Chapter 12- Andrew
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It breaks my own heart to see Anna trying to be strong and crying at the loss of us. I wish I could take it away but I don’t have the power to do that, the alliance has put a stop to that.
I always knew that being Alpha would mean making sacrifices but this has been the biggest, most heart rendering sacrifice. She cries herself to sleep and I give her what I can to aid her sleep, I tell her the truth because I will always want her and I will always care for her and take care of her, she has made a massive sacrifice for me too, she refused to reject me, foreseeing that it could weaken me as Alpha.
I stay with her for longer than is necessary, just in case she wakes again, and my presence seems to soothe her. I stroke her lovely dark glossy hair, I wipe her tears away and I hold her hand, when I try to let go of her hand she tightens her grip, which makes me smile, she’s possessive in her sleep!
I think back to the first time we met, it was almost three years ago. My wolf knew something was different but I was too dumb to realise it and Anna was too young to know any different.
One of my younger warriors had been goading her for being a Crescent Moon girl and in one swift move she had him begging for mercy and submitted on the floor.
I was impressed by her then, I felt mesmerised by her, not just the fact that she was gorgeous with her long hair in waves and big innocent blue eyes. She was strong, principled and even when she knew she would get into trouble she faced up to the consequences of her actions.
Even though I didn’t see her again for well over a year I would think about her often and she would visit me in my dreams.
I acknowledge that I wanted her back then but she was still a child.
When I seen her again, she had grown up, she was almost 17 years old this time and although I didn’t get a chance to talk to her I will be honest and admit I was jealous as hell when I noticed other men trying to talk to her, trying to get her attention.
And yet I still didn’t see it.
When Alex met his mate and didn’t know who she was and we couldn’t find her, Anna approached me on Katy’s behalf, for a small moment I was horrified when I mistakenly thought Anna was Alex’s mate. The beguiling young woman who had started visiting my dreams almost on a nightly basis, and I had never felt relief like I felt when she confirmed she wasn’t Alex’s mate, Katy was, and yet I still didn’t realise or acknowledge that this could be something more, this could be the moon goddess.
And now both me and Anna will pay for my ignorance and impatience for the rest of our lives.
My brothers words repeat over and over in my head for what it’s worth, I’m sorry, you would have been great together.
It’s true, oh so true, the moon goddess blessed me with Anna as my fated mate knowing we would compliment each other, she is the perfect girl for me in every way, she is perfect in every way and it makes me so mad, and even sad that we can never be.
If only I had realised, if only I hadn’t realised so late, this alluring beauty could have been all mine. We would have been amazing, she would have been the Luna both me and my pack have needed. She would have been the best wife and mother that any man would be honoured to spend his life with. If only. If only.
I kiss her goodbye, just on her forehead. I kiss her tiny hand in mine and then I reluctantly walk away from her, and try and catch my heart up on what my head already knows.
We cannot be together.
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