BE AWARE, THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS SUICIDAL BEHAVIOR!
"Dear diary, I have now officially given up. It's not worth it anymore. The shame is too heavy to bear, I drown with this weight in my heart. I feel empty, there's no point anymore. It's time, I just hope they can forgive me…”
I'm in the waiting room with my shrink, Natalia. We've met a couple of times since everything happened and I really like her. She's not pushing me to tell her what happened. Her soft voice always gives me a calm when we talk to each other. I've been trying to tell her. Every time I try, I get tongue-tied and can't get a single word out. Fortunately, I have seen that she understands me, she can see that I'm trying but that I simply can not.
"Hanna, welcome" she says when she opens the door to me.
I get up and go i
