How can I not trust him?

Again with the dreams?

Gabriel ‘s POV

OOh, Nathaniel! I moaned as he kissed my ear lobe, my whole body felt hot and I couldn’t stop shaking, I exposed my neck to him in a submissive manner which I didn’t know I was capable of. “ babe you’re so hot for me,” he whispered and I whimpered like a dog in heat, Nathaniel removed my tank top and kissed my n*****s which had me shuddering from the pleasure that I was feeling. He kept going downward and I couldn’t wait for him to touch my d**k, “touch me babe” I moaned. Nathaniel moved up to kiss my lips again and I woke up before his tongue entered my mouth, my whole body was all sweaty and I felt horny. But what surprised me was how wet my ass hole was. “ oh my God” I whispered as I covered my mouth with my hand while panicking. I have been having s****l dreams about Nathaniel for a week now, I haven’t gone to work and I have called in sick I am glad my parents are away on some church conference. I don’t understand why I am still dreaming about a guy I only met once and know nothing about him except his name and the fact that he might be my mate. I am so confused, Nathaniel might have the answers but am not ready to face him yet. I mean how does one talk to a stranger he has been fantasizing about?

I had to do something because this getting out of hand, I could run away maybe that will make me forget him but I had a feeling that will only make things worse for both of us. The whole week I have been working on my code, I am really good with computers and right now I am designing a digital game for kids. I am supposed to go to college and study computer science but I didn’t feel like it so I am taking a gap year and working on my code while also working at the restaurant as a waiter. No one knows about my coding yet and I would like to keep it that way.

I really want have beautiful and loving relationship with a guy of my dreams and if mates are that important to werewolves maybe Nathaniel and I could give it a try but what about my parents and people in my church? I really enjoy going to church, will they kick me out of the church if they find out that I am gay? Or will they welcome me with open arms I mean the Bible does talk about acceptance, but I don’t want to see that horrified look on my parents faces ever again so I am just going to stay away from Nathaniel until I figure it out.