Dreams
1630 Words
Jade’s POV:
I hugged him tightly as I sobbed into his face. He was so much older now, his cheeks were rosy, his hair black as night just has Octavian’s. His eyes were just how I had remembered. Small and full of love. He seemed to remember me as his mother, for he smiled and giggled at me his little legs squirming around.
I held him tight to me once again, this time gently soothing him with my singing as I stroked his long hair.
The tears never left my eyes as they shut, I rocked him gently until he was asleep.
“Goodbye my son, I love you, more than you may know, but I regret not staying with you. I regret never getting to know you, to see what kind of man you will become. Never forget where you have come from, never forget my words, let them engrave your mind. Remember the sound of my voice. Remember my eyes and my tears for you. I am your mother, and I will always love you. I wish you good fortune in your life, and that when you ascend the throne you do it with honor and dignity. That you will unite our kingdoms in harmony, that you will come back here and tell me that you are my son, and tell me all of your proud accomplishments. Show me that you are my son. This is goodbye for now, but not forever. I love you son, please be better than your father.” The tears leaked out of my eyes as I sat there silently trying not to wake him up.
I had walked over to the door, drying my tears before opening it and handing him to Edward as I motioned Octavian in.
“This wouldn’t have to be goodbye if you left with me.”
“Octavian you have another wife now, it cannot be so easy.”
“I could banish her, spend my days as a widower.”
“I do not wish to be hidden away. What kind of life would that be?”
“It would be a life with me, our life, that we could have back.”
“I do not want to be with you Octavian. I have made myself perfectly clear on where you and I stand.”
“You were so willing to give Edward a chance! He is the one who ruined our life together. He’s the one who has created this mess.”
“You are the one...you made this yourself. You are a filthy dog and must lie in your own filth to see it. Edward may have kidnapped me, but he saved me from being your wife. You have broken your vow against me, the only thing I asked you not to do, and yet I was a laughing stock! You have struck me, when getting mad at my own father for beating me, you are no better than him! And I hate you! I hate you so much! I can’t even begin to describe my self-loathing just because of you and your words! Your actions! Edward has given me a home, and a family, he has given me understanding and his unconditional love and affection. He checks on me, makes sure I am not sad, he actually cares for my beliefs and feelings.”
“You care for him?” His voice raised.
“Yes! I do!”
“No, you will not care for another man.”
“I already do. And thank you for notifying me of our divorce! Revoking my title! Just who do you think you are? Sure you are the emperor, I just thought the emperor would have more dignity and honor than this surely?”
“Jade, hold your tongue.”
“You do not control me anymore! I don’t know how I didn’t see your manipulative side earlier!”
“You will be silent! You will listen to me.”
“You requested a conversation with me! I didn’t have to see you! In fact the only reason why I agreed with talking to you anyways is for our son! Who you no doubt will surely turn against me!”
“I won’t if you come back with me right this instant.”
“No, I will not go back with you. I am to be wed to Edward and become Princess Consort Jada Marie of the Southern Isle Kingdom. You are nothing but a figment of my past. Surely this will give my son a better life since you owe me yours!”
“I owe you mine?” He said confused.
“For all of your wrong doings you must atone for your sins. You will take care of my son, you will make him your heir, and you will pass your throne to him. If you do not heed my warning a very viscous wrath may descend upon you from hell. Do you hear me?” I wanted his blood, I wanted to kill him from what he did to me. He had embarrassed me, he had left me to rot in a foreign kingdom. I am lucky that I had won over Edward’s genuine affection. I am relieved that have said what needed to be said to my son.
I had prayed to see him again, and my prayers were answered in my dreams. I had seen him in my arms just as I had just held him. I had seen the devastation that Octavian would cause to his empire. His fate rested in the hands of my boy. I would not let him turn against me too.
Edward had stepped in, handing the child over to Octavian as he angrily left the room. Edward had come over to me, embracing me in his warm arms. Tears fell down my cheeks as my ugly sobs were muffled into his chest.
The thing I was most ashamed about was he had no idea of my past besides Octavian. He had yet to see all of me.
“Edward,”
“Yes my sweet,”
“Please undo the back of my dress.”
“What on earth for?”
“There is something that I need to show you before you marry me.”
His fingers brushed lightly on the fabric as his untied the back of my dress. I gently slipping it down my shoulders, he gasped as his fingers ran themselves down my back.
“Who did this to you?”
“My father,”
“The man who had sold you to the emperor...”
“Yes, not many know that it was my father who had sold me like a slave to pay his debts. After I had been married, I went home to visit him. He said that I was a filthy w**** and that I had to keep the emperor’s favor if I wanted to keep my title. I didn’t realize how right he was at the time.” I felt his warm, soft lips, kissing the scars on my back.
“Did he ever make you feel this way?”
“Don’t compare yourself to him.”
“Did he ever make you feel as sad as you are now?” His voice stern as his forehead touched between my shoulder blades.
“Yes,”
“When?” His grip on me tightened.
“He had stuck me, which caused premature labor and sent me into a death like state. I was trapped inside my own mind for days, yelling and screaming at myself to wake up.”
He kissed my back again as his grip loosened and his hand wandered up and down my side.
“You will see your son again,”
“I wish to, I’ve seen it in dreams. Dreams like this reality.”
“Your dreams, do they come true often?”
“Yes,”
“Angel?”
“Hm?”
“I will never let someone treat you like that have in your past, and I will never stoop so low as to be like Octavian.” He turned me around and kissed the tears in my eyes, gripping my waist like a saddened hunger had taken over him.
“Do you love me Edward?”
“Yes, I do.”
“And when did you start loving me?” He paused for a moment before brushing the hair out of my eyes.
“From the moment I had laid eyes on you. You were a very stubborn woman. You were so...loyal.” His kisses trailed down until he found my lips. A fiery burning passion ignited in the bottom of my stomach. A ferocious hunger taking over me as I pulled him closer. He tore the dress from my body, throwing me onto the bed as he ripped his shirt off. He threw himself onto my naked body his hand wandering to my throat as he softly kissed my neck and lips.
His pants become unbuckled, a new found feeling of freedom had entered me. But so had grief. Grief that I had just said goodbye to my old life that was dragging behind me.
I gasped as Edward entered me, his throbbing member finding solstice in my entrance. He gently rocked his hips back and forth against mine, his hand intertwining with mine as he thrust himself into me further.
“Let me make you forget him.” His words were sad as he kept his mouth buried into the nape of my neck, breathing heavily as he pounded against me slowly.
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