Yoonmin Oneshots

Regrets

Yoongi couldn't control his anger. He couldn't stop throwing bitter curses. Slurring harsh words like a volcano  releasing it's pent up emotions into the person's face. Betrayal and hatred growing in him everytime he looked him in the eyes. The view of earlier not leaving his mind, eating him alive, making him want to destroy everything around him. He saw red. Everytime he denied it, everytime he touched Yoongi, trying to make him believe, he saw red and the anger in him grew until he could't hold it in anymore and then it happened.

Yoongi walked into the living room he shared with his boyfriend and threw the keys on the table, not caring that it fell down. He walked across the medium sized living room, trying not to do something he'd regret later. But the pain in his heart wouldn't let him think right. The images of earlier playing in his head, making him scream out of frustration and kick the table, making it fall over. He breathed in harshly and then out again not wanting to cry. Not wanting to do something he'd regret but when he saw him standing in front of him with an apologetic face, he lost it. His blood was boiling again, turning his pale face red and Yoongi felt pitiful. Pitiful because even in this situation, he didn't want to see the younger boy like this. He was a f*****g mess, a mess Jimin created. Yoongi turned around not wanting to see his face it increased the already unbearable pain in his heart. He was just a f*****g mess. A broken hearted mess.

"Hyung, it wasn't like what you think. Hyung, please believe me"

He heard Jimin's pleading voice but didn't flinch one bit. He wanted to turn around and hug the younger boy, forget about everything that happened but he can't unsee what had happened. He couldn't kiss him anymore without remembering that someone else kissed those lips. Worked up, the older boy messed up frustratingly his blonde hair. 

"Hyung.."

"Hyung, don't you trust me?"

Jimin said with a small voice and Yoongi turned around, making the smaller boy flinch. 

"I TRUSTED YOU, I ALWAYS DID AND THAT'S THE BIGGEST MISTAKE I'VE EVER MADE JIMIN. I f*****g LOVE YOU, I STILL LOVE YOU. YOU WRECKED MY HEART BUT I STILL LOVE YOU SO f*****g MUCH AND IT HURTS TO SEE YOU LIKE THIS AND I HATE MYSELF FOR THINKING OF YOU. I WANNA HATE YOU BUT I LOVE YOU AND ITS KILLING ME"

Yoongi yelled leaving the other boy speechless. He yelled his lungs out because he thought it was the only way to stop the pain in his chest. 

"Yoongi, I swear it wasn't like that. We were hanging out and he suddenly kissed me I-I tried to push him away bit he wouldn't let me.."

The red haired boy explained with a shaky voice. Jimin was crying. Yoongi knew it, he could hear it in his voice. And it angered him. He had no right to cry, not infront of Yoongi, not right now. Yoongi was just so angry. 

"Yoongi, I love and only see you please, please believe me. I love you so much, I'm sorr-"

Jimin hiccuped, voice cracking when he saw the look on the older boy's face. There was so much hatred in them, so much anger as if his eyes were a weapon. 

"Just shut up and leave me alone. I'm done with you Jimin, I don't wanna see you again. Please leave"

Yoongi spoke with a cold voice that scared the younger lad. And this time it was Jimin who's face turned from shock to pure anger. He was angry as hell. His cheeks flushed and his eyes sparkled with ferocity. His normally calm demeanor quickly changed into an all consuming anger. He pushed Yoongi as he felt the salty tears build in his eyes and roll down one by one. The boy pushed him again, screaming.

"You f*****g i***t, I told you I only love you! why can't you believe me, huh?"

He hit his chest, tears not stopping.

"I never cheated on you, you bastard and you want to end this without listening to me"

He hit his chest again, his mouth not stopping from spitting words out.

"You are so f*****g selfish. This would've never happened if you just listened to me.. you-you are so stupid! Stupid f*****g stupid.."

He hit his chest again, hands getting weaker with every punch that lands on his chest. 

"You're so stupid, so stupid, so stupid. Everyone told me to leave you but I didn't because I loved you, f*****g idiot."

He breathed out harshly as another weak punch landed on the other boy's chest. 

"Jimin"

Yoongi said with gritten teeth and breathed out of his nose. 

"You're so impossibly dumb, I hate you"

Another hit.

"Jimin stop.."

"Loving you was the biggest mistake ever. I - I hate you so much"

"Jimin stop!"

He ignored the serious tone in Yoongi's voice and continued throwing words at him. Jimin was disappointed. He should have trusted him, believed him but he choosed to run away and it angered Jimin so much. He couldn't stop yelling things he didn't mean at Yoongi.

"And you know what, I regret falling in love with you. I regret kissing you, having my first time with you. I regret knowing you. I I regret not kissing Jungkook back-"

And then it happened. 

Another hit.

Everything was silent. 

Yoongi's eyes grew big when he realized what he had done. Feeling the hatred in him getting washed away by guilt. He didn't try to hold back his tears anymore and let them fall freely down his cheeks. The blonde boy tried to touch Jimin who was holding his cheek, an unreadable look on his chubby face. His eyes were full with tears but there was no emotion in them. Nothing. 

"Jimin, I'm so sorry" Yoongi sobbed as he reached for Jimin's hand. Jimin flinched and moved away from him with fear in his dull eyes who once looked at Yoongi with so much love and admiration in them. Yoongi heard his heart shatter into million small pieces. The younger boy looked at him with teary eyes and a red bruised cheek and before Yoongi could realize or stop, Jimin ran out of the living room, out of their house, out of his life, leaving him there alone with an broken heart. 

And Yoongi regretted not believing the younger boy. He regretted everything. His life was empty without Jimin. Without Jimin all he saw was grey. Oh, how he was regretting it. It felt as if the world was crashing down, piece by piece around him, and all he could do was watch.