The good girl is changing me

Chapter eight - Talking with the good girl

Aaron's POV:

Finally, I managed to talk with a good girl named Chloe. It wasn't what I expected, but at least I learned what people in her school talk about me. I won't deny that it wasn't something nice, but some of the things are true. Others are just to give people new rumors, no matter are they true or not. What surprised me the most is that Chloe didn't believe any of them. Everyone thinks that I am the bad boy, but not her and the note, which she gave me, proofs it. I won't lie that I want to talk with her again, but I don't know will it be possible. I can try to find her on social media, but this will be hard. There are many girls named Chloe and since I don't know her last name, this will take me time. Maybe she will come to talk with me. 

I woke up and started getting ready. I want the weekend to come and not only because I got to parties. I feel tired from everything. What Chloe told me doesn't make it better. Now I have almost the whole school against me. If who I think is speeding the rumors about me, he is in big trouble. I won't let him walk away just like that. Ricky Dawson is the worst human being that exists and my enemy number one. He won't be better than me so he has to give up. Ricky might have convinced the people in his school, but he hasn't talked with the whole town. No matter that the news are spreading quickly. 

I walked downstairs for breakfast and saw Dani. Sometimes I forget that he has a key from the house and can come when he wants. Usually, I don't mind it, but today I am not in the mood. I was the one who is attracting everyone and now no one wants to come to me. Well, almost no one. This girl Chloe looks different. If I manage to keep her for a while, this will be progress. The problem is that she knows the truth about me and now will be more careful. I don't blame her. In her place, probably I was going to do the same. Let's hope that I can make her trust me, which won't be easy. 

- Good morning. Why are you here so early?

- To you too and I just wanted to see you. Lately, you don't look very well. I mean the bad boy is gone and you look worried. If there is a problem, you know that you can tell me. I am your best friend after all. 

- Thanks man, but I am fine. Just thinking about all the things that Chloe said. Someone is spreading all these rumors about me and I want to know why. 

- You still think that it's Ricky, don't you?

- I do. No one else is capable to invent something like that. I won't deny the drinking and dumping girls, but the other things are ridiculous. 

- But people still believe it. How Chloe said, nowadays people believe everything, no matter is it true or not. By the way, I liked her and I think that she liked you. Especially with the note, which she gave you. 

- Yeah, about that. I think that for her will be better to stay away from me. I won't change myself and she doesn't deserve her heart to be broken. 

- Don't tell me that you care about her. For the first time, you show some type of emotion for a girl. I'm so proud of you man. 

- I don't care, but her friends probably do. I don't want the whole school to blame her for talking with me. 

- Yeah, this is not something good. On the other side, you have a chance to talk with her. I don't think that you should deny it. 

- I won't lie that I want to talk with her again, but I don't want her to be in trouble. 

- If she was worried about that, she was never going to talk with you that day. Use the chance to get to know her. I know that you want it. It's written all over your face. - Dani laughed

- Very funny. Let's go now. We are already late. 

Both of us walked from the house straight to school. We are 20 minutes late and when we arrive they probably will be 40, but I don't care. This won't be the first time when I am late, neither the last one. Some people never change and I am one of them. We walked into the classroom and sat at the back. The teacher saw us but didn't say anything. I pulled out the note from Chloe and read it again. This will be my one-thousandth time doing this. 

Thank you for telling me the truth. You helped me a lot. Also, I don't think that you are that bad. I hope that I'm not wrong. 

Everybody thinks that I am bad, but she doesn't. I don't want to give her high hopes, but I won't lie that I would love to show her the real me. I can show some type of care, but I chose to not do it. Nobody cares about me so why do I have to do it. Well, only Dani, but I won't count him, because he is with me for a very long time. To be honest, he is the only thing that I have. This is the only person with who I can share everything. As you probably have noticed my parents are not here to show some support. Even if they come here, it'll be too late. I don't need them anymore. When I needed them, they weren't here, so don't blame me for hating them. At least they send me some money each month. Not like this will make me forgive them, but it's better than nothing. It shows that they didn't forget about me. 

I read Chloe's note again and started thinking about how can I talk with her. I feel like she will listen to me, but I still don't think that it's a good idea to tell her everything. Moreover, I don't know her. For me, she is a stranger. Yes, we have talked, but it was short and mostly about what is going on in her school. If we do it again, I want to talk about us. I mean our lives. I refuse to believe that hers is perfect. Same as mine. 

At the end of the class, I walked to my locker. I read her note again. If she thinks that I am not that bad, how can I show it to others as well? To be honest, I don't know why she believes it. This girl hasn't seen me or any of the things, which I do. Well, I won't lie that I like to have someone on my side. 

- Will you stop reading it? You look obsessed. - Dan chuckled

- I just don't understand how after all these things, she still thinks that I am good. 

- She didn't say that. Only that you are not that bad. There is a difference. 

- Anyways. After lunch, will you come with me?

- I can't. I have to deal with one teacher, but I will come later. 

- Ok, no problem. 

We walked to our next class. The note was still in my hand. Maybe Dani is right. I am obsessed. I put it in my backpack and tried to focus on the lesson. This might help me to stop thinking about everything else. I lost interest in the second minute. It's so boring. 

As usual, on our lunch break, I left school. I went to the same place and bought some coffee. To be honest, I don't like it that much, but it keeps me awake. I looked in front of me, but I didn't see Chloe. Probably she is eating with her friends. Well, they are more important than me. Moreover, probably for her, I am just a stranger. I won't be surprised if she thinks it. This is the truth. We don't know each other. I took out her note again and started thinking. What is the reason, which made her think that there is something good in me? Could it be because of the napkin? I just wanted to talk with her, but since I didn't know how, that was all that I got. Luckily, she responded. No matter how many times I read it, I won't find the answer. 

- I meant what I wrote. 

I looked up and saw Chloe. What is she doing here? Someone might see her. I guess that she doesn't care. Good for her. 

- Can I sit here or you are waiting for someone?

- Yes, no. I mean you can sit here. 

- For a bad boy you are not doing a very good job. - she chuckled

- Don't make me show you what I am capable of because trust me you won't like it. 

She looked at me frozen and I laughed. To be honest, I can be quick and get what I want, but this time I won't do it. Otherwise, I risk being ignored by her. 

- Will you tell me what are you doing here? Someone might see you. 

- Everybody is eating now and I decide to see you. Is there a problem with that?

- No, I just didn't expect it. 

- I see that you still keep the note. 

- Um... yes, I do. Why?

- I thought that you will throw it away. Same as the napkin. 

- What if I tell you that I keep that as well?

- Really? - she asked surprised and I saw how her cheeks went light pink

- You look surprised. 

- Because I am. I didn't expect that you will keep that. It's just a piece of paper. 

- But the words on it are very important for me. 

- If you say so. - she said and turned her head to the other side

- Can I ask you something?

- Sure, go on. 

- Why do you trust me?

- I have never said that.

- The fact that you are here now and all the things, which you said, tell me other. 

She didn't answer. Did I do something wrong? This is just a question. 

- Look, as much as I appreciate it, I'll give you advice. Stay away from me. I always get in trouble and this is the last thing that you need. I suck for a friend and that's why I am alone. I have done so many things that it will make me a whole day to tell you all of them. - I said and she looked at me

- Why do you think so low of yourself?

I won't lie that her question surprised me. 

- What do you mean?

- All the things that you said tell me how bad you are, but I don't think that it's only that. I believe that there is something good in you, but you don't want people to know about it. Why?

- I was a good boy when I was little. Now nothing good left in me. 

- That's not true. Just because you don't see that, it doesn't mean that it's not there. You have to look deep inside of yourself and find it. 

How I am supposed to make her stay away from me when she is talking like that? It'll be better if she stays away from me, but I don't think that this is what she wants. 

- You don't want to stay away from me, do you?

- I just want to know the real you, not who you pretend to be.

- I am not pretending. 

- Sorry, I didn't say it correctly. I meant that you are doing all of these things, because for a reason. 

- I won't deny it. Nobody takes care of me so I can do what I want. 

- That's not true. You have parents and friends who love you. I'm sure about that. 

- Trust me, you have no idea how bad my life is, but that is better. You better stay away from me. 

- If you want it that much, I will do it. 

- I don't want to obligate you but don't be sorry when the problems come after you. 

- If I was afraid, I wasn't going to be here. - she said and got up

- Chloe!

- Yes. What do you want? Me to stop coming here?

- No. Only to thank you for today. I needed that. 

Her expression immediately changed and she looked at me with surprise in her eyes. I can be nice if I want to, but how you can see, I don't want to do it. 

- No problem. I hope that I have helped you. 

- You did. If it's not a problem for you, I would love to talk with you again tomorrow. 

- I'll see if I can do it. I can't promise you anything. 

- It's ok, I understand. 

With that, she walked away. I have no idea what just happened, but I feel better. Chloe really thinks that I am a good boy. She has no idea with who she is messing, but I won't stop her. After all, it's her choice. I'm glad that she came. I feel like she cares about me, no matter that she didn't say it. I don't want Dani to be right, but I feel like this might happen. It's nice how she thinks that there are people who care about me. I won't tell her about my parents, because this is something personal and I don't like to talk about that. I hope that she will come tomorrow again. I like talking with her. Like that, I feel comfortable to talk about what I think and I know that she won't judge me. Otherwise, she wasn't going to be so calm, while was talking with me today. Maybe Chloe is what I need.