“How many times do I have to tell you that it’s not your fault Trevor?”
She exclaimed with extreme worry and annoyance on her face. I think she has told me that phrase a million times already and I know that it should have been imprinted on my mind already. But I guess I’m just really difficult.
I can’t calm the demons in my head. I can’t make them stop and I don’t even know if I deserve to stop them just to have peace. I don’t think I deserve anything when I let a lot of people down. I failed. I failed so many times that I don’t think I even deserve to live.
Kelly and I have fought more times in our lives than the number of times that we celebrated our birthdays. She’ll always be mad at me and cry. And that’s something because ever since we started this job, she hasn’t really
