After helping Katy I go back to my bedroom and I have a quick shower myself although I tie my hair back, I don’t have time to wash and dry it right now.
It is while I’m washing my body I consider whether Katy could be pregnant with twins, but I just keep rationalising that most women get some sickness when carrying and that we are being over cautious because of Katy’s family history of twins.
If it is twins Katy is going to need all the help she can get and whilst I am thankful Andrew has given me a free pass to visit it pains me to think if I come here to help Katy I am going to be bumping in to him and his new wife and just the thought of it hurts. I don’t know if I am strong enough or selfless enough. What if they have pups too. I am destined for a lonely life of pain.
I have to
