LWT #01
1895 Words
Elliot POV
Sometimes I choose to be alone, because I have things I can't say; the things that make me afraid that when I say that, they will judge me. But since that day I have always felt excitement - maybe because it is really exciting that you are hiding something that they are trying to find out.
I was looking for someone. I waited patiently, even an hour ago since I thought of waiting for him. I thought because we had a practice in the band, he would come early again, but that was just an idea. I hover over everyone that pass so that my narrowed eyes do not miss the person I am waiting for. In my mind, maybe there is a woman with him again, or maybe he is forming another woman. Here and there I feel frustrated about the ladies he plays with, yet more frequently I feel irritated with the ladies he is with, or he plays with in bed.
I breathed a sigh of relief when I saw him alone. Our eyes met, his earthy colored hair covering one piece of his eye; which further brightened his blue eyes. His nose perfectly pointed, and he has these slight rosy lips. Is there a lady won't pursue, or a man who won't pursue? Men will chase after him since they feel betrayed, or in the case that somebody like him; like me.
I smiled at him; he additionally welcomed me cheerfully: his smile was the reason behind why I fell in love with him. I do not blame him for why I became like this; why I became gay.
Why are there such creatures like him?
"Hey, wanna play with me?" His attention crossed to this leech b***h. Her femineity soul is almost show, that as far as I know she intentionally did - to trigger and attract men of course. I mentally rolled my eyes for this leech.
"Get out of my sight! I'm not interested w***e!" I couldn't stop myself to burst out laugh when he just pulled the woman away. Plus I see the embarrassment on the girl's face, which I know she very deserved. I don't like women who have no self-respect. The b***h gaze turned to me, she raised an eyebrow and then walk out as if nothing happened. The embarrassment in her face was epic, I smirked when my best friend, Luhan put his arm around my shoulder.
"Vanissa is around." My face turned into expressionless. That's why, now I know! I smiled bitterly at that thought, however I tried my best to play my own game: just so he wouldn't doubt why my face turned pale.
"Bro, are you sick?" I shook my head and playfully rest it on his shoulder.
"Looks so gay." I rolled my eyes to convince him more.
"Lol. I want piggy back ride ... please?" I smiled and distance myself from him.
"My back hurts ... No."
"I understand." I walked ahead, leaving him with an incomprehensible expression on his face. But even so I don't want to make a conclusion because I'll be hurt - for sure.
"Heyyy, Elliot, Come on ... don't make hard feelings please. Okay, okay! Let's do it. Smile again, I'm not okay." I went back to where I left him. I gently put my hand on his neck and then to his forehead - making sure of what he said.
"Are you sick?" Now I'm the one who asked if his okay, I even smiled fairly - reaching his sad eyes.
"No. Just be here ... beside me."
"You really okay? You acting strange." He didn't answer my question. He knelt down and pats his back.
"Come on ... crying baby." I stared at him. "Faster, tsss. They might be waiting for us." I patted his back then shook my head.
"Heyhey, come on captain! Get ready, we'll have a race! Who comes first save, the loser-
"Hell no! But that should be "Who comes first ... Yeah yeaahhh, you freaking-
"Freaking what!" I closed my fist and show it to him, running still not looking in front.
"Cheater."
"I'm not, I'm just smart doing smart thing ... Imagine I tricked you? I didn't count loser-
"Watch out!" He warned but it's too late.
"Ouch/Argghh..." My eyes widened, I know who he was.
"Marco." He hardly pushed me. I groaned as my a*s hit the rough floor.
"The f**k you're doing! Did you just sniff ... Never mind, arrghh." My heart pounded because of what he said, little did he know I really did it.
"Uhhh ... Sorry for that. May I ask what cologne did you used?" I massage my nose bridge when I realized what I said, I can see the amazement on his face. I avoided his gaze, "The hella that's so embarrassing!" I said, only I could hear.
"Hey, are you okay? We're sorry ... Let's go, Let's go." Luhan supported me 'til I can properly stand my own and we ran together, I turned my gaze to Marco who was shaking his head - I guess in confusion ... maybe.
"Ahhaaa, I won loser! Treat me lunch dude!"
"You, a cheater!" I rolled my eyes, can't believe he tricked me.
"Yuhooo! I have free lunch the whole week! Yeahhh yeahh, free lunch, free lunch!" I'm dying laughing at how he behaves.
"This can't be, the play boy act like a kid! What a surprise, nyahahaha!" He looked at me deadly, and he wrapped my shoulder with his arms, I know what's up next, so I tried to run but again it's too late, he doesn't let me breath for seconds. With that, the time he freed me, I distance myself and looked at him seriously.
"No joke Luhan, No joke like that. It f*****g hurts, you stupid!" I rolled my eyes and walks faster as I can.
"What the f**k! I'm so so stupid, hey, I'm sorry. I promise, I won't hurt you again. Hey, I am very sorry. Wait for me, Elliot! Wait for me!" I raised an eyebrow and looked at him in astonishment. Why does he seem to mean something else?
"Okay, okay. Faster!" I'm waiting for you! Now he gently put his arm around my shoulder, and even smile ear to ear but it doesn't reach his eyes. I tried to smile even though I'm not sure if I should or not.
"Remember, I'll stay beside you and always wait for you, even it hurts." I didn't let him hear those last words.
"The f**k, you both late! And now we have only one hour left! They just gave us three hours! Pay us, right guys?"
"Whatever, George. This you want?" Luhan close his fist and looked at George intensely, I sighed when he threatened George a punch on air.
"Tsss, join us instead-
"What? No! Take my card bastard! Eat wherever you want." He grabbed my arm. "Are you insane?! We can't let them join us. It's the first time you gonna treat me." I rolled my eyes at his nonsense.
"Are you serious? Like jeez! It can't be!" I almost burst into laughter but never mind, just seeing his serious look. Aissshhh, it's just a simple gesture but why it has a huge impact in my heart? And why I feel like there are many butterflies in my stomach? Most of all why I can't get back my gaze to his face?
"Whatever, Luhan." We made the atmosphere like strange. No one spoke 'til Harry fakes a cough.
"Yeahh, don't be late, otherwise we can't do it, understand? So, basically, we only have three hours in weekdays and unlimited time on weekends, so y'all let's participate."
"I have four classes on Saturday, so, I'm only available on Sunday 4'o'clock. Let me clear my schedule to you. I have three hours free time on straight weekdays midday-
"We know that already, Elliot. You didn't let me finish. So, yeah, hehe. Let's just do it, let's practice together when-
"We understand now, Harry. Solo practice." I smirked and turned my gaze to Luhan. "I won't let Luhan have an excuse." We all laughed except for Luhan of course.
"Stuck more semen, dude." I playfully wink at Luhan who almost punch Kevin.
"Shut up, dude. Save your face!" We secretly laugh at him again. "Are you just gonna laugh there till there is no time left?" He really makes emphasis on his last words. "Or dead." My left eyebrow raised, and I seriously look at him.
"What? Can you say it again?" I'm ready to throw my bag at him. Aiisshh, but never mind.
"If not only ... You really look like a couple." I mentally rolled my eyes at Kevin. If only if Kevin then I'll be the happiest person in the world.
"They said, "Classic is the theme", so, Luhan and Elliot, you can have this!"
"What you mean only two of us, Harry? We are team, my goodness! Say that we can make this." I feel frustrated. It's like they are not with us.
"Okay, okay. We can make this!" Kevin played the guitar first, followed by Harry, whose masterly beating the drum. We listened carefully to where we were supposed to join to the flow, and when George repeatedly played the beatbox, we went along. I look at Luhan then smile, he has really have a good voice. But mine is better, kidding.
Tell me somethin', girl
Are you happy in this modern world?
Or do you need more?
Is there somethin' else you're searchin' for?
The next verse, I hope it can be real.
I'm falling
In all the good times I find myself
Longin' for change
And in the bad times I fear myself
It's my turn. I smirked at him and then let my voice be heard.
Tell me something, boy
Aren't you tired tryin' to fill that void?
Or do you need more?
Ain't it hard keeping it so hardcore?
If only if you know what I feel Luhan, are you gonna make me feel hardcore?
I'm falling
In all the good times I find myself
Longing for a change
And in the bad times I fear myself
Yupp, this verse perfectly fit for what I feel. Always Luhan, even I feel excitement keeping something; keeping a secret, here ... here in my heart I can't help but to feel fear.
I'm off the deep end, watch as I dive in
I'll never meet the ground
Crash through the surface, where they can't hurt us
We're far from the shallow now
I am the only one who feels like on the deep end. I just don't know if I can fall for you more, because I know I already reach it - I threw myself without knowing at first.
In the sha-ha, sha-la-low
In the sha-sha-la-la-la-low
In the sha-ha, sha-ha-ha-low
We're far from the shallow now
Hoo, huh, uh, huhh-ow
Huh, huhh-huhhh
As what I feel it's only me.
We repeatedly sing the song up to three times, making my throat dry.
"So, next will be - dandandan..." Harry continuously beat, just like an exciting event entrance.
"Let's grab food first!" He scaredly smiles and shook his head. "I'm just kidding, guys."
"I need water break, so come on." I show them my card, and they immediately understand it.
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