Hope

Looking forward

  POV Lola:

    Some weeks have gone by and I haven't seen Ronnie. I missed him. I must be crazy. He was a sicko.

    But my body missed him, I guess more than my heart did. Was I ever gonna get rid of this feeling?

    My friends all called me to go out, to hang out, but I was scared to be put into a situation like that again. No more going out for me. At least not for now. 

My FOCUS? Only on my daughter.

Memories:

    All by myself and he just makes me feel good. It's all about feeling good. He promised that he would love me forever. in 18 years, I've never been more in love. I wish it wasn't so complicated. He is seperated and has kids, but who am I to judge. 

    We met at work and he was always around. Smiling making me laugh. Nobody noticed at first, but then we couldn't stay away from eachother. 

    A few years later.....

    It only happened a few times, but I am strong. I can take it. All that matters is Sofie. She is the only thing keeping me together. If he tried to hit me again, I will try to defend myself. At least this time I will.

    He only does it when they piss him off. I keep up with the house, I work and give him my money, and I help care for his kids. So it has to be them. I know he loves me. Right? He won't do it again. 

It happened again!

All I could feel was the concrete under me. I was screaming but I couldn't hear myself. He was choking me and I barely could breathe. I had to hold on for her. I couldn't give up. She needs me. I wont let him hurt her. 

It all went black.......

    Something pulled my focus back from those memories. What made me remember that? It had been so long. I told my friends NO. I was gonna go home and hang with my baby Sofie. She was all that mattered.