Written by the Moon

11~ PRIDE

I went straight to my room. I really don’t know what to feel. After what Christiana and I said, I have no clue what to exactly feel. I feel wronged, yes. But I also wronged someone. I feel cheated. But I know someone also felt cheated.

I just don’t know where to place myself. I was hurt! He was also hurt! I wiped the lone tear that fell. I closed the door to my room and slumped myself at the back of it. I gripped my hair so hard that it hurt.

After a while, I felt my body tired and in pain. I stood up and started to walk to my bed when I felt the harsh opening of my door. I turned around and saw the mad Christiana. I am too tired to talk. Even defending myself felt tiring.

“You seriously want to die?” she spat at me.

I sighed but it just got her even annoyed. With her hands’ grip, she pulled me to the balcony. I winced in every move when I felt my body ache. We went to the balcony and we even saw the pack still in the front yard. I furrowed my brows at my sight.

“Look at me, Nav. Take this situation seriously, please,”

I really feel nothing as of now. I just want myself to be slumped in my bed and just simply rot. I pursed my lips when I saw how her face is confused. She must be confused with everything that has happened. Especially with my attitude.

I sighed.

“I’m sorry. I… I just don’t know how to feel,”

I know I did something wrong. Maybe I’m just in denial. I bitterly smiled. Up until now, I’m still like this.

“Let me see your scar,”

My eyes widened a fraction at what she said. I thought she was mad at me. With my body still in shock, she gently turned me around. I felt her soft hands gently trace the outer parts of my scar. I heard her sigh heavily.

“Wolves are territorial but they are also prideful. They won’t easily back down. Some packs would just let their member die than swallow their pride. But this pack is different, I’ve known them for five decades,”

I nodded. I turned around to her.

“I know what I did was wrong for that I’m sorry. I’m sorry… for going outside late at night. But… I am not sorry for defending myself,”

Christiana subtly nodded.

She looked down at the balcony. I turned to where her eyes were. My mood immediately shifted when I saw the injured wolf. I fisted my palm seeing it being carried by its fellow. I felt the surge of guilt fill my body. I saw how he winced and endured the pain.

I am an Angel with the power of being the only one to cure or reverse my spells. Some witches can do that too. But only some of the elites have the ability. The nobles and the royalties are common with that ability.

“I am your mentor in this world. I will be strict with you but I will also protect you and give you your rights,”

I realized that I am wrong. In the first place, I went to their territory. Being ignorant and hardheaded that’s what lead me to that situation last night. It’s my fault. The wolf’s reaction was natural. It is supposed to protect its land. So, what I did was wrong. And I should be to blame.

But seeing how Christiana sided with me despite knowing I am at fault, she still somehow protected me.

We went downstairs and there everybody was waiting for the wolf to say something. He looks young. Probably years younger than me. The left side of his stomach was swollen. That was where I hit him yesterday. I licked my lips when I observed the injury.

“Eloise Naveah, I apologize for my actions last night,” I sensed how he was forced to do this.

He must have no choices at all in this situation. He’ll die if he wouldn’t go with my conditions. Still, I am at fault too.

“I also apologize for what I did last night. I didn’t know but I was still wrong,”

He simply nodded and closed his eyes. My essence felt the pain he’s enduring. We said it. Our apologies are done. I took a step closer. I saw how attentive Marcus was. I smiled at him for assurance. I turned to the wolf immediately that I didn’t notice the opposition on the face Markus had.

“Wait!”

Our heads snapped in Markus’ direction. I gave him my confused look. And he looked constipated at this situation.

“You used your powers last night, right?”

The question was for me. I nodded but I was getting cautious. I got more confused when Mark faced Christiana and gave her a knowing look. My brows furrowed when I didn’t get what Mark was intending.

“Not now, Markus. Nav needs to cure him immediately,” Christiana swallowed hard after the last words.

“By risking her?!”

With Marks’ words, I started to puzzle it now. I am new here in Athanatoss. Even if I am not an Angel, I still need a month for my body to be adjusted by the place. It’s risky if I use my powers too much in this place. It will weaken my body and it will be hard for me to recover. I slowly looked at Christiana. My mind couldn’t accept it. She knew. From the look of her face.

From the sweat that was building on her forehead, she knew what will happen to me the moment I cure this wolf.

“She will be worn out, Christiana. She’ll grow weak in this world or worse die!” I could see the rage in Marks’ eyes.

I shook my head slowly. I can’t believe her!

“You… you knew,”

Christiana closed her eyes and massaged her temples.

“Is she new here?” the Alpha of the pack asked.

Markus only nodded as a response.

But with my rage boiling and my mind in haywire, I couldn’t think well. I decided in pulse. A deal is a deal. He already said he’s sorry. I accepted it and it’s my turn to cure him.

I gave Christiana a last look. I shot daggers at her apologetic eyes. Who cares?

“If this is what you want then fine,”

Without a second thought, I emitted my light and used all my remaining essence. My palm touched the swollen area of his stomach that made him wince. My eyes briefly met Forests’ shocked expression.

With all my last powers, my body weaken. Every corner of the room was kissed with my light but it instantly vanished when every bit of my powers was used. My body trembled as my knees shook. I tried to grasp some air but I couldn’t.

Something in my chest was blocking the entrance which I couldn’t breathe. My vision blurred. But my ears were still conscious when I felt my body give up.

“Nav!” Markus ran to me.

I felt a warm body embrace me before I could fall to the floor. Even with that, my body still struggled since I couldn’t catch some air. Until everything went black and I went unconscious.

I have always made impulsive decisions in life. Wherein anger makes the best of me. just like this, I have let my emotions take me for granted. And I situations like this, I end up feeling guilty or regretting my choices.

My body’s energy was simply sipped or… I gave too much of my essence. Again, with my awful decision-making. I opened my eyes when I felt a cooling essence entering my body. My body immediately reacted when I was able to catch my breath. Though, my eyes were closed. I felt my body alive.

When my eyelids had the strength to open, my eyes met the gaze of Forest.

To be continued…