The hardest part

Just a day

That night I hit my knees and prayed for my momma. I begged god to let her be ok and beat this. I kiss my kids goodnight and went to bed.

The Next Day

I wake up and called my momma to see how she was feeling. She was in pain but ok mostly. I tell her I love her and we hang up. i start making breakfast and cleaning but my mind was swirling. My heart aching... Theres a knock at the door amd snaps me back to reality. I open the door amd there stands Chad... he opens his month to speak but I stop him. "Look i dont wanna hear your lies I give You chance after chance and I know I going to say one more rime but its not true so just come in and leave me alone for now ok." I say as I walk away.

Later on he trys to hug me from behind but im so mad at him i cant see straight so I dont say anthying or turn toward him. He keeps pushing up against me and I know what Hes wanting I shake my head and say "can you at least wait til the kids are asleep?" "You stupid b×××h why do I always have to wait you giving it to someone else?" he says. I roll my eyes and turn back to the dishes. I tell him "smell me, feel me, whatever you got to do to see for yourself. im sick of this everyday its something. I will not choose you over my momma or kids." He doesnt know about my momma yet so I close my eyes and turn back toward him " my momma has cancer. We will know what kind and stage as soon as her test comes back." I sigh... I try not to show him but my heart is broken. He hugs me and says hes "im so sorry darlin shes strong tho." Yea I know but it sucks ass." I say almost too low to hear

I finish cleaning the kitchen and head to the room. I already kno what he has on his mind so I go shower and climb in bed. I give him some and im not going to lie and say it was horrible because well it wasnt. He was a damn good lover. His d**k isnt huge but its so think and sexy. Taking every inch of his rock hard d**k felt amazing. The way he moved his hips and would hit my g spot ok he was definitely by far the best id ever had. I laid there and enjoyed the feeling of him inside of me. The way his big soft lips felt so good on mine and the way he kisses my p***y and sucks her off.. OMG it was beyond amazing. The smell of beer killed it alot thought. She buried her head in his chest as he f****d her hard and sweet amd perfect as she finishes on his thick d**k multiple times.

I go in the living room and my kids room, kiss mt babies and tell them I love them and goodnight. They say theirs prayers I cut the lights out and head to my room to lay down and kiss him goodnight. I roll over but cant really get to sleep. I say my prayers and thank god for what I have a ask him to hold my momma tight and to let her beat this cancer. I just lay there and think about my momma with tears in my eyes. I called her early after I cooked dinner she was ok just tired and sore. I missed her and wanted to hear her voice but didnt wanna wake her so I laid there and let my mind wonder my eyes start getting heavy and I finaly doze off ...