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"I'd rather call it making love."
Umiwas ako ng tingin nang humarap ulit sa akin si Cain, clothes in his hand na mindlessly niyang hinalungkat sa closet.
"S-Sure..." I breathe. "Whatever's fine with me."
It's crazy. Sa kabila ng awkwardness namin ngayon, ito na yata ang pinaka-light at casual na conversation namin simula nang magsama kami sa bahay na 'to.
Tumayo siya sa harapan ko, towering over me with his huge stature. He touched my cheek, his hands shaking with anticipation.
"I'm sorry I misunderstood..."
"Stop apologizing."
Sinimulan niya 'yong paulit ulit na pag-hingi ng tawad noong nagkasakit ako, but I never want to hear him apologizing to me ever again.
"...And thank you, because you agreed to do it tonight." He continued.
"I wanted it, too..." I closed my eyes, letting go of all the shame and embarrassment. Tonight is our night, and I don't want my inhibitions to ruin it.
Kinuha niya 'yong pagsara ko ng mata bilang senyales na mag-simula. He kissed me firmly on my lips.
Hindi siya gumalaw agad—isang minuto ang lumipas, dalawa. I opened my eyes, but I didn't move either. I watched as he just stood there with his eyes closed tight, lips pressed against mine, as if he was savoring the moment. I can feel that he's scared, his inhibitions still winning.
Kaya ibinuka ko nang bahagya ang labi ko, enticing him to start. Agad siyang gumalaw—he started kissing me back, pulling me closer, as if he was just waiting for me to start. His hand started cradling the back of my head to get a better angle. Then he rushed to push his tongue inside my mouth.
I let out a groan, gripping onto his arm.
I lost balance, halos bumangga ang likod ko sa headboard. The kiss made me weak. It's so sweet and new, yet it also feels extremely familiar. Ganito siya laging humalik noon, pero matagal ko na 'tong hindi naramdaman.
Pinigilan kong umiyak.
Mas humigpit ang hawak niya sa batok ko, pulling me closer, as if he knew how weak I felt. I decided to take a peek at him, pero agad akong namula at pumikit ulit nang makita kong pinapanood din niya ako—so intent, so passionate.
"I love you so much," he breathed as we parted.
Sabog na yata ako. I felt lightheaded after that long, intense kiss. Ganunpaman, I didn't allow it to stop me. I slowly started stripping, my eyes never leaving Cain's.
When I am already naked, he took a few steps back, his arms crossed over his chest. He tilted his head to the side, his eyes piercing through me. I looked away, but I didn't cover any part of myself. I felt the heat rise up from my chest to my neck, to my face, pero hindi ako gumalaw. I let him watch me.
Pero isang minuto na ang lumipas at hindi pa rin siya gumagalaw, kaya napatingin ulit ako sa kanya.
His eyes were still lingering over my body. I bit my lip and quickly grabbed a pillow to cover myself.
"Tama na."
"Bakit?" Lumapit siya sa akin, parang hindi niya rin namalayan na kanina pa siya naka-titig.
"You're staring for way too long—" I gulped as I accidentally glanced at the towel around his waist.
"—too long." I looked away.
He reached for my hands, holding them firmly.
"Matagal na akong hindi nagkaroon ng oras para panoorin at hangaan ka. Gusto kong bawiin lahat ng panahong nasayang natin." His voice was gentle, but there was something intense about it. "I missed you so much." He kissed my hand.
"M-Me too..." I looked down, trying to hide my tears.
But it was a mistake.
Mali.
Because now, my face was right in front of his hard-on. Pumikit agad ako.
"Hey." Cain laughed.
"You'll be spending the night with me and him, try to look."
Halos mapatalon ako nang gabayan niya ang kamay ko papunta sa towel niya. He guided me to pull it off. My eyes were still shut, pero napasilip ako habang dahan-dahang bumabagsak ang tela sa sahig. The warmth of his body and the scent of soap spread through the air. Hindi ko alam kung bakit, pero napatingin ako sa mukha niya at tinawag siya—parang nagmamakaawa.
"C-Cain..."
His playful smile disappeared. His hands on my shoulders were hot and heavy. Then, he gently pushed me down the bed.
"This really is happening," he whispered, almost like he was convincing himself. His forehead pressed against mine, his breath deep and uneven.
"Yeah..." I whispered back.
Tumingin siya sa akin, then he kissed my forehead. Madiin. Mahigpit. He exhaled shakily, as if he was just as nervous as I was.
"I'll take good care of you."
I nodded.
"I won't mess up anymore, Ponzu."
A tear escaped my eye. Again, I nodded. He kissed away the tear that fell.
"Tell me when it becomes too much."
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