CHAPTER 26
1483 Words
Ellen
I heard when he came in, I kept my breathing steady, so he didn't realize I was awake.
I wanted to scream at him, beat on his chest until a heart started to beat inside.
How could he say sweet words, make me give myself to him, made me feel so wanted? I fed at that moment.
He told me not to betray him and that I am his, but I am just the price paid by my family, I shouldn't wait any longer.
I don't understand how it can hurt so much, no one has ever awakened something like that in me, not even Diego when he cheated on me.
A dirty, filthy p********e who had been used in the morning but was not suitable for the night.
I felt him sitting in the same chair, his fingers ran across my face, still wet,
— I'm sorry Principessa, I would not like it that way, but Jullius is right you do not belong in this world. I can't let you get hurt, and I can't keep hurting you. — I heard his words that sounded sweet to my ears but were like arrows in my heart.
What world do I belong to now? He took me out of the only world I knew, where am I going to go back to? That's if he lets me go.
Every word that came out of his mouth hurt me, tore my heart a little more, I hate him right? He wanted to kill my family, and no matter what his reasons, they are my family.
When Riccardo left the room I allowed myself to cry, until there were no more tears. The sun came and I got up because there was no reason to keep regretting it. It was my fault for giving him what he didn't take, I could only hope he would set me free.
When I got out of the bath I heard the knock on the door, I knew it wasn't Riccardo, he never knocked, he came in, he had my life when and how he wanted. I got dressed quickly, chose a pair of denim shorts and a lilac button top, and put on a pair of sneakers.
— Sorry sir, I was in the shower.
— Don't call me sir, ragazza, I'm not that old. Besides, you owe me I still have headaches. — he laughed and suddenly I relaxed next to him.
— Sorry about that too?
— Don't be sorry you were very brave, I'm proud of you. So, can I come in? — he said and only then did I see the breakfast tray.
I don't seem to have been welcome at the breakfast table, or those women are more likely to still be there with him sitting on his lap while he reads the newspaper. — Ellen, don't be an i***t! — I kicked myself mentally for torturing myself for free.
— Yes of course. — I replied getting out of the way and sat on the bed while he settled in front of me.
— Well, I'll get straight to the point, you're going to come home this morning.
— So fast? What did I do wrong? Is Riccardo mad at me?
— Calm girl, he's not mad at anyone but himself, but you're going to go back to your home, to your place, don't you want to see your family? Asked the man, patting my knee.
Of course, I wanted to, it was what I most wanted to be able to go back to my life, but it didn't exist any more. I was still Riccardo's property, only his control would be more remotely.
— How about school? Are there just a few months left to complete your course?
— Yes, but what about my family, what if… — for a moment I was terrified by the idea of Riccardo not wanting the deal any more and my family taking risks again.
— Riccardo is not breaking his promise and neither is yours. You go home that Riccardo bought for you, Lorenzo and Genna will be there to protect you.
— And watch me.
— Also, — he laughed, patting my thigh with a pat. — nothing has changed Ellie, Riccardo has already told you that he doesn't deal well with betrayal, believe him, and he will stay out of trouble. You can do it?
— When will I see you again?
— I do not know child, but he will go until you can believe, while this does not get in trouble, capisce?
— Won't he say goodbye to me?
— It's better like that, girl, believe me, you'll be fine, I promise.
— How can you promise that?
— I am old and lived enough to know that everything will be fine.
— I thought I heard you say you weren't that old sir.
— Good girl, take care Bambina! — Jullius left the room leaving me in an even bigger void.
— Thank you Jullius! — I replied and received a warm smile back.
I wasn't free of him, but I wasn't with him either. What a tangle I got into. Riccardo said that I went to him, it was my choice, my life for my family, and he was right. When he was in my room at night, he said that his legacy summed him up and that he was just his heritage, I could easily transfer his words to me, my heritage is my crazy family that lives in confusion and problems, my legacy? Protect them with my life. It looks like he also has his demons, and if they were out of the box I wouldn't even want to be around.
I finished my coffee quickly and put all the things Riccardo bought in the suitcase that Jullius brought me, Lorenzo came to fetch me and handed me a cell phone and information on how to use it and warnings that I should not give my number to anyone other than my family and work, keep it always charged and with me, and never miss a call. Riccardo's call.
I understood half of what he said, but I nodded, and he smiled realizing my slight impudence.
Lorenzo took my bags and settled me in the back seat. I didn't want to, but it was inevitable not to feel pain. I looked where I knew he would be, and he was there looking at me. I didn't cry, I wouldn't let him see my tears, Riccardo stood there, motionless, he didn't come and drag me out of the car and tell me to stay.
The car left and half of me was lost now and forever in the hands of a heartless man.
The cell phone I received vibrated in my hand, wasn't he satisfied with what he did? Did you need to drill some more?
“Do you feel it? Why? ''
How could he feel anything, if he was the only one with the power to hurt and heal me?
‘‘ For making you suffer ’’
When did he realize he made me suffer? When did you order my family to be executed? When did it hit me because of Diego's frames? Or was it when you forced me to touch Diego's still warm blood on my hands? Or even when he f****d me to make me see stars, and then he was f*****g three prostitutes in front of me?
When he realized he made me suffer, or when he started to care.
‘‘ You’re sorry, so why don’t you stop? ’’
‘‘ I’m doing just that ’’
Really? Sending me away, but still keeping me close, of course he was.
'' To like? Breaking my heart? ’’
‘‘ I’d save your heart if I could, but I can’t. ’’
He wouldn't need to fix me if he stopped breaking me.
‘‘ So, are you going to let me go? ’’
‘‘ I can’t, you’re mine! Goodbye, Ellie! ’’
Am I his, his property like an old house that no one lives in, but he also doesn't put up for sale? What a stupid comparison I used now, but I can at least justify it, my mind is not the same since Riccardo Gouveia entered my life.
I was his so that he could use it whenever he wanted, I would kill him if I could just for that.
I couldn't help the tear that ran down my face.
Lorenzo's gaze met mine in the rearview mirror, and he winked at me. I would even accept a hug from him, but I was alone, it would be hours before I could finally cry.
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