When we met.

Left Broken.

Lindsey's P.O.V

As I sat unpacking each box and suitcase I had filled with my home belongings, I couldn't help but re-live the memories that came with them. I opened one box to see my teddy bear facing up at me, my parents gave me her a week before they died and ever since then I couldn't look at it.

Flashback in Lindsey's P.O.V as a child:

"How's my favourite princess doing today",

As my dad sat on my bed I could feel the mattress sink a little and a little more as he raised his hand to feel my temperature.

"Still a bit ill huh kiddo"

I nodded at him and he tucked me into my bed more as I felt dizzy, "would you like something to eat?" I shook my head at him, the thought of food just made me want to vomit.

"Soup maybe, sweetheart you have to eat something if you try and eat I will give you your present". I wanted to know what my present was so bad that I said yes to the soup. It was a bad idea later on though as I threw it up everywhere, "Oh sweetheart you tried". He carried me back to bed and tucked me in, my mom had gone to the chemist to see if there was anything for me to have and when she got back she held an orange bottle in her hand. Medicine.

"Mommy no", she walked closer to me with a spoon and the bottle in her hand, "sweetheart this is the only way you will get better" I got forced to take this dreadful medicine that I over-exaggerated the horrible taste on as it actually wasn't that bad but they didn't need to know that. "Now I think she deserves her present what about you darling", I sat up a little in bed as my mom nodded, "I think she does yes". They told me to close my eyes so I put my hand over them and when they told me to open I sat looking at this pure white teddy bear in front of me. "Do you like her?" I swept her up in my arms and began cuddling her, "I'll take that as a yes, what are you going to name her?" My parents looked at me in anticipation as I sat there thinking long and hard about what my new companions name would be. "Oooh, I know", I pretended to whisper in the bear's ear and make it nod as I told it her name, "Mom, Dad meet Cottontail".

End of Flashback:

Looking back now I personally think they blackmailed me into earning my present but I don't mind now, I'd just wish they would be able to do it again. As I was near to the end of packing I could hear shouting downstairs and I knew both voices all too well by now to recognise that Alfred was shouting at Logan, I just didn't know what about. I made my way downstairs only to be seen by Josie who put her finger to her lip and ushered me into the other room, "what's that about?" I sat on the sofa whilst Josie made sure no one was coming before shutting the door behind us. "They're arguing about you my dear, it seems as though Alfred has taken a liking to you" I sighed as I had already caused more trouble in a few days than someone has made in a year probably. "Why about me?" she sat on the sofa and smiled across me as if I had no idea what this life meant for the work staff and really I don't. "Well it's a long story really, it started when Logan's parents passed away really. Alfred took him in and made sure he kept out of trouble which never worked, we all worked together to raise him and he was lovely really, that was until he met her". She stopped and frowned as I could tell she was thinking about this woman she clearly didn't like, "she was nothing like you, you're kind and loving and I only picked that up in a few days but she was nothing of the sort. She twisted his life around when she became his sub, it was as if Logan was no longer the young boy me and Alfred raised, instead he was consumed with darkness, lust and just pure hatred for most people unless you were her. He pushed us all away as she was the only sub he broke his rules for, the only sub he truly loved. It was only three years ago that she tore him apart, used him for his money and left him just as he proposed to her". I sat mouth wide open as I couldn't believe what I was hearing about this woman, now I know why Josie didn't seem to like her all that much. "Anyway he picked himself up, apologised to us all and returned to back to his life of work and commitment to only work. Until he met you that is", I didn't understand what she meant by that but before I could ask she told me I mustn't repeat a thing about what she told me and left. I sat for a little bit longer on the sofa, the fire on and a book in my hand as I may as well occupy myself since I'm done unpacking and Logan is working. I turned my head to look at the time and it was late so I placed my bookmark in my book, switched off the fire and left the room to go to bed. It seems different not sleeping with Logan tonight or any other night but I won't give him the satisfaction of seeing me upset, after all, I'm not supposed to feel anything towards him apart from lust, desire and obliged to satisfy each and every one of his needs.

Just as my eyes began to close after a long period of time of battling with my mind about what I feel and want my door opened, I closed my eyes and pretended I was asleep. The footsteps got closer and I could smell his scent, dam that sent is alluring. I felt him lift the sheets and then the weight of his body in my bed, his body so close to mine and his breath cold on my neck. "I know you're awake Lindsey", I turned around in my bed and used the cover as a way to shield my half naked body from him which apparently he didn't like as his face burned up in anger. "Why are you covering your body from me?" he asked shallowly, "I want to". In almost seconds he got out of bed and pulled me along with him which hurt my arm quite a bit. He sat on the chair that was in front of the bed and pulled my body down with him so that my stomach was on his legs and breasts pressing into the very edge of his legs which hurt. "Why did you cover your body from me?" I knew what was coming, why did I have to cover my body. He removed my knickers and threw them to the other side of the room. "I'd answer me if I were you", I was silent as I had no idea what I was meant to say but I obviously took to long to answer as he spanked me as hard as he could across my ass. "Why did you do it?" I felt my face burn up and tear slide down my face as he struck me again, "I was cold", was all I could think of. He struck me again but this time it was harder, he repeated this 10 times swapping between my ass cheeks and when he was done my eyes stung with tears. He lifted me up and tossed me on the bed and just as I thought he wanted s*x he left.

That wasn't the man I spent time with last night, I curled up in bed and had to lie on the side as my ass was sore as hell and I just cried.