SURVIVING FOR MY MATE

A DAILY ROUTINE OR SHOULD IT BE CALLED A REMINDER OF WHO I AM

They are looking at me, I can feel it, they are talking about me, I can hear them. " Worthless being" "waste of space" "hahahahaha". Why are they doing this to me? I think my anxiety is coming, I'm so scared.

Hello, sorry for being rude but I'm Raydien Kai Humphrey. An anti-social with loving parents,but still I love them very much. People say I'm ugly, other's say I'm worthless and this is all being said by my current pack members. The name of my pack is Moonside and yes I believe them I feel like I'm a waste of space . I wish to change that but it's just stuck up in my head.

Right now,I'm walking in the hallways of my school which is a school for specifically werewolves with the name Evermoon High School, I'm being insulted as usual and my biggest nightmare and my worst fear, is meeting my infamous bully. I've been bullied for sometime now. I don't want to tell anyone because I already feel like a burden. I'm feeling guilty, enough of worrying my parents.

I don't want it to happen again because of my phobia for many things. Sometimes I pretend to be hyperactive so people will not see my scars that I cover with makeup, hoodies and other baggy clothes and also scars deep down from bottling up my emotions.

"Oh my God not today"! I can see my bully coming just from there why do I always land into trouble. Let me just run. " Aish", I just crushed into someone. "I'm sorry please forgive me" I said. The person is getting closer to me, I'm about to have a panic attack. "Hey Raydien where do you think you are going to?". It was then that I noticed it was my bully that I crushed into and I think she used her werewolf speed. "Aaaah" I shout cause I have finally being grabbed by my bully.

I hope she can't read my mind or else I will even be in trouble or more bullied than usual. She pushes me into the washroom so nobody will come to my rescue and also that is the only place in the school without CCTV cameras. She places my head under the tap and leaves the water to flow through my hair, because I'm an omega I feel a lot more cold than they feel. She thrust her knee into my hips and also my ribs and my back collides with the wall.

" Last week's bruises are not even healed yet." I mumble to myself. She hits me in the face and I can feel her hand drawn there and the sting from the slap. I don't even know why she bullies me. I am not even beautiful like they are but I just don't know why it is like that. I bruise easily and it takes a long time to heal as a result of me being an omega and I also have purple marks on my body. After some hitting, I start to vomit all over the place and I started to feel dizzy. They stopped hitting me and I thank the moon goddess for that.

I know everyday I will be bullied so I bring extra clothes. I go to the school's showers, wash down and dress up to not make it look evident that I have being beaten up by my bullies. I pray I'm not late for Mr. Ben's class cause I swear that man is a pain in the a*s and a total f**k.

He does not take any explanation if you are late, he just don't care.

Although, Mrs. Natyle knows about my bulling but she can't say anything because my bully is known by name as Channel Aiden Mc'Brown who is the daughter of Moon dark's Beta with the name Damien Aiden Mc'Brown and her mom the Beta female is known as Liana Aiden Mc'Brown. They are respected and so she takes opportunity of that and do whatever she want. I don't want to report her because I don't like violence and I don't want her to get into trouble.

I'm late for class once again I don't even feel ok in my class. I feel so suffocated in my class cause they don't like me and I also don't like them . I just got inside and as usual they are all looking at me. Some with pity, disgust, care and hatred written all over their faces but mostly hatred I don't even know what I have done.

Oh! thank God is finally lunch and I'm sitting under a tree looking at a certain old building beside my school from there , I can see my best friend Berny Darlington Dickson and my other best friend Hillary Eden James. I love them very much.

I pushed them away but I feel guilty and I wished they still held unto our friendship but I can't blame them, is my own fault. I don't want them to get hurt because of me because they will try to stand up for me when I'm bullied. I stay away from them because my whole being screams trouble, I'm bad news to everyone and I also thinks so cause I sometimes get some flashes from my past life but I don't know why my mind is hiding the event. I wish I could recall those memories "hmm..., Oh God why, please I'm tired, I just want the day to end"

"Little sis" I know the person without even looking. This world is funny, look at my younger sibling calling me little sis. My sister is a bit taller than me because she is a beta by rank and I envy her for that. Being able to live a free life, bully free and insults free. And she always acts like she is being sugar hypered but I love her so much. I can't cope without her I'm just some months older than her, actually we are foster siblings that is why, if you are wondering.

"Hey Dien Bae" hurry up and let us go home I'm hungry she whines. I'm smiling now cause she is so funny with her pout and baby like face.

"Jamie your pout does not work on me especially that droopy eye look, stop is ridiculous". I said "it works on you" she says pretending to be sad and pulled another long face.

I wince when she pulled me unintentionally. She stops when she hears it and turn around with a cold look on her face. "Dien don't tell me she hit you today too. I will kill her". "Please stop I beg, she will hurt you too". "Why do you always defend her and make it seem like I'm weak. Let me tell you this I'm not ok".

"I'm leaving I'm pissed off" she says. " I'm sorry" I say. "I forgive you ok but please try to tell mom and dad okay. They love you even if we would have to leave the pack we will do it for you, we love you". I hug her and cry."Is okay wipe your tears and let's go" .

At the pack house, "mom we are home". "Hello my little girls how are you doing, I hope school was great". "Yes mom it was splendid". I lie through gritted teeth. I hate lying to my mom but I have to do it for my self and their safety. "Sweetie pie come down after sometime for dinner ok."

"Okay mom I will, bye". "Don't fall asleep" she warns and I chuckled.

I leave the living room to go upstairs to my room to wash up. After washing up I see the Alpha's son training, they say he is dating Channel, he is hot though. "Stop thinking about that" I tell my dumb self for thinking about that.

"How many times I'm I supposed to tell you to stop playing music at a high volume Jamieanna Kai Humphrey". I think someone is in trouble. My mom can be so scary if she wants to be. " Hahaha". I laugh Jamie my dear sister you are in trouble.

Now I'm sitting on my bed thinking about what happened "should I tell my mom?"