Spoken word based on love

UNFORTUNATE INCIDENT THAT KILLS ME EVERYDAY

What kills me everyday will change me one day,

Every day something kills me within my heart,

Every night am about to sleep, i can't stop thinking of the person who hurt me,

I keep thinking whether if am not perfect in relationship but what I know is that love is not looking for perfection intend

love is looking for perfection even in imperfection.

Then why? And why are they leaving?

I want to shout to the world that "AM NOT OKAY", I want to tell the world that am alone, " I need some help". Can anyone help me?

Every 24/7 , I look that phone thinking that I will receive any messages or calls but am unfortunately am not luck

My mind will says "don't anyone care about you"? "Do people hate you" ?

My mind will leave me full of unanswered questions,

And I smile and say to my mind that I am not prefect and I don't have any friends.

Then why will people care,

When I am supposed to sleep, I keep thinking of unfortunate incident that happened.

Sometimes I fell sick because of its unfortunate incident, I feel like I don't deserve to live.

Until one day, I realized that nothing in this world is permanent, people will come, they will hurt you and leave and left you with scars which will take a lifetime to heal.

I stopped watching things that might lead me to unreasonable imagination, I stopped listening to people I shouldn't listening to, I stopped have relationship with people that will destroy my life.

This is how what kills me everyday change me ,

And the unfortunate incident is HEARTBREAK.