Lucien I couldn’t hold it in anymore... not with her. Caterina was my damned weakness, the only one that could bring me to my knees. The way she looked at me so close to tears got to me. Whether she was in pain or angry, I could feel every bit of it. My chest ached for her. My heart hurt. Right in the f*****g chest... a bullet piercing my heart. “You’ll find him. I know you will and then you’re going to bring him home. Alive.” Yes, I would bring my father home. I refuse to think he's dead. I had no shame breaking down in front of her. She’s the only one that I’ve ever showed this much emotion to besides my father. The only time I’ve ever been like this was the day of my mother’s funeral. God bless her soul. I had my face buried in her lap as she ran her fingers through my dark

