Get me out!

Twentyone

Adam POV: 

    "How are you feeling?" Rebeckas eyes meet mine for a brief moment before she looks away again. Adrian pushes on my mind and I just wish for him to back off.

    "We need to make this right. I don't like that she's not talking to us. She's not even looking at us!" He growls in my head. I hold her hands in mine to prevent her from scratching her hands. 

    "Rebecka please say something." I plead and rest my forehead on her shoulder. She sits between my legs on the bed with her back against my chest. Her body is stiff and her heart beats hard. 

    "I-I don't know what to say Adam." She says low. "I don't know what I'm feeling." She pulls her knees close to her chest and puts her arms around her legs. 

    "Just tell me what you're thinking?" I ask and she sighs. 

    "I wonder how many girls you've been doing this with. I know that you've been with others and I don't blame you. I can't be mad about things you've done defore you knew me." She says. I hear that she's not done and there's a lot more running around in her head. 

    "Just one time." I say and she waits for me to continue. "I have just done it one time before. We were young, stupid and drunk. Jake and I met two girls at this party and we had s*x with them." I feel her wince a little and I hold her tighter. "We did it next to eachother, it was embarrassing and awkward but thrilling at the same time. Afterwards, we never saw those girls again, not that we wanted to. Both Jake and I had wished that the first time would be with our mates. We talked about doing the same thing when we found our mates but as the years passed we kind of repressed the idea. Then when we found you and Lisa, Jake brought it up again." 

    "So... you and Jake?" She hesitates.

    "No, not like that. We like to watch. We don't get turned on by eachother, rather by the things we're doing." 

    "Have you watched them? Jake and Lisa?" She asks and I shake my head.

    "No, all I could think about was you and to see them enjoy eachother like that while I couldn't even touch you would make me insane." I say.

    "So you don't share?" She asks.

    "No, we just watch. We are way too possessive to share. You are mine, I can share you with Adrian since he is me in a way but I won't have other males touch you. Not even Jake." I say and she nods.

    "Will it be weird? With Lisa? I mean, I'm a patient at the asylum where she works. And she just saw me... She saw us... While Jake was..." She struggles with the words while a blush creeps up her neck.

    "I hope not. You're not a patient. That was a misstake. You shouldn't even be here. You should have been sent to me and our pack right away when they took you in. But since Stella hides and you didn't know what was happening they made a misstake. And I'm so sorry that it took four years to make it right." I say sincerely. 

    "It is not your fault Adam." She rests her head against my shoulder and I kiss the top of her head. 

    "Do you want to work with Stella? Try to work on that controll?" I ask and she looks up at me. 

    "What do you have in mind?" She asks and turn around so she is facing me. 

    "We should train on the shifting process. You stopped it beacuse it hurt and you felt like you lost controll to Stella right?" I say and she nods. "We can't do anything about the pain, but we can work on your co-operation with Stella so you're still in controll and that you give it to her, not that you're losing it." 

    "How do I do that?" She asks.

    "Let her out. Not completely, you want to be the one calling the shots but she will be right there with you. Let her guide you through it. She knows what to do. Don't fight it. Alright?" I ask and she nods. She closes her eyes and takes a deep breath. When she opens them again her green eyes are brighter and blends with Stellas ice blue ones. 

    "And now?" Her voice is nervous and faint. I cup her face with my hands and she gasps at the feeling. I know that the sparks are stronger this time. Her wolf senses are hightened, wich means she feels everything stronger, even the sparks. 

    "With Stellas wolfsenses you should feel, hear and see everything much better. Try it." She closes her eyes and listens to the many sounds around us. Suddenly she open her eyes and blushes while a small giggle escapes her mouth. 

    "I found Jake and Lisa." She says and I grin at her when I too hear them.

    "Try to initiate the shift. Lets see if you can make your claws grow." She closes her eyes again and holds her hands in front of her. Her nails start to grow and reshape themselves. "Now, let your fur out." She furrows her eyebrows but keeps her eyes closed. The hair on her arms brightens and turns to a shade of shiny grey, almost silver. The hairs gets longer and thicker and covers her arms. "Rebecka, open your eyes." She shakes her head

    "I'm scared." 

    "Trust me, I'm here. Look at Stellas fur." I say and she slowly opens her eyes. A small smile spreads on her face at the sight of the silvery fur. Her eyes are now ice blue with specks of green in them. She takes her hand and slowly caress her arm.

    "It's so soft." She says amazed.

    "I can't wait to see Stella in her form." I say and for the first time she smiles at the thought of turning into a wolf.

    "What do your wolf look like?" She asks. 

    "Adrian is light brown with dark patches on his back." I answer. Rebecka looks at her arms while the fur slowly vanishes from her skin. 

    "Like your eyes?" She asks. I think about it and nod.

    "Yeah kind of, a little lighter maybe." I say and she smiles.

    "He sounds beautiful." She kisses my lips and return the favour.

    "Not as beautiful as you."