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Part 12

Jungyu’s POV

" I want her, I want her more "

My eyes are filled with lust, she has made me so hard, my hands are roaming around her body feeling every single dip and curve of her. I unbuttoned her shirt, her breasts look so soft.

I started kissing her neck and moving down to her chest, then I slipped my hand into her bra, massaging her breasts gently, while I was busy sucking her other breast leaving a hickey.

She began to moan by pleasure

just by hearing her moans, it made my member even harder

" f**k, I just want to rip this bra " I talked to myself

I took off her bra, leaving her breasts fully naked to me

I looked into her eyes, and I was so happy to see her like this, she seemed to enjoy what I was doing to her, that means she wanted me too

She was panting, and I could not wait any longer, I sucked her n*****s while looking at her face, wanting to know her reaction

She threw her head back while moaning

She looks so beautiful

I lifted her, wrapped her legs around my waist and brought her to bed

I laid her down and hovered over her

I can not bear this pain, something inside me needs to be released

I started to take off my belt in a hurry, pulling down my pants, but when I was about to pull out my length, I froze, I looked at her face once again, she was a mess.

My heart ached just by thinking it will she hate me after I do this? after tasting her body, that thought just flashed through my head

I wanted her so bad, wanting to taste her, but I was so scared that she would regret it and hate me for it.

Nara’s POV

I was so wet, he made me feel so good, the pleasure he was giving me was coursing to my core, I've given myself up to him, wanting him to do more

I fell in love with him, fell for everything he had

I waited, waiting for his touch, waiting for his kiss

but suddenly he stopped what he was doing

he just looked at me, looking into my eyes deeply

I was confused, why did he stop suddenly?

he was thinking about something and I do not know what it is

he touched my lips, caressed it slowly

he buttoned my shirt to covered my upper body then he draped the blanket over my body

" I'm so sorry, please don't hate me, " he said while sighing

I'm so confused, why did he say sorry?

then he landed a kiss on my forehead

" good night, have a good sleep, " he said

he got out the bed, even though I was covered by a blanket, I felt cold instantly after he pulled away

he fixed up his pants and walked out

Does he not want me? Did I do something wrong? I don't understand, why he acted like this does he not love me, is my body not enough for him?

That kind of question popped out inside my head

" does my body look imperfect for him? " I mumbled

I pulled the covers tighter, it feels like my heart was stabbed with a knife, I feel so broken right now.

Jungyu’s POV

I went to my room and locked the door, I leaned my body against the door, I sighed, how could I do that to her, we almost had sex

" damn you jungyu, how could you be this stupid " I was blaming myself

I wanted her so bad, but I was more afraid of being hated by her

I walked with no power towards the bathroom, hoping by taking a bath would make me feel a little calmer

I stood under the shower, letting the water run over my body

" what should I do with this? " I asked as I looked down, looking at my member that is still hard

then I was reminded by the previous moments, her expressions, her moans, how soft and beautiful her body was

and it made my lust rise instantly

I started touching my own body, something needs to be released and I could not hold it anymore

I started stroking my member while thinking of her how tight she would feel around my member. I slowly increased my pace I was almost on edge, my pain faded away when I came it was replaced by the pleasure my hand was coated with my c*m.

I could not believe that I pleasured myself just by thinking about her.

Next Day

I was awake, and I had not come out of my room, actually, I don't want to get out of my room, I couldn't look at her, after what I had done to her last night

but I do not want to be a coward, who only hides and avoids the situation

" ok, you have made a mistake, and you have to be responsible for it, " I said

I opened the door, and I walked out, and I was a little surprised, to see her walking out her room at the same moment

She glanced at me then just looked away and started walking away from me

my heart hurts, she must be mad at me, or maybe hates me

I sighed then I just walked downstairs

I saw her in the kitchen, taking milk out of the fridge, I walked towards her but she left before I reached her, she just walked past me, not talking to me not even without looking at me

she sat in the living room, watching tv while enjoying her milk, while me, I sat at the table, enjoying the bread while I was watching her

She was only focusing on the tv, she never glanced at me even once

I don't know what to do, but I can not just stay still, I have to talk to her

I approached her, when I was about to call her, suddenly she got up from her seat, walked past me and went straight to her room

I sighed, she ignored me again, I was so confused

" girls are really confusing " I mumbled and just threw my body on the couch

5 hours later

I was still sitting in the living room, and I'm in a bad mood, because she did not once come out of her room, and it's been five hours she locked herself in there

should I break into her room? but I'm afraid that she will misunderstand it and get more angry with me

" aishh " I ruffled my hair, feeling frustrated

" ok, I have to be patient, waiting for the right time to talk to her, " I said

30 minutes later

I saw her walking out of her room, then heading towards the kitchen

I was watching her, but she just treated me like I never existed

then the bell rang, I was surprised, who would come to visit me? since I never told to anyone about this house

I glanced at her, and she also did the same, I saw her expression, it seems she was also surprised

I walked to the door and opened it slowly

And then...

" surprise " jaemin hyung said

my eyes widened when I saw my hyung who was standing in front of me now

" yah your house is so nice, let me in, " minjoo hyung said pushing me to let him in

then they went in and took a seat

" hi " I saw seojin hyung waving to Nara who was in the kitchen

I did not expect him to be so fast to be aware of her existence

" Oh hi " she replied while bowing

" come here " seojin said

She nodded then walking towards us

" I'm seojin, you must be Nara right? nice to meet you, I've heard a lot about you from jungyu " seojin said

" Oh yes, nice to meet you too " she replied then bowing to them

" jungyu, will you not introduce us to her? She must be confused " jaemin hyung said

" ah ok, Nara, they are my hyungs " i said

" hi, I'm sorry for not greeting you well, my name is Nara and nice to meet you all " she said while smiling to them

" ok, have you eaten? Both of you? " minjoo asked

" no " i replied

" then let's eat " minjoo said, while showing the bag of food in his hands

and we all ate, and as always, they never kept quiet, they kept talking even while eating

but me and Nara just ate in silence, i feel very awkward

" what's wrong with you two, why are you both so silent? " seojin asked while frowning

" nothing, just eat " i replied coldly

I continued eating, and I felt everyone was watching me

I glanced at them, they looked at me with a stabbing gaze

" what " i asked, I was annoyed

after we finished eating, we just talked, I saw she was getting comfortable with them, she was talking with jaemin and ahjoon Hyung

she smiled, laughed, and by seeing that it made me feel calm

" excuse me, I want to go to the bathroom " i said, then went to the bathroom

Nara’s POV

I did not prepare anything, I never even imagined they would come here, the first time I saw them, I was stunned, they were so damn handsome

But I was afraid at the same time, afraid if they hated me

But I was wrong, they are very kind to me, and it was so nice to talk and get to know them

" Nara, can we talk? " minjoo asked

" Oh, of course " I replied

" thanks, then follow me, " minjoo said then lead me to the backyard

Then we sat on the bench

" look, I'm so relieved and happy, seeing jungyu like this, he looks so happy since you entered his life, thanks for making him happy, " he said while holding my hand

" I have never seen him be this happy, and that's all because of you " minjoo added

my heart was touched by his words, but I never thought he would say that

" please keep him happy, because he has suffered enough for his life, and now, it's time for him to find his happiness " minjoo said

He was looking at me deeply

" no answer? " he frowned

" are you two okay? Did something happen between you guys? " he asked

" we are fine, I just do not know how to answer, I know he's suffered a lot, I want him to be happy, so do I, but I don't know, I'm just confused " I replied

I don't understand what exactly the kind of relationship between me and jungyu is? Jungyu also never expressed his feelings to me

" if you are confused, you should find the answer, asking for an explanation, " he said with a bright smile

Jungyu’s POV

I went back to them, but I did not see Nara there

I was looking around

" Relax, she's fine, she's in the backyard with minjoo, " ahjoon said, he caught me, that I was looking for her

an hour later

they decided to go back to the mansion

and I had no idea she bonded with them in such a short time, especially with minjoo hyung

after they left, there was only me and her here, and the atmosphere became awkward again

She is still silent, not talking to me at all

she was about to go to her room, but I held her wrist to stop her

" are you mad at me? " I asked as she turned her body to face me

" what do you think? " she replied coldly

" ok, I'm sorry, about last night, I'm really sorry, please don't be like this, " I said

But she didn't answer

" why are you like this? what should I do then? " I asked, with frustration slowly getting to me

" I don't know, I'm just confused, " she said, looking away

" tell me what makes you confused? " I said

" why are you doing this to me? " she asked

Her gaze was dark

" I do not know either, it just happened, I know I'm wrong, I'm so sorry for that " I sighed

" look jungyu, I just do not understand what happened to you, you came onto me, you kissed me, we almost had s*x, and then you just left me, are you playing with me? " she said, she looked so angry

" if you do not want to do it, then do not start it, do not ever start something that you can not finish " she yelled, she was looking at me with anger filling her eyes.

" I don't know, what's your reason for starting it, and you suddenly ended it and left me without any explanation, " she said, lowering her head

" do you know how I felt then? is my body too imperfect for you? " she shouted

she looked at me, and her eyes looked watery like she was going to cry, and I was so hurt to see it

" no, you are beautiful, please do not think like that, never, your body is the most beautiful I've ever seen, last night, was the most beautiful moment for me, I wanted you so bad, I wanted to touch you, felt every inch of your body, please trust me " i said

" then why did you leave me? " she replied with tears running down her cheek

" it's because I was scared that you'll hate me after if we had s*x at that moment " I explained

" so that's why you left me? that's not a good reason jungyu " she then removed her hand out of my grasp

" just forget it, I don't want to remember that f*****g moment " she wiped her tears then turned away

" what if I have fallen in love with you? " I asked before she walked away

" what if my reason is that I have fallen in love with you because I do not want to make your body dirty by the touch of a bad man like me, " I said

I walked up to her, turned her around to face me, and she just lowered her head while sobbing

I lifted her chin up, she was crying a lot

" Forgive me, please don't hate me, don't ignore me, please, " I said, while wiping her tears then I hugged her

I love you Nara, but I do not deserve to have you, you are pure, while I, I'm too bad for you and I have done a lot of bad things to prove it.