going to eat, he was bringing me my food... his voice was that of a man but... it was so fine, so calm, it was nothing serious or so high-pitched, I don't know how to describe it... but he transmitted calm just by talking.

-The waiters are sorry for the delay, they will charge you fifty percent of your money and the milkshake is free.

-Seriously... ah, thanks... I guess...

-Don't thank me, it's a good day to be a Tuesday.

-"Tuesday''?

The boy didn't wait for any answer, as he was leaving he followed me with his eyes, until he turned his back.

Tuesday... today is Tuesday, but who is that guy...

Shortly after I ate my meal I remembered the boy with his gift, I still had fifty dollars in my wallet.

-And if I bought him something and wrapped it in gift wrap... -It was a good idea, a bit common but it was the only thing I could do, besides I didn't have much time.

The problem appears in what I have always been bad at giving gifts, I didn't know what I should buy her, I started looking for clothes, I didn't know what kind of clothes she liked, I had only seen her in her work uniform and already..., I started looking for stuffed animals, there were some that I liked, I liked them, but what about her? We don't all have the same tastes..., I looked for every store I saw in the mall, some were about to close, and I couldn't get that close to the supermarket, it had already closed and I was partly afraid that they would keep looking for me there, even though they had found me a while ago, I was wandering around for several minutes and still couldn't find anything...

-s**t Tyler you are pathetic...

After a while I went back to all the places I had been... I was about to leave the mall until I saw a small ice cream shop that had just opened, its slogan was: ''Make it by ur own. ’’

-What if I do something to him myself, I can make him a box of candy... or better yet, what if... if that's it!

I had already decided, I was going to make her a scarf, I had a very clear idea and I had even drawn in my head how it would look with the scarf I wanted to make her, it was just great and she would look great wearing it, I was about to leave the mall until I saw the violin guy again at the pet store, I was curious to see what he had stopped looking at from outside the store.

-Human beings are cruel... we take advantage of those we have by our side, the nicest and most innocent, who sell their lives as if they were a business, do you think that is worthy of a good heart?

Who was I talking to...? I was behind him, but I don't think he saw me coming.

-At least in you I see a heart that is not as depressing as the people here.

-Why are you following me? I don't know you at all and... and...

-I think you're the one who's following me.-He turned back to the store.

-Why are you following me? I don't think it's pure coincidence that I've met you three times already.

He sighed.-I'll go to your school for a few months.

I had been surprised because school had started a few months ago and now it would be too late for anyone to go in and study, but I stopped thinking about it.

-How about taking a cat with you? Someone has to take an animal out of here and take care of it, I think you would find a good home for one of those kittens.

-I can't have animals in the house...-He just came back to see me out of the corner of his eye, now he was serious...

-He pointed to one of the cats and said goodbye to me.

He left, looking angry, but it was better for me, I wouldn't have someone following me again, so it was one less hassle for me...

I left the mall and went to a place where they sold the materials I needed to make the scarf for Angela, the next few months would be very cold and it would be useful for her to go to work or to go anywhere, besides it would be made by me with all the love.

I arrived home and started to make her scarf, I bought a lot of material, I wanted to be sure to make the scarf I had in mind, it had to be perfect, it took me several hours, I had barely seen the time, it took me many hours and the scarf came out badly... I decided to take a little break to eat and drink something.

After having recovered some energy I started again, everything was going well, but the dream started to win me over, but it would be the next day when I had to give the scarf to Angela because if not it would be too late and I might not see her again if not until after Christmas, and I wanted to avoid it at all costs.

I continued with the scarf for a few more hours, it was early in the morning and the dream ended up winning me over...

-Son, I'm here, did you miss me? I had to do some important things, you know, do those things that your mother always asked me to do, I'm fine, you don't have to worry.

-Dad? Dad, you're back after so long, how much did you do? I missed you, I have things to tell you dad.

-Son I have to go out again, see you in the afternoon.

-All right... take care...

-Son, are you okay? Did you fall? What happened to you?

-No, it's nothing, Dad.

-Well, son, I don't have to worry, do I?

-Yes, Dad.

-Son, son, don't cry, here is dad, do you need to eat? Let's see... mommy is not here to feed you and I don't know what you are eating either... be brave and wait for her to come, ok?

-Look son.

-Son!

-I'll show you, son, look.

-Dad has to go, little Ty, I'll see you soon.

-Son... look, forgive me for that.

-Don't worry son, it won't happen again.

-I understand you, don't worry, you'll be fine, stop crying, mommy's coming.

-D...dad... where are you, I still don't know about you, will you be with me? I don't feel well, where are you? I thought you cared, damn it.-As soon as I woke up, I hadn't called dad to find out about him. -…SHIT I FELT ASLEEP, SCARF? THE HELL ARE YOU?! s**t, s**t, s**t! LOOK AT THE HOUR TYLER! I HAVE TO GO NOW!-I picked up the scarf from under my bed, my clothes were the same as the day before, I didn't have time to change, I brushed my teeth, I took my cell phone and I left the house as fast as I could. I arrived at the mall, there were still too many people, so the guards were there again controlling the entrance, I didn't get too close, I was a little far away seeing how I could get in there without having problems with anyone.